Chapter 70 (2/2)

If he could trust no one in this lifetime, then his life would be too much of a failure. Very obvious, in Yin Suye's eyes, he himself in his past life was a complete failure. Even though he finally became the Supreme Human King above tens of thousands of people, he never had even one real friend. It was a lonely life where everyone in the world seems to be your enemy, a life who could drive people crazy! Actually when he was finally defeated by Huang Beichen, other than feeling unwilling, he also felt an unprecedented sense of relaxation. Finally he could leave this world that causes him feel hate and despair!

But he never expect that after he died, he was reborn!

At that time, he didn't feel any joy from being reborn at all. What's there was a thick sense of dissatisfaction, anger, resentment…

Why is it when he finally be free, he came back to experience again the injustice of his fate, the world that was cruel to him…

Just when he decided to completely destroy this unsightly world, Shui Ruoshan appeared in front of him and told him that he could trust him. This caused the him whose emotions were at the edge of collapsing regained a bit of reasoning. He admits it, at that moment he was touched and bewitched by Shui Ruoshan's beautiful words. Shui Ruoshan was like a driftwood that appeared at the time he was most desperate, bringing him hope, so he hugged it tightly. Although he wanted to convince himself to believe, he doesn't dare to do so. Because he is afraid of being betrayed again! He could no longer afford to be deceived again, otherwise the him who has lost hope for the world will really collapsed/become crazy! And so in their interactions later on, even when he keep testing Shui Ruoshan again and again, he still couldn't really rest assured! His past experience really caused him to no longer be trustful in other people. At one side, he wished that Shui Ruoshan would stay like this forever where he can always trust him, while on the other side he keep thinking when would Shui Ruoshan finally betray him.

Contradicting and complicated.

Until later on where Shui Ruoshan did something for his sake completely beyond his expectations, letting him think that he can finally can be hopeful and has expectations, destiny once again make a joske with him. To actually let Shui Ruoshan witnessed his killing scene. If that moment Shui Ruoshan became fearful and ran away from him, he doesn't know what kind of thing he will do at that moment! Fortunately, Shui Ruoshan didn't let him down. But at the same time, Shui Ruoshan didn't give him enough hope. It's this kind of 'not up, but not down' feeling let Yin Suye felt extremely annoyed! He wished to place Shui Ruoshan in all seriousness in his(YSY) heart, so that whenever he(YSY) felt tired, there would be a place for him to rely on. Even if Shui Ruoshan's tiny figure is not enough for him to lean on, but that kind of satisfaction mentally was enough to make him remain and linger.

When one get their hands on some warmth, they couldn't bear to let go and would even want to get more.

This is the reason why Yin Suye was greedy for such warmth the more he interacted with shui Ruoshan. If he can, he really want to hide Shui Ruoshan away in a place no one else could find. This way, there will be only one person in Shui Ruoshan's eyes and heart! But he will not do that because he really placed Shui Ruoshan in his heart. That's why he was worrying whether his arbitrary action would caused Shui Ruoshan to be unhappy, then finally like everyone else, stayed further and further away from him. If so, his world would be just himself once again.

He couldn't afford to pay that price anymore!

So he allowed Shui Ruoshan to interact with other people, allowed him to be overly friendly with other people, because everything was within his control so he doesn't has to worry. But also because he already placed heavy importance on Shui Ruoshan that he couldn't tolerate the fact that the little guy is hiding something from him. Any troublesome matter or people that might destroy the relationship between them, he will not allow it to exist. And the secret in Shui Ruoshan is a very obvious point. Since he (accidentally) let Shui Ruoshan saw his killing, some things were destined to be unable to escape, unable to deceive oneself anymore. Then no need to wait anymore, proactive attack is the best strategy. No matter what, he must get the answer he wants this time!

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Banana: This month's end, I'm going to be busy in RL so there will not be any release this Friday. Sorry for that _(;3/