170 Lost girl, lost again (1/2)
Mia was continuing her path towards the stones of Avebury in her attempt to find out where the demons that could increase her power to face Hana were hiding while she continued to wait for her eventual fight with Ellie in a couple of days.
Her journey was going much smoother right now since that voice in her head that kept singing pop songs and talking to her pretending to act like they were mother and daughter suddenly got quiet.
”... Evlin...?” she whispered.
The voice of Evlin was in fact so quiet that it made Mia worry and wonder if she was still even there.
The girl with ponytails couldn't help her curiosity and took a dive into the white void to check on Evlin's state.
Like always, the place was looking completely empty with nothing but white no matter where you looked.
The only thing that stood out was a small seven-year-old girl that was just sitting on a corner and hugging her legs while burying her head in them.
Mia approached the girl and touched her shoulder, ”Evlin...? Evlin!”
”What do you want??” the girl responded. She appeared to be in a bad mood from the tone of her voice.
Mia just stared at her for a couple of moments. It appeared that Evlin was still shaken from her small scare at the sight of the dark void. Mia wondered if she would need to stay by her side again. The last time she did so, she had to wait for hours until Evlin started to feel better. She really didn't want to go through that again.
”Why do you still look like this?” Mia asked.
”I don't know... Who cares?” Evlin responded, still not lifting her head.
”I care! If you are looking like this is because you are still afraid! If you are afraid, your negative emotions will start coming over to my body, and I will turn into a demon!” Mia shouted.
Evlin then lifted her head to properly look at Mia.
”I need to know if you can get back to normal so I won't have to worry about you!” Mia added.
Evlin glared at her visitor, ”It's always about you... Isn't it?”
”Eh...?” Mia tilted her head.
”I need to avoid becoming a demon! I need to visit grandma! I need to die while fighting someone! I need to find a bunch of demons to play bowling with! I need this! I need that! It's always about me, me, and me!! Do you ever take some time to think... Dang! There are other people in the world besides me!?”
”What are you babbling about?” Mia asked.
”I'm hurt, you goddamn moron!!” Evlin shouted.
”Wha...?”
”...”
”I need someone to help me! To comfort me! To tell me everything will be ok! Someone to be by my side... But all you can talk about are your goddamn stupid freaking demons and your idiotic quest to find someone to help you kick the bucket!! Don't you think there might be things more important than just your own problems?” Evlin shouted.
”Excuse me??? You think your problems are more important than mine?? I've been stuck in a body that can't die for ages and with each passing day, I forget more and more what's like to feel anything! Every day I get closer to turning into an empty shell! Meanwhile, you got scared a little because of your bad history with crowds and you want ME to comfort you??” Mia shouted back while pushing Evlin as well.
”Oh, boo hoo, let me play a sad song for you on the world's smallest violin! If you're so afraid of forgetting what's like to feel anything, why were you trying to push me away!?”
”Because you were annoying the hell out of me!! You kept trying to talk to me about pointless things while I was just trying to focus on my goal!”
”I was trying to talk to you, you idiot!! Trying to help!” Evlin stated while stomping her feet.
”Help?? How could you possibly help me??”
”I was trying to inspire you to give up on your dumb idea and stop trying to destroy yourself by trying to connect with you and becoming your friend!”
”Why!!?? Why do you care!!?? I never asked you to be my friend!”
”Because nobody cared about ME when I needed help!! And I don't wanna be like these people!!”
”So this is all about your dumb pride?? You wanna use me to prove that you're better than them?”
”Oh my God! Why is it so hard for you to just accept someone else's help??”
”Because I don't need your help!! I needed you to end me and you couldn't do it! Now I just need you to stay out of my way so I can find someone who can!”
”Why do you need to be ended!!?? Why can't we just try to work together to find another way??”
”BECAUSE IT'S TOO LATE FOR ME!!!!” Mia shouted, even louder than before.
Evlin just looked at her unsure of what to say next.
”It's... It's too late for me...” Mia continued while crouching. This time, she was the one hugging her own knees, ”I caused too much damage by this point... I ruined and killed many lives... I can never have a happy life again by this point...”
”...”
”All that's left is to keep causing more damage... Until I can find someone that can stop me...”
”...”
Evlin took a sit by Mia's side and kept staring at her while hugging her knees as well. She noticed that the ponytailed girl was crying.
”I'm sorry I couldn't help you...” Evlin whispered.
”It's fine... You tried your best...” Mia responded.
”...”