72 The next thing youll do is call his name when Im making love to you (1/2)
”Dude, I'm going crazy over here. I just know I am.” Xuan Chaya lamented to Xiao Maiguo on his cellphone.
Xiao Maiguo, sitting on the edge of a king-sized bed, blanket draped around his waist, replied. ”Calm down. What's going on?”
”I can feel myself falling in love, and I can't stop it. The worse part is that I don't even want to.”
”Who are you falling in love with?” Xiao Maiguo asked. Feigning ignorance.
”You know very well, you bastard.”
Xiao Maiguo chuckled in reply.
”Don't laugh. It's not even funny. I catch feelings for someone for the first time and it happens to be a man?”
”Dude, I can't even tell if you're having a gay-panic or a love-panic. Which is it?”
”I don't know. Both?”
”Where is he?”
”He went out. On some stupid date with some other man. The thought of what they might be up to is driving me nuts.”
”You have those kind of feelings for him. Why did you let him go out with someone else?”
”What could I do? I told him he was free to date. I didn't know I'd start liking him myself.” Xuan Chaya said.
”You know, maybe you don't like him. You're probably confused about your feelings because you feel guilty about faking your relationship and your guilt is causing you to feel things that aren't really there.”
”I think he's cute, Xiao Maiguo. I've never thought a guy was cute before.”
Xiao Maiguo raised a brow. He didn't know if Xuan Chaya wanted him to encourage or discourage him. ”You're right to think he's cute. I mean, I've seen his pictures. He is cute.”
”When he laughs, my heart leaps for joy.”
Xiao Maiguo rolled his eyes.
Xuan Chaya groaned. ”Every word that comes out of his mouth has the power to drastically change my mood. Has that ever happened to you?”
”Maybe you really just care about him as a friend.”
”I'm jealous, protective and I even let him use my stuff.”
Xiao Maiguo sat straight. ”You let him use your stuff? Wow! This is serious.”
”That's what I've been trying to tell you.”
”What do you plan to do then?”
Xuan Chaya sighed. ”I don't know. Maybe I'll just go with the flow and see how it goes.”
”Or maybe you could take your time to figure out your feelings first before you say anything to him. You don't want to find out you don't feel anything for him and end up hurting him, right?”
”Right. But I am sure about my feelings.”
”Like you were sure about Lily?”
Xuan Chaya kept quiet.
”You thought you liked her. Until you found out you only liked her because she didn't want you. And before you knew it, someone had gotten hurt and it was already too late.”
Xuan Chaya sighed. ”I knew what I felt for Lily from the start. I just always thought I would always want her.”
”But you didn't?”
Xuan Chaya was quiet. ”This is different. I know what I'm feeling.”
”You called for my advice, didn't you?”
”I did.” Xuan Chaya muttered.
”Good.” Xiao Maiguo said. ”Are you going to take it or not?”
Xuan Chaya was silent for another moment. Releasing a puff of air, he said, ”I will.”
”Good.” Xiao Maiguo commended him.
”I've got to go now, okay?” Xuan Chaya said.
”Okay, bye. But make sure to keep me updated, okay?”
”Okay.” Xuan Chaya said, and disconnected the call.