43 Chapter 42: Waking Up to Something Different 1 (2/2)
”The crown prince has arrived!” the Eunuch mentioned and everyone saluted, then I walk towards the center
”Greetings to the Emperor, may the Emperor grace his kingdom a few thousand years more” I saluted my father
The emperor laughed
”Why are you so serious? Tomorrow we will be having a banquet for the arrival of Lord Pegasus, now receive my decree”
Eunuch Fang brought a decree and read it loudly.
”The crown prince of Crimson Blood Kingdom, Xie Yue Yang is betrothed to the third miss of the Qin's Clan. The marriage date will be a year from now. Receive the decree!”
I felt my knees weaken on its own. My body gave up and I kneeled down to receive my father's decree. A marriage? But why?
He knew I cannot bear getting into a relationship with a woman. How can he bestow a marriage out of a sudden? Why?
Why is he punishing me? I know it is a sin to have a liking towards the same sex, but I cannot help it. My idea of being happy is to be with someone I am very comfortable of. And I cannot just abandon everything for a girl, now can I?
”I humbly receive the emperor's decree, hail to the emperor, may you live a thousand years more” I answered
Then I stood and walk to my seat dejectedly. There at the corner I saw the son of the city's lord, Han Soujin. A great warrior with good looks, someone I knew right when I was born. Someone who defended me in times of trouble and someone who's dear to me. How can I bear to be away from my own best friend?
How can I leave him for a random woman that I have never known existed?
Grief engulfed my heart.
”Your highness, his majesty the emperor has instructed me to bring you somewhere”
”But the meeting hasn't started yet”
”Your highness it is the emperor's order, we need to hurry your highness”
I stood and followed the eunuch. We walked towards my mother's courtyard, but my mother, the empress of this nation has already passed away. I as the only heir, will inherit everything that my parents have created. But my standing in court is opposed by many, they say I never had a woman by my side so they were doubting if I can rule without an heir.
For years my father has let me mingle with different girls, but I chose to go to the battlefield instead and fight with the rebels. That's because I can never confront him about myself. And I may be outstanding, but I never had the heart of a man.