44 Chapter 43: Waking Up to Something Different 2 (1/2)
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Date Published: March 28, 2020
Chapter Title: Waking Up to Something Different (2)
Chapter no. 43
(Crown Prince Xie Yue Yang's POV)
I composed myself.
I walked so fast that I haven't noticed how many years have passed since I've last visited this courtyard. My mother died because my father cannot protect her from herself. My mother never wanted to marry my father but the fixed marriage between the two was planned by the elders. If my mother break the engagement she and her family will perish in public. So my mother was forced into marrying my father. Lucky for them, my parents loved each other so dearly that it left my father ruling the kingdom alone when she passed away. And memories came flooding in my mind as I came unexpectedly, to reminisce the past that I cannot bury.
Now that the tradition is passed to me I cannot say anything at all. My father arranged a marriage for me, and for sure a week from now we will go to the Qin's manor and ensure the arrangements of the marriage. But how can I force a woman to marry a man she has never known? What's worst is that I don't have the ability to love a woman. How can she agree to a marriage that was set without her permission? How can she agree marrying into a loveless marriage?
How will she bear to marry me?
And what if she already has a lover?
I don't want to turn someone into a crazy woman and I don't want someone to follow the path that my mother has walked through. The difference is that; I am doubting if I am capable of loving her. This kingdom has so many enemies, so how will I put her into the highest seat of safety? How will care blossom in my heart? When my father trained me to be a heartless one.
”You worry too much” I received a light tap on my shoulder
”Lord Pegasus?” I was dumbfounded by seeing his presence, I bowed and saluted right after
”I said you worry too much, don't worry she is different.” He said, then he reminded me of the pending responsibility that I will need to face alone
”But--”
”Do not worry, she has answers to your greatest fears. Just go with the flow of fate, let it take you to unexpected adventures. Planning too much will lead you to failure, look we can never control time nor feelings. I have seen this girl grow, and she is different” He said, giving me assurance that if I let go of my doubts something good will happen
”But I am--” Yet I want to try to explain my side, how can I leave that man? I know my closest friend doesn't know a thing of my growing admiration towards him, but I cannot just give him up