Chapter 80 (1/2)
This time, Xie Ruhe heard the words of shunian clearly, and the original trace of sleepiness was intended to disappear at this moment. His lips opened, and some of his fluffy hair curled up, like a few dull hairs.
Without waiting for him to make any response, the reading seemed to be difficult to follow, and it seemed to slip in along the gap between Xie Ruhe and the doorframe.
The temperature of the air conditioner in this room is very low, like two worlds outside. Xie Ruhe doesn't have the habit of turning on the light when he sleeps. It's cold and dark inside.
Shunian walks to Xie Ruhe's bedside with the light from outside, and climbs up in silence.
Xie Ruhe is still standing by the door.
Late at night, she came suddenly.
Xie Ruhe had no idea how to react. He felt that he was dreaming. His brain was blank. The first thought that comes out of my mind is that I'm afraid of the dark when I study.
The next moment, Xie Ruhe reached out and turned on the light switch.
The light is yellowish white, bright like sunlight.
Shunian wore a beige Nightgown of cotton and hemp, the length of which was over the knee. She was afraid of going out, and deliberately pulled the skirt. She climbed to the wall and covered herself with a quilt.
Xie Ruhe quietly closed the door and locked it.
The room is not big, the narrow space seems to enlarge the atmosphere at the moment, and also clear some small, imperceptible movements.
Door lock ”Ding” a sound, the wind outside gently beat to the sound of the window, two people exhaled breath.
Later, Xie Ruhe went to the bedside table, picked up the remote control, and raised the temperature of the air conditioner. ”Do you feel cold?” he asked in a low voice
Shunian gave a vague hum.
The room fell into endless silence again.
After lowering the temperature, Xie Ruhe still stood in the same place and did not lie on the bed. He looked down at the remote control in his hand and didn't know what he was thinking.
Half of shunian's face was buried in the quilt, looking in his direction secretly.
I can only see his side face, which is soft dyed by the light, wearing casual and clean clothes. There's nothing like him in the dream.
If there is parallel space-time.
If the parallel time and space in the book read like a dream as the choice.
Now, Xie Ruhe in the parallel space-time.
Are you still looking for traces of Zeng Yuanxue, or have you left the world quietly in that house with despair and destruction.
I always feel that death is the greatest liberation for myself, including others.
I feel that I can't go on, so I choose to die, and then I have no consciousness. Whether she is happy or not, or whether he is sad or not, it has nothing to do with her.
I don't know what will happen later.
Do not know, in fact, the living people, the pain is not less than the dead people.
Shunian's nose was sour. He pulled off the quilt and asked in a low voice, ”why don't you sleep?”
Xie Ruhe licked his lips, raised his hand and scratched his head in a low voice.
”Sleep.”
After a few seconds, Xie Ruhe slowly went to bed.
He looked at the pillow he was leaning against, remembered the situation before, hesitated and consciously put the pillow on his side between them.
”Xie Ruhe.” Shunian didn't pay much attention to his actions, and suddenly said, ”I just had a dream.”
Aware of her emotions, Xie Ruhe didn't ask her what she had dreamt, but comforted her: ”all dreams are false.”
”When I wake up, I know it's fake.” Shunian stares at the ceiling. ”In the past, he always had some bad dreams. When he wakes up, he knows it's false, but somehow he starts to be afraid. He's afraid that these things will come true one day in the future.”
”No,” Xie Ruhe said seriously
”But after I woke up this time, I only felt, fortunately, it was a dream, fortunately, it was a fake, fortunately I can stop this from happening. ” Shunian sniffed, ”it's the first time I've felt this way.”
Smell speech, Xie Ruhe looks at her.
”I'm sorry.” Shunian raised his eyes and suddenly sat up. ”I said that to you today.”
She had a bad time.
Because the shame and inferiority feeling brought by other people's words entangled her like a vine and eroded her reason. It's so painful that I want to use my life to pay off the debt that doesn't exist.
I think it's good for each other.
But also forget, Xie Ruhe's mother, with her suffered the same thing.
He lost his mother because of Zeng Yuanxue.
It's going to be unbearable. It's going to happen a second time.
Xie Ruhe reached for her head and did not speak.
”I'll take good care of it in the future.” Shunian pursed his lips and said seriously, ”I won't refuse what the doctor asked me to do and the treatment plan I want to do because I'm afraid.”“……”
”I'll try not to care about what others say, and I won't hide from you like before.” Shunian raised his head and looked at Xie Ruhe. She clenched her fist and said what she wanted to say:
”I want to live with you like a normal person.”
I want to be with you.
Live like a normal person.
Live in this, not particularly beautiful, but still a beautiful world.
Xie Ruhe looked down at her face, then grasped her hand and slowly, slowly loosened her clenched fist. He bent his lips, his voice low and hoarse.
”Good.”
This night.
Shunian told Xie Ruhe a lot about the past.
He told him that when he met Zeng Yuanxue in court, he didn't repent of his behavior. Even in the face of lawyers and judges, he is still outspoken.
I feel so sorry that I haven't sent the book to die.