Chapter 34-36 (2/2)

writing a letter, she held her pen to her lips thinking I waited patiently

till she was finished and we are by ourselves and asked her She replied,

‘Well…it

hurts Have you not done it yet?’

As expected,

Mother was a straight-forward person It was a good idea to ask her

‘Well, I’m not

et married?!’ (Zuben: Your mother

is a weirdo, Freddie)

What about a

maiden’s modesty, society’s censure and such like?!

But Mother

just wriggled her eyebrows and gavewhy I had

said that (Zuben: You got an innocent child)

Even if you

thought “Okay, I’ll do it!”, can you do it? There are other things to

consider like the circued to

so to say no’

sex before

e isn’t recommended, if I did it anyway, should I show it off or but on

an air of innocence?

My face got

hot

Mother! What

kind of things are you telling your daughter?!

Mother looked

at entle expression She suddenly

barked out in laughter,

‘Haha!’

Mother

beckoned me over to sit beside her; she caressed my hair as she saidto be a bride soon, when I

thought about it I was deeply impressed’

It’s been a

while since she has done this, so itsaid,

it was pleasant to have mother caress my hair, I closed my eyes and cuddled

closer to her

‘Because you

grew up to be such a good girl by nature, I could relax Thank you,’ Mother

said

‘Such is not

so! It’s because I am Mother’s child…!’

Oh no! Now I

feel like I a of

a parting? I have only couidance about the first time and how to

avoid pain

We ended up

facing each other sole doith a cup of tea and a few biscuits

Mother

regained her coaze,

‘So ould

you like to ask?’ Mother asked She was ready to listen to my questions

I leaned

forward and asked, ‘Is there a good way or excuse to invite a man to bed?’

‘It depends on

ti and the partner It is on occasion Next question’

‘How do I make

a man more attracted to me?’

‘I don’t know

because different people have different tastes Next question’

Hmm, did she

really want to answer my questions?

‘Em, I heard

that it hurts, but should I do to accept him?’

‘Well, trust

General Brennan Open your heart and your crotch If your mind isn’t ready,

your body won’t be ready (Zuben: All is ready, she doesn’t know it yet) You

will becoers to loosen

you up It is not enough, he will use a balm I have prepared the finest kind,

I will give it to you later There is also a coating ointment that is very effective

as well There is nothing special to say but do your best!’ Mother concluded a

little too spiritedly as she clenched her fist up

Huh…what is

with the shout?!

Of course, I

trust Volker, but I don’t know about opening my mind and crotch How to do…what

to do…other than securing perfu!

Mother seemed

to have exhausted herself in that burst of fighting spirit collapsed against

the back rest of the settee, I leaned back beside her I felt a bit breathless,

I got tired in such a short time!

‘You are

worried because he is physically different from you, but I am not worried ‘

Nnn? I turned

my head to Mother

‘In the end

you like hi it is impossible? You till fit

And you are in good shape, so you’ll be alright’

Mother’s words

had no ground or support to back it, but it fell into my heart like a stone

36 One Small

Question

With a vague

confidence in

I wonder if

it is okay I think for a moment and opened my closet

I pulled open

my underwear drawer and pulled out its multicoloured contents

The first

thing I can i pure white underwear like a bride But I’ve

heard that men like wo in

black? No, I don’t think it would suit me A bride is dressed in white in the

first place Did it signify being dyed in a man’s colour? (Zuben: why do these

japanese wo in people’s colour situation?)

Woould I

be dyed in Volker’s colour?!

It is what I

want Will you dye me, Volker?Fu ~oaa~a~aa! Just think about it makes me

what to faint (Zuben: Enough of that carry on, Freddie)

But…

‘I should get

so fresh…’ I said toof

new beginnings’

I’m sure

everyone would take the bride’s underwear for granted because the bride is

cure But if I were to wear underwear especially for the wedding, I would wipe

away my worries about whether or not Volker would like it

Do I have to

devise a plan to find his opinion? Would this involve going to the person or

going to a fashi+onable lingerie shop for research?

I wriggled

left to right as I groaned – ru

‘Miss,’ I was

called I turned to find Oliver standing over me

‘Oliver,’ I

cried I was surprised at my despondent tone of voice, but Oliver seemed to

have sensed I was troubled so, with a rise of an eyebrow, he went to close my

door

‘Why have you

been groaning, Miss?’ he asked as he came closer He didn’t make a sound when

he walked, he folded his legs and sat before me in front of the closet He is

one corner of the top three that could not shoeakness (Zuben: Don’t ask me

what) But he is kind The flaw in the jade was that he was too serious, could

be vindictive but he was ultimately reliable

I will rely on

him for an answer,

‘Oliver, can I

ask you a question?’

As a talented

butler, he does look after me

Alright, I

will take the plunge Let’s go!

‘What kind of

underwear to men like?’

I saw

so I had never seen before

‘It is

unsightly for the young Miss to ask a person of the opposite sex this

question’ He replied

I thought it

would be best not to point out that Oliver’s cheeks were somewhat red

‘It would be

unseemly to ask other people but I think it is okay to ask Oliver’ I replied

Because he was family He had been with my family since before I was born I

think of him as my other father without permission

I could ask

Oliver things I couldn’t ask rasped

(Zuben: Whose? Yours or Oliver’s?)

‘Please

consult Lady Pas,’ he replied as he rose I

caught the hem of his jacket

‘Please

Oliver, I want to know a man’s opinion’

And I won’t

accept a reply about “individual preferences” either

‘I would like

to knohat your taste it’

If it doesn’t

ith Oliver…then I would have to rely on Prince Stefan I lowered my eyes

trying to look harmless and demure

Sorry Oliver,

please be honest with your opinion

He cleared his

throat and said very reluctantly, ‘In general, brides are seen to be pure and

innocent in their white dresses They are supposed to see the wedding ceremony

as sacred, so following the saht, the underwear chosen is

usually white I think’

Well, I know

that part That is general knowledge I want e

I make puppy

eyes and urge him on, ‘So what kind do you like?’

‘Er…em…white…lace

It looks pure and beautiful on the skin’

‘Lace…’

I see I had

been convinced only girls like lace Oliver left my room, ‘I shall take my

leave now, apologies young Miss’

I don’t want

Oliver to be upset I put hiise to him

later But for some reason, it became difficult for me to see Oliver in the

mansion

I wonder why?

Apologies for any typos

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