30 Chapter 27 - Sinagad sa Saki (1/2)

I was standing at the platform where Teacher Kim and I danced on the roof top. Tanaw ko ang mapunong college campus ng university. Napaisip ako kung anong pagbabago naman ang mangyayari sa buhay ko sa pagtungtong ko sa kolehiyo.

The sky was cloudless, it was a plain canvass of orange color. I couldn't see the sun in the horizon but I could see brighter rays of orange and yellow. I couldn't help but feel sad.

Naisip ko si Teacher Kim, my boyfriend, my prince charming. The past couple of weeks, our relationship has been smooth sailing, we have been more careful, and he has been more romantic. We no longer have sex at the pleasure dungeon, it just doesn't feel right anymore. Instead, we go to his place after school, cuddle and make love. My brothers would pick me up at the nearby high-end mall. Ang alam nila I was just hanging-out with Mecky, which for the most part, true; sometimes, Mecky would see me at the mall after Teacher Kim drops me off.

I stared at the orange sky again, I wondered why it made me feel gloomy and sad. I remembered, my 18th birthday will be in the next couple of days. I'm a December baby.

But my debut is not something I look forward to, I was never one to enjoy being the center of attention; with my previous birthdays, everything was casual, I didn't feel too center. But a debut is another thing, especially the one that was being prepared by Madam Kim.

This year, my actual birthday falls on the weekend when our high school does the annual Yuletide Ball. It is our version of the Prom Dance that usually falls in February. Kami lang ata ang school sa pilipinas na nagpo-prom tuwing December. While other schools have a Prom Dance in February, we have a Valentine Week instead.

Kaya naman ang debut celebration ko was moved to the next weekend. I thought it will be way more awkward to celebrate a birthday a week after the actual birth date. But, anyways, as always, Madam Kim rules.

I looked at another part of the sky, the orange was lighter with bits of the blue sky. I saw a flock of birds flying towards the horizon, it was as if they were flying in a slow motion. It gave a feeling of lost, or something afar, or just plain sad. I frowned and sighed.

Then I received a text message that Blue was looking for me, so I decided to go back to our university's convention hall. It's where we'll have our Yuletide Ball and I'm one of the lead in the organization and preparation of the venue. I gave the sky one last look, it was just sad.

Upon entering the grand lobby of the convention hall, I saw my dad walking away to another exit and Teacher Kim was standing few feet behind him. I was sure dad didn't see me, but I got curious especially with Teacher Kim's crestfallen expression.

Lumapit ako sa kaniya, my dad was already far out. ”Hey.”

Teacher Kim looked up, but he was taken aback. ”Cece.”

”I saw my dad.”

His eyes were blinking fast and his sight going in different direction. ”Ah, yeah.”

”You talked?”

”Yes.”

”About?”

”Nothing concerning. You should go back inside, love. Blue is losing it.” He pecked a kiss on my cheek and oddly, he walked out.

I came back in to the grand hall and saw the distressed Blue on one corner. I looked around and the decorations seemed to be going well and as planned, but I know Blue is a bonafide perfectionist so I wasn't surprised he was exhausting himself about this.

”Hey, Blue, ok ka lang?”

”No, Cece, I'm not ok!”

”Oh, sorry. Ok, uhm.”

He seemed to regret his initial reaction, ”Ugh! Sorry, Cece. I shouldn't have acted that way. I'm just, a little exhausted.”

”Yea, I see that. Do you want to take a rest first? Everything seems to be going fine, the hall is getting there, ang perfect na nga ng lahat eh.”

”Perfect isn't enough, Cece. This is the 100th Yuletide Ball. It's special.”

”I know. At dalawang taon mo na 'tong pinaghahandaan. Last year was perfect, this year, it will be beyond perfect. So.. chill na lang tayo?”

He looked at me, he stared, at humupa rin ang kunot ng mukha niya; he smiled. ”You are peace in all the chaos, Cece. As always.”

He continued to direct the preparations, a little calmer this time sabi ni Mecky. I was with Mecky setting up the stage and we both saw Teacher Kim standing on the opposite end, at the grand hall entrance looking so dashing and princely, habang natatamaan siya ng spotlight.

”Well, kaya naman nainlove sa kaniya ang buong school. He knows where and how to stand, na sasambahin siya ng lahat,” bulong ni Mecky.

”Bakit ikaw, parang sayo wala namang effect, parang ayaw mo naman sumamba.”

She grimaced. ”First, sayo na siya eh. Pero kahit naman noon pa, di ko na siya type. Masyado siyang gwapo. Saka since when pa tayo nagto-talk about guys no. Pero, ikaw, I know, matagal ka ng baliw sa kaniya.”

I tucked my hair behind my ear, half conceding to the truth but still with a bit of denial. ”Grabe naman yung baliw. Hindi naman. But, was I obvious?”

”Uhm, yeah. Kahit mukha kang di makabasag pinggan, pansin ko na noon na may pagnanasa ka sa kaniya.”

I push her lightly. ”Hala to! Grabe siya oh, pagnanasa talaga?”

”Ok. Edi, secret desire. Cece, never tayong umabsent, being with you five days a week, makikita ko talaga yung sudden changes and difference sayo no.”

”How much have I changed?” Biglang nagseryoso yung tono ko at sumunod din ang ekspresyon ng mukha ni Mecky.

”Err, 100 percent? Ok. 99 na lang. Pero it's not much of a change naman e, parang nadagdagan ka lang. You've always been bold naman, as a project leader, sa problem solving, parang we see you as mahinhin pero I know your thinking is strong. May kakaiba kang tapang. And him? He's like a math problem you'll surely find a thousand ways to solve. It's really not too shocking na, you got yourself sa ganitong complicated situation. The harder the math problem is, the more fun you're having. You complain na - ang hirap naman nito i-solve! o bwisit na Math! - pero deep inside, I know gustong-gusto mo yung challenge.”

May masarap na gaan sa pakiramdam naman ang sinabi ni Mecky. I guess, I just saw myself and the changes in me differently. ”You know what, Mecks? I love you.”

She grimaced. ”Ok. Pero, yuck! Ano ba 'to, nagdadrama tayong dalawa.”

Sabay na lang kaming natawa.

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I stood close to the glass wall windows of Teacher Kim's bedroom. May lula akong naramdaman nang dumungaw ako sa ibaba. Sa taas ng building, nagmistulang alitaptap ang ilaw ng mga sasakyan sa kalsada.

Dahil sa Yuletide Ball preparation, I had an excuse to sleepover dapat sa bahay ni Mecky. We were in-charge of the program kaya nakapagpaalam ako sa mga kuya ko na may aayusin pa kami sa program. But the truth, of course, the program was already done to perfection, as per Blue's standard. And thankfully, Mecky was in on my alibi.

I was holding a cup of just-cold coffee. I was wearing Teacher Kim's polo shirt na nagmistulang dress na sa'kin dahil sa sobrang laki. The night was still young, pero tanaw ko na ang laser lights sa malapit na high-end bars. I know isa dun ay ang Fort Club na madalas puntahan ng boyfriend ko before naging kami.

Naramdaman ko ang pagakap niya sa likod ko. Humalik siya sa leeg ko't pinisil ang suso ko. ”Come back to bed, love.”

”Haven't you had enough of sex already? Halos, I've forgotten na that I am actually sore. It's not pink anymore, it's red.”

He chuckled. ”Still pretty. Tastes even better. You're tighter when you're sore.”

”How tight could you want?”

”Oh, I love how tight your tiny pussy is. But, when you're sore, it's that little extra, uhm!”

Siniko ko ang tiyan niya, he giggled.

”When are you gonna bring me there?” tinuro ko yung may mga laser lights na area.

”Where?”

”Fort Club.”

He paused. ”You'll just get jealous.”

I sniggered. ”Ang kapal! I know, you're like a god there, and probably had sex with all the girls in there, but I am not gonna get jealous.”

”Ha! You get jealous when Yoona and Mitty talk to me. And -- ”

”Well, it's because you had sex with them at the Pleasure Dungeon!”

”And, you say, I had sex with all the girls at the Fort Club. It's like you're gonna get jealous with the entire building itself. I bet you'll be jealous when I walk in to the door, like it's the club's pussy.”

Humarap ako sakanya at idiiniin ang empty na cup na hawak ko sa dibdib niya. ”You.. are such a whore, a slut, and a bitch.”

Humor crept up his face, God! His grin was just orgasmic. ”Don't say bad words or I'll spank you,” he teased coyly.

And he did. He spanked the cheek of my ass lightly at pinisil-pisil na niya ito. But I knew what he's going to do next kaya naisip kong idistract siya ulit with another topic. ”What did you and my dad talked about?”

”You.”

”Me?? What did he say?”

”Leave you alone. Or he'll put me to jail.”

Para akong biglang nalagutan ng hininga. Nabitawan ko ang hawak kong cup pero in a swift and skillful save, nasalo ito ni Teacher Kim.

I snickered, I thought it was a joke. But his expression told me it wasn't. And he just let it out like it's some random statement.

Realisation kick-in, ”Wha-wh-what??”

”He knew, Cece. He knows about us.”

His tone was as if everything was ok. Like, it wasn't some crazy nightmare that was about to start. I felt my knees weakening, I had to walk to the bed and sit. But it wasn't comfortable either, the bed was too low.

We looked at each other. Despite the dimmed lights of the room, I can see his expression changing to serious, like he wanted to say something but having a second thought.

I couldn't wrap my head around the idea that my dad already knew. I was blinking fast, my mouth open, my head was moving in different directions. I was like dropped in the middle of the desert and I couldn't make a decision which direction to go.

Teacher Kim sat beside me. We were like two strangers sitting beside each other. I looked at him but he was just staring at the floor.

”What did you say?” mahina kong tanong.

”I love you. But he was furious. Collected, but furious. Like any protective father would be.”

”What else did he say?”

He directed his face towards me but it is still lowered, his eyes on the floor. ”Cece,” his tone was leaning towards something I didn't want to hear.

”No!” I shook my head.

”I don't wan -- ”

”No! Wait, what, you're giving up?” Parang pinipihit ang lalamunan ko, parang umaapoy ang puso ko. Hindi ako mapakali, gusto kong tumayo pero walang lakas ang mga binti ko.

”I don't want to break your f --”

”Break me? Why would I be broken if you're not giving up? So, you're giving up?”

”He's your dad. They're your family. You'll break if what you have with them gets ruined. You're not -- ”

”Don't tell me what I'm not, what I am or what to feel! Hindi akong manikang tanga. I can't believe this, ganun lang? You give up? Dinala mo ko dito sa bahay mo, to fuck! - then give up!? When did you plan to tell me that? Hanggang kelan, di-did you think na you'll just fuck me tonight or for as long you can, then it's over? How -- ”

”Cece!”

”No. You're crazy. Give up? Ano 'to, parang --”

”Cece!”

He cupped my face, wiped my tears. I didn't even realised I was crying. I felt a fang of fear nang dumampi ang kamay niya sa pisngi ko, I was scared to lose that good feeling of him touching me.

”Cece -- ”

”Why are you giv-- ”

”Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, I didn't say I've given up.”

I looked at him, straight into his eyes trying to see the truth. I was sobbing badly, I realised, I was acting like a kid again.

He smiled. ”It hurts me when you cry, you know that? Don't cry, my love,” he leaned in and kissed me on my forehead. Even with few more sobs, I was able to control myself from crying. I quiet down.

”What now?” I asked.

He chuckled. ”How can I give up on that face? You can be just way too adorable. It's impossible.”

He leaned in again and kissed me on the lips. Madiin, dama kong parang ayaw niya ngang bumitaw.

”We'll solve this, love. Together?”

But then something came to me. ”I want you -- fuck me. As ruthless as you can. Give me your best worst.”

”Wha-what?”

”I'm so mad at you right now. So, fuck me!”

Tumayo ako at sumampa sa harapan niya. Wala akong suot na panty kaya dama ko ang pagdampi ng umbok niya mula boxers niya.

”Oh, ok. Wait. Wha -- oh, woah! Ok.”

I took the bold move. Sinabunutan ko siya at hinalikan nang may kapusukan, mula sa tenga, sa leeg, sa panga, hanggang sa labi niya.

Pero agad ding lumabas ang hiniling kong pagkasadista niya. Lumamas agad ng madiin ang isa niyang kamay sa katawan ko at sa suso ko, habang ang isa nama'y sumabunot sa buhok ko mula sa batok, at mas ganid pa siyang humalik sa akin.

Hinubad niya ang suot kong polo shirt nang may rahas. Agad siyang humalik at lumaplap sa magkabila kong suso. Madiin at may kagat ang mga laplap niya. I was feeling his dominance, ramdam ko ang laki niya at ang liit ko.

Tumayo siya. In a masterful swift, he lifted me up his shoulder, napakapit at napasabunot na lang ako sa buhok niya sa lula at sa kaba na baka maout-balance ako.

Nakaupo ako sa balikat niya, his face was between my thighs. His strong arm against my back giving me some assurance na hindi ako matutumba o malalaglag. Then he pushed me closer to his face, his mouth began to ravage my pussy.

I moaned. I felt his biting teeth. May makakagat na sakit akong nararamdaman sa madiin na pagsipsip niya sa tinggil ko. His playful tongue was as mean as it was passionate, it felt like there were liquid explosions happening inside me.

In another masterful swift, binaliktad niya ako. I shrieked. I was facing the floor, his hard-erected penis was pointing at me, my pussy was still in his mouth being ravaged. It wasn't a comfortable position, but I liked the roughness of it.

With my one hand pressed on his thigh to get a hold of balance, I circled my other hand to his beastly penis. Even with some difficulty because of the position, I started sucking the head of his penis. Then, I circled both my hands up and down his shaft. Having no control of my balance, bigla na lang napapadiin ang pagsubo ko sa ari niya at sumasagad hanggang lalamunan ko.