2 Chapter 2 - Dear Diary (2/2)

It's lunchtime, I drive my car to the main city to find sate padang for lunch. I parked my car by the side of the security post, the only parking slot for me and the security blew his whistle guiding me to the right position.

I rushed into the food –market , where people can find unique, small portion and several bazaar foods right here. The market is so crowded today, the vibrant clothes shine in the afternoon light and the people move like enchanting shoals of fish. There is chatter between sellers and buyers, friends catching up, and low volume pop music played.

”Bang, give me 1 portion of Sate Padang, please”

The old man starts grilling the Sate soon as I ordered, it takes around 5-10 minutes.

”Rp.15.000” he stretches his arm, hands over my Sate.

”thanks” I paid him the amount and leave the stand.

I was about to leave the crowds in the market but far that way a tall familiar figure appeared from the side of the market near the toilet, a man with navy matching suits talking and chuckling with a petite girl beside him, a typical of cute petite woman with white skin and light brown hair, they seem to have a very funny jokes to tell. When the man tilted his head looking at the woman as I can see the side of his face, that familiar guy is RONY !

They stop by the Sushi stand, Rony is rummaging his suit for his wallet, the woman hold his arm tight and then Rony touches her cheek and kiss her forehead. ARE THEY DATING RIGHT NOW ?

My heart stops beating at the moment, my body froze and I can't even move. The crowds in the market became a silence in my mind. I'm speechless, my eyes feel warm and start producing tears. I could hold the heartbreak no longer, tears spilt over and flowed down my face like a river escaping a dam. When the woman's eyes hit mine, my body starts moving and I rush into my car, locking myself inside and press the start engine while at least I can feel the strong wind from the air ventilation. A solemn tears fell down my cheek, my mind is tangled. I rest my head on the steering wheel, still in tears. What the world is going on? who is that woman? Should I check before I got him wrong? It only happened a month ago, he seems just fine. I was so jealous, I was in tears and suffering for a month, and he seems just really fine with all of it. He moves on faster than I thought. I was wrong that I think he felt the same way as mine. I feel tight in my chest, it makes air feel like razor blades moving through me.

Our 5 years memories means nothing to him. It's fine if he could move on fast, but I feel unfair.

I come back to the office, let my hair untied to cover my face so the other employees won't notice my worse –looking while my make ups were ruined. I rushed to my office and rest my head on the table while Kenny suddenly barged in.

”Steff?” he called

”you okay?” he continues, I can hear his shoes clanking towards me.

”Boss, I think I want to resign” I said, thinking of my miserable self, staying at Medan wasn't a good idea.

My boss sighed, he is taking a deep deep breath and then

”Okay Steff but give me time to train the other candidate before you leave. What do you think ?”

”sure boss, I have to fulfill my responsibilities”

I heard his footsteps away and the glassy door pulled. My boss left.

When I got home, I drag my old box diaries to find out my childhood dreams and memories.

I was dreaming far away about traveling around the world after graduated from High School, stay in different places, move every year and enjoy every city I visit. I wanted to be a traveler back then when I was a kid.

A thin smile drawn my face, the impossible will be possible this time. I took my phone and check my bank account, I have more than enough savings.

My phone beeped, and Kenny's message appeared

”I was about to choose Melissa, what do you think?” he texted.

”Good idea boss, Melissa has worked for 4 years plus she is also thorough in doing things” I replied

”Steffi, have you think about your decision?” he replied

”Looking for the exact secretary like you needs time, I don't think I could find one like you. You are the best” he continues, I feel moved by his words. Thanks, but I will not change my mind.

”Boss, I've made my choice. I promise you I will train Melissa well before I leave” I replied

”How about double payment then?” he texted back

I moaned and laugh at the same time. I really feel touched.

”Boss, thanks for offering” I replied.

I hope Kenny's gonna be okay with Melissa.

***

It's early July, Melissa is hard to teach sometimes, but she is diligent and responsible, the only employee that suitable with the position. I trained her for almost 2 months and she's finally doing okay in the last presentation. My boss, Kenny finally let me go. Goodluck Melissa, Kenny is a K-drama lovers, and you will definitely take his works all alone by yourself. HAHA !

During those 2 months preparing stuffs.

I cut my hair short, really short, but not a pixie cut, it's a bob. Just cut them until my chin, yes cut them off for better lucks. I also make an itinerary for my journeys. First place will be Seattle, next San Fransisco, Los Angeles, San Diego, Chicago, and last United States will be New York. I decided to choose them among 314 cities of United States because those cities look pretty from the Internet plus I can still take the bus or plane to a nearby city during my stay if I want to travel more.

Next, after U.S then I will fly to U.K.

And I plan to work for living since I still need to control my savings. I've registered myself for visa and else too. Then, I go to the money changer and attend a short meeting in a café with an old woman for selling my apartment. The woman then agreed and signed the contract, I told her I move out on 13th July. She agreed.

The evening sun shines through the window, my eyes barely open. It's the golden hour, people were busy taking pictures with their friends or selfies, then I came out with an idea.

EH ! CAMERA !

I love photography since I was a teenager but never had one, so I ended up taking pictures with phone.

I rushed to the cashier and pay the bills, drive my car to the nearest camera shop, turns out spending millions of rupiahs for a camera. But it's fine, they are complete with the kits and filters.

I stretched my arm straight to the air, my bones popping.

I will take a flight to Seattle by next week. It will be so much fun !

Can't believe I could leave this city soon and start a new life. What a dream !