Chapter 200 - A deal with a monster (1/2)

Liam left Ying Sheng's room and strolled to his room. He felt like someone was squeezing his heart.  With trembling hands, he locked the door and laid on his bed staring at the ceiling.

Tears welled up in his eyes as he drew in a deep breath to calm his aching heart.

Even though Ying Sheng didn't say anything, his heart was breaking with her rejection. He was so stupid to think that she would feel anything for him.

He was a nerd, ugly and not cool. How could he ever compete with that guy whom she is in love with. Even though, Ying Sheng hasn't said anything, he could see she was in love with the guy.

Liam felt angry at himself to have allow himself to have fallen deeper for her. But the heart wants what it wants and he didn't ask his heart to beat for Ying Sheng.

God, she was the most beautiful woman he has ever laid eyes on. She was strong, smart at the same time she was so fragile.

Liam could still remember how his heart was racing in his chest the first time she spoke to him. Right there, he knew she was the one.

He loves; loves her so much and the mere thought of never getting her makes him feel like someone was shooting bullets straight into his hearts.

Liam could still remember how soft her lips smashed against his. How soft her body was under him and how perfectly her b.r.e.a.s.t fit in his palms.

He never thought of himself as the s.e.x.u.a.l type but for Ying Sheng he wanted to the guy that would make her scream in pleasure even though he had no idea how. He would learn for her.

He wanted to make her m.o.a.n out his name. How divine her m.o.a.n sounds. Liam wanted more, he needed more. Screw being innocent. He wanted to be wild, fierce and fill Ying Sheng with love and he wouldn't stop until he has her.

He pictured her brown orbs flickering with desire for him. A beautiful smile on her face as she looks longing at him. He loved her sweet scent that seems to only belong to her.

Liam felt like someone was drilling a hole in his chest when he remembered her expression when he told her he was in love with her.

Should he put a distance between them? He needed to clear his head. Numbly he walked to the bathroom and turned on the shower. Stripping off his clothes, he stepped under the shower.

He closed his eyes and tried to forget what had happened but he couldn't.

The way her tongue explored his mouth,the desire flickering in her eyes and the feeling of her running her fingers through his hair.

Something heavy settled in Liam's chest when he realized, this might be the last time he would ever get to touch her. Tears fell down his cheeks .

They say men don't cry but if you ever felt the excruciating pain of having your heart ripped out of your chest then you will know how painful it feels.

It hurts; hurts so much.

Their late night drinking games, her teasing and her messy hair in the morning. All of these petty things made him love her more.

Did he do the right thing by telling her? Maybe...he shouldn't have. Maybe he should have waited. But it was too late now.

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Ying Sheng stared at the door that was still opened and felt her heart racing in her chest.

He loves her…..how could he? Ying Sheng drew in a long breath. For her, Liam was the perfect guy any woman could ask for, but she was so obsessed with Han Xi that she couldn't see herself with anyone.

Also, Liam deserved someone better. How can such a perfect soul falls in love with a monster like her? He deserved a trophy wife….. something she would never be.

Finally a sad thought crossed Ying Sheng's mind. Was she going to lose Liam? Because Ying Sheng knew there was no way they could just be friends again.

She felt her heart beat raging in, her pulse was louder as she felt herself getting a panic attack.

Ying Sheng was afraid of losing the only significant person in her life. She abruptly went to bathroom, turned in the sink and threw water on her face to calm down but she couldn't.

Ying Sheng slowly looked at herself in the mirror and gazed at her pale face as Liam's words echoed in her mind.

It would be a lie if she said his words didn't make her heart race but her mind and the demons in there made it hard for her to believe it. They were taunting her.

How can someone love a mess like this?

”Ugly duckling.” Ying Sheng mumbled to the lifeless pale girl staring back at her.

”You're so ugly and pathetic. How can someone love you.”

Tears rolled down Ying Sheng's cheeks as she screamed.

”Shut up!” She balled her fist and smashed it against the mirror till it started bleeding.

”You're unworthy of love! Unworthy!” Ying Sheng felt all her demons crushing up on her, taunting her. The air in the room thicken and when she thought she was going to lose control, she felt a strong arms around her waist, pulling her from the mirror.

Liam pulled her into a hug, and gently whispered,

”Shss….it's okay.”