Part 11 (2/2)

”What about music?” Louise says.

”I like music,” Gloria says. ”It makes me cry sometimes when I hear a pretty song. I saw Frank Sinatra sing once. He wasn't so special.”

”It will bother a ghost,” Mary says. ”Some kinds of music will stir it up. Some kinds of music will lay a ghost. We used to catch ghosts in my brother's fiddle. Like fis.h.i.+ng, or catching fireflies in a jar. But my mother always said to leave them be.”

”I have a ghost,” Louise confesses.

”Would you ask it something?” Gloria says. ”Ask it what it's like being dead. I like to know about a place before I get there. I don't mind going someplace new, but I like to know what it's going to be like.

I like to have some idea.”

Louise asks the ghost but he doesn't say anything. Maybe he can't remember what it was like to be alive.

Maybe he's forgotten the language. He just lies on the bedroom floor, flat on his back, legs open, looking up at her like she's something special. Or maybe he's thinking of England.

Louise makes spaghetti. Louise is on the phone talking to caterers. ”So you don't think we have enough champagne,” she says. ”I know it's a gala, but I don't want them falling over. Just happy. Happy signs checks. Falling over doesn't do me any good. How much more do you think we need?”

Anna sits on the kitchen floor and watches Louise cutting up tomatoes. ”You'll have to make me something green,” she says.

”Why don't you just eat your crayon?” Louise says. ”Your mother isn't going to have time to make you green food when she has another baby. You'll have to eat plain food like everybody else, or else eat gra.s.s like cows do.”

”I'll make my own green food,” Anna says.

”You're going to have a little brother or a little sister,” Louise says. ”You'll have to behave. You'll have to be responsible. You'll have to share your room and your toys-not just the regular ones, the green ones, too.”

”I'm not going to have a sister,” Anna says. ”I'm going to have a dog.”

”You know how it works, right?” Louise says, pus.h.i.+ng the drippy tomatoes into the saucepan. ”A man and a woman fall in love and they kiss and then the woman has a baby. First she gets fat and then she goes to the hospital. She comes home with a baby.”

”You're lying,” Anna says. ”The man and the woman go to the pound. They pick out a dog. They bring the dog home and they feed it baby food. And then one day all the dog's hair falls out and it's pink. And it learns how to talk, and it has to wear clothes. And they give it a new name, not a dog name. They giveit a baby name and it has to give the dog name back.”

”Whatever,” Louise says. ”I'm going to have a baby, too. And it will have the same name as your mother and the same name as me. Louise. Louise will be the name of your mother's baby, too. The only person named Anna will be you.”

”My dog name was Louise,” Anna says. ”But you're not allowed to call me that.”

Louise comes in the kitchen. ”So much for the caterers,” she says. ”So where is it?”

”Where's what?” Louise says.

”The you-know-what,” Louise says, ”you know.”

”I haven't seen it today,” Louise says. ”Maybe this won't work. Maybe it would rather live here.” All day long she's had the radio turned on, tuned to the country station. Maybe the ghost will take the hint and hide out somewhere until everyone leaves.

The cellists arrive. Seven men and a woman. Louise doesn't bother to remember their names. The woman is tall and thin. She has long arms and a long nose. She eats three plates of spaghetti. The cellists talk to each other. They don't talk about the ghost. They talk about music. They complain about acoustics. They tell Louise that her spaghetti is delicious. Louise just smiles. She stares at the woman cellist, sees Louise watching her. Louise shrugs, nods. She holds up five fingers.

Louise and the cellists seem comfortable. They tease each other. They tell stories. Do they know? Do they talk about Louise? Do they brag? Compare notes? How could they know Louise better than Louise knows her? Suddenly Louise feels as if this isn't her house after all. It belongs to Louise and the cellists.

It's their ghost, not hers. They live here. After dinner they'll stay and she'll leave.

Number five is the one who likes foreign films, Louise remembers. The one with the goldfish. Louise said number five had a great sense of humor.

Louise gets up and goes to the kitchen to get more wine, leaving Louise alone with the cellists. The one sitting next to Louise says, ”You have the prettiest eyes. Have I seen you in the audience sometimes?”

”It's possible,” Louise says.

”Louise talks about you all the time,” the cellist says. He's young, maybe twenty-four or twenty-five.

Louise wonders if he's the one with the big hands. He has pretty eyes, too. She tells him that.

”Louise doesn't know everything about me,” she says, flirting.

Anna is hiding under the table. She growls and pretends to bite the cellists. The cellists know Anna.

They're used to her. They probably think she's cute. They pa.s.s her bits of broccoli, lettuce.

The living room is full of cellos in black cases the cellists brought in, like sarcophaguses on little wheels.

Sarcophabuses. Dead baby carriages. After dinner the cellists take their chairs into the living room. They take out their cellos and tune them. Anna insinuates herself between cellos, hanging on the backs of chairs. The house is full of sound.

Louise and Louise sit on chairs in the hall and look in. They can't talk. It's too loud. Louise reaches into her purse, pulls out a packet of earplugs. She gives two to Anna, two to Louise, keeps two for herself.

Louise puts her earplugs in. Now the cellists sound as if they are underground, down in some underground lake, or in a cave. Louise fidgets.The cellists play for almost an hour. When they take a break Louise feels tender, as if the cellists have been throwing things at her. Tiny lumps of sound. She almost expects to see bruises on her arms.

The cellists go outside to smoke cigarettes. Louise takes Louise aside. ”You should tell me now if there isn't a ghost,” she says. ”I'll tell them to go home. I promise I won't be angry.”

”There is a ghost,” Louise says. ”Really.” But she doesn't try to sound too convincing. What she doesn't tell Louise is that she's stuck a Walkman in her closet. She's got the Patsy Cline CD on repeat with the volume turned way down.

Louise says, ”So he was talking to you during dinner. What do you think?”

”Who?” Louise says. ”Him? He was pretty nice.”

Louise sighs. ”Yeah. I think he's pretty nice, too.”

The cellists come back inside. The young cellist with the gla.s.ses and the big hands looks over at both of them and smiles a big blissed smile. Maybe it wasn't cigarettes that they were smoking.

Anna has fallen asleep inside a cello case, like a fat green pea in a coffin.

Louise tries to imagine the cellists without their clothes. She tries to picture them naked and f.u.c.king Louise. No,f.u.c.king Louise, f.u.c.king her instead. Which one is number four? The one with the beard?

Number four, she remembers, likes Louise to sit on top and bounce up and down. She does all the work while he waves his hand. He conducts her. Louise thinks it's funny.

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