4 Solutions Pt.2 (2/2)

”Mapalla, not one more word.” The rage was rising in me. I was barely stable to sit in one spot.

”There have been dark moments, but you were able to escape them all. Took a way out. But it did not fruit the way you wanted. Now for the desires of present, you must jump in the past and do the right that you escaped.”

”Mapalla!!!!” I was red. I was furious. I was screaming. ”Not one more word!!” I picked up the chair I was sitting on and was ready to slam it into his face.

”You need to conquer your past. Go back to where you came from. Go back to each one of your lovers and beg for your forgiveness!”

”Aaaaarhhhh” I charged at Mapalla, who was less than thirty feet away from me. My feet dragged a little. I was conscious of what I was doing, but the emotions that ruled my head were raging fire on my consciousness.

I almost hit Mapalla when my grip loosened. The chair I was holding, was no longer in my hands.

The right side of my cheek felt warm. My face was also turned to a side.

*SLAP*

Ah, the discipline keeper Trigman had just slapped me across the face.

When I turned my head to face him, I got a glass of cold water in my face.

”Cool you head, Mad. What do you think you are doing!” His volume was higher and had tones of aggression in it.

He continued. ”You have been a hot head, that does not mean you can stay in this phase forever. Learn some conduct and restrict yourself.”

It was not the first time Trigman had slapped me. I was sure it wasn't going to be the last either. The final words may have been uttered by Mapalla, but the final call was always Trigman's.

I just stood there with my arms twitching and my head hanging.

Mapalla, who catched the chair, put it down. He must have signalled Trigman to sit because he also threw his weight on his chair with a thud.

What do you have to say for yourself? Once again, both had to deal with your tantrum.

My conscience hit me. Hard.

I raised both my arms and charged towards Mapalla once more. This time to wrap in my hug.

”I-I-I am really sorry Map. I am just too much broken. Just give me some advise so that I can escape from this mess. I want to see Kyo happy.” I said all that while I was a sobbing heap.

Mapalla hugged me with one arm and caressed my head with another. ”I will do anything for you. But what I do or say will sting you. You have to be brave to face the challenge.”

I held him tightly and prepared to hear what I already knew.

”You said you want to see Kiyomi happy. Well, what about those girls of your past? They wanted happiness alongside you. But, you know, stuff happens. And you ended up having five breakups before setting your happy life with Kiyomi. Past doesn't run away from you. It runs after you. You have to face the music. If nothing is wrong with your body, then somethings is wrong with your soul. Let it treat itself. For the happiness of tomorrow, face your past once more and set it right.”

”I can't!!! Kyo thinks that I have no memories of my past. That night in Nepal, I shed it all when Kyo saved me. I can't drag her into the mistakes I made.”

”You call it mistakes now. Didn't you call them love before? Face those girls once more. Take this burden off your conscience. Let them forgive you. If lucky, let them forget you. Be a scar they can scratch once a while. Not a wound which gushes blood at the slightest touch.”

”How would I be able to face her Kyo?”

”Kiyomi loves you, and if there is strength in your bond, she would understand.”

I loosened my grip around Mapalla and set him free of my clutch.

I set my dress straight and headed towards the door.

Wiping the last of my tears, I faced the boys and said,” If I am safe tomorrow, would you accompany me?”

The boys smiled. ”To the edge of the world, where our angel flutters her wings, we the dukes to her presence would omit all evil for her sake.”

They said that in unison.

Just like all those other times.

I swung the door open and saw a pretty lady in a red shirt and a white skirt nodding off. Basking in the sunlight, she seemed like the princess who had descended upon the earth for everyone's sake.

NO, for my sake alone.

I walked over to her and put my hand on her cheek. I rubbed her lips with my thumb. Soft as rose's petals.

She opened her eyes slowly in the middle of my aspiration of her.

”Kyo, wake up. Let's go home.”