Volume I Part 3 (2/2)

But this was not his mother's notion. She asked no sacrifice, she would have none; she would sooner have sacrificed herself, if it had been possible.

”Say no more about it; you do not understand,” she said, drying away her tears.

”How could she think of such a marriage?” thought Nicolas. ”Does she think that because Sonia is poor I do not love her? And yet I should be a thousand times happier with her than with a doll like Julie.”

He stayed in the country, and his mother did not revert to the subject.

Still, as she saw the growing intimacy between Nicolas and Sonia, she could not help worrying Sonia about every little thing, and speaking to her with colder formality. Sometimes she reproached herself for these continual pin-p.r.i.c.ks of annoyance, and was quite vexed with the poor girl for submitting to them with such wonderful humility and sweetness, for taking every opportunity of showing her devoted grat.i.tude, and for loving Nicolas with a faithful and disinterested affection which commanded her admiration.

Just about this time a letter came from Prince Andre, dated from Rome, whither he had gone to pa.s.s the year of probation demanded by his father as a condition to giving consent to his son's marriage with the Countess Natacha. It was the fourth the Prince had written since his departure.

He ought long since to have been on his way home, he said, but the heat of the summer had caused the wound he had received at Austerlitz to reopen, and this compelled him to postpone his return till early in January.

Natacha, though she was so much in love that her very pa.s.sion for Prince Andre had made her day-dreams happy, had hitherto been open to all the bright influences of her young life; but now, after nearly four months of parting, she fell into a state of extreme melancholy, and gave way to it completely. She bewailed her hard fate, she bewailed the time that was slipping away and lost to her, while her heart ached with the dull craving to love and be loved. Nicolas, too, had nearly spent his leave from his regiment, and the antic.i.p.ation of his departure added gloom to the saddened household.

Christmas came; but, excepting the pompous high Ma.s.s and the other religious ceremonies, the endless string of neighbors and servants with the regular compliments of the season, and the new gowns which made their first appearance on the occasion, nothing more than usual happened on that day, or more extraordinary than twenty degrees of frost, with brilliant suns.h.i.+ne, a still atmosphere, and at night a glorious starry sky.

After dinner, on the third day of Christmas-tide, when every one had settled into his own corner once more, ennui reigned supreme throughout the house. Nicolas, who had been paying a round of visits in the neighborhood, was fast asleep in the drawing-room. The old count had followed his example in his room. Sonia, seated at a table in the sitting-room, was copying a drawing. The countess was playing out a ”patience,” and Nastacia Ivanovna, the old buffoon, with his peevish face, sitting in a window with two old women, did not say a word.

Natacha came into the room, and, after leaning over Sonia for a minute or two to examine her work, went over to her mother and stood still in front of her.

The countess looked up. ”Why are you wandering about like a soul in torment? What do you want?” she said.

”Want! I want him!” replied Natacha, shortly, and her eyes glowed. ”Now, here--at once!”

Her mother gazed at her anxiously.

”Do not look at me like that; you will make me cry.”

”Sit down here.”

”Mamma, I want him, I want him! Why must I die of weariness?” Her voice broke and tears started from her eyes. She hastily quitted the drawing-room and went to the housekeeper's room, where an old servant was scolding one of the girls who had just come in breathless from out-of-doors.

”There is a time for all things,” growled the old woman. ”You have had time enough for play.”

”Oh, leave her in peace, Kondratievna,” said Natacha. ”Run away, Mavroucha--go.”

Pursuing her wandering, Natacha went into the hall; an old man-servant was playing cards with two of the boys. Her entrance stopped their game and they rose. ”And what am I to say to these?” thought she.

”Nikita, would you please go--what on earth can I ask for?--go and find me a c.o.c.k; and you, Micha, a handful of corn.”

”A handful of corn?” said Micha, laughing.

”Go, go at once,” said the old man.

”And you, Fedor, can you give me a piece of chalk?”

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