c12 (2/2)
One evening before we slept, the Suzhou girl in the upper bunk asked a question She asked what the ugliest hairstyle in the world was And when she finished asking, the other two girls both laughed out loud Lying inThen I pat irls, look this way!”
After I spoke, they continued to laugh contentedly Peacefully and wearily, my eyelids closed and I fell asleep
You have to know, a good night’s sleep is invaluable to me The next day, I was refreshed and went to class attentively After my classes, I went to buy a fresh cake to deliver to Lin Lin handed the pile of books in her hands to a boy, and then sentle atmosphere in the library rerew out fast and was already long It was disorderly and stuck to o to the salon to get it tri, I’d just use a pair of scissors and a s looked really ugly But I didn’t care Anyway, my hairstyle was already notoriously poor Coirls in my dorm, I was dim and dark
Soht of hi, ”Li Er, you should cut your hair”
He wouldn’t show up again, I thought sadly
Lin was my only friend When we had free ti this season, Lin could wear a turtleneck sweater to cover theher a ha, just leaving it on the table before going Lin never touched it, even until it turned cold So, ”Li Er, you’re too skinny I’m really worried that the ill blow you away You should eat et rosy”
After hearing that, I brought my hands to my face and rubbed until they were flushed Then I looked to her and laughed
It was really comfortable with Lin, and she never asked round Of course, I also didn’t ask too er thanme to the carnival to work Or we’d help sell phone cards for the mobile phone company Or we’d hand out pamphlets at the mall She always had lots of ways to learn money I followed behind her, relaxed, co to think too much or stress
Lin ate the soft cake I bought her She licked her fingers and said happily, ”Let’s go watch a ood movie with Tom Cruise I’ll treat”
I said, ”I like Andy Lau”
”Bad taste,” she scolded me
I laughed I said that on purpose Actually, I really liked Tony Leung Aside from ”The Lover,” I’d also seen his other film He played a man as forever loyal in love It made me cry several times and my heart ached I still reret” It was adapted fro sorrow (hate), a moment of pain Perhaps that was the truth of love
”What are you thinking of?” Lin waved her hand in front of me
”I have to go to a student’s hoood job”
SuddenlyIn the quiet library, I looked aton the screen Flustered, I quickly turned it off
It rang again, and I turned if off again
Then I ran out of the library
The phone kept ringing relentlessly Lin followed ot your clothes”
”Thanks,” I said
She looked at
”I have to go,” I said hastily I turned and ran out of Lin’s sights
That evening, there was a heavy storm I left the student’s home and took the train back to school Torrential rain I didn’t bring ot back late, the dorm would be closed I stood in the subway for a moment, then pulled ate, a figure rushed to me and covered my head with an umbrella It was Lin
In the heavy rain, she shouted to me, ”Why did you turn off your phone?”
I said, ”It ran out of batteries”
She pulled me over to the school as she scolded, ”Why didn’t you take a taxi? There’s so much rain!”
”I don’t have money,” I shouted back to her
”That’s enough!” Lin threw the umbrella to my feet ”Li Er, I hate that you torture yourself like this Let irl doesn’t love herself, no one will be willing to love her!”
When she finished saying that, she ran off
I stood in the rain in a daze for a long time Then I picked up the umbrella and went into the dorm with heavy steps
That evening, Lin’s voice rang over and over in irl doesn’t love herself, no one will be willing to love her!” I tried to struggle (free) ever since those agonizing, spell-like words were spoken out loud, but I couldn’t It felt likeinto the deep ocean I couldn’t breathe
When I woke up, I realized I was lying in a hospital
Lin stood at ht a fresh chestnut cake and soee Do you want to eat some?”
”Where am I?”
”The hospital,” Lin said ”You had a 40 degree fever and were saying crazy things Really scared your roommates Since they kneas your only older sister (friend), they called me”
”Thank you,” I said
”Don’t say that,” Lin stroked ain”
I turned my head and tears fell
”Who’s Bala?” she asked, wiping away my tears
I looked at her in surprise
She said, ”Last night, you kept calling ‘Bala'”
I didn’t kno to respond I’d been living in Bala’s world for a very long tih she would never co this place of hers I looked at Lin, and then I saw an illusion of Bala I believed that Bala and Lin were the sa to do with (ro me from all my pain
Frole, I was very blessed
”Who’s Xu Yi?” Lin suddenly asked
I had another scare Did I also cry out Xu Yi’s name? Then, am I… Oh God, my God
Seeing my nervous state, Lin s your phone So I answered it and told hiht away”
My first reaction was to juth None at all Lin held me down, ”Li Er, calm down”
”Lin,” I said ”I don’t want to see him”
”Are you sure?”
I nodded
”Okay Then sleep, you need to rest I’ll take care of hiave me a pat
I looked at the bright tube of liquid dripping into my body and felt very sleepy Then, I really fell asleep When I woke up again, it was theI sht aroma of lily Lin akened and raised her head up, ”Do you need soo to the bathroom?”
I turned to look at the flowers Lilies They were really very beautiful in the dark night
”He caive this to you”
Lin handed me a thick envelope
I opened it and it was full of money
”I counted it already, 3,000 He said he was returning it, so I accepted it,” Lin said
”Where is he?”
”He said he was busy so he left He said to call him”
”Oh,” I said
Lin giggled, ”But really, that kid is really handsome No wonder you were so restless”
I pulled out the white piece of paper from inside the envelope ”Thank you”
Because of those two strange and courteous words, I felt another pang toI could neither settle nor express Even if I used all th, he was still a waret close to
Two days later, I left the hospital I didn’t call Xu Yi, and he didn’t callcake at a coffee shop We sold cakes fro to all the passersby
When I’d nearly finished selling the cakes, thunder sounded fro up the stand
A voice ca cakes to me”
I lowered rabbed my arm from behind and turned me around
My God, this was a big street Although I didn’t look up, I kneas Xu Yi The person I still couldn’t bear to look at, Xu Yi He’d come There was no where to escape to
He hugged e I miss you”
It was that sort of light, kind of a hug, but not quite a hug The last piece of cake fell froers, there was suddenly a taste of love in the air So, accepting my fate, I closed my eyes
After a long tio and said, ”Come with me”
Like a fool, without a word, I followed hihai street This district isn’t really considered bustling Coupled with co rain, the streets were already ether The parasol tree leaves in November were still quite thick, and they whistled in the wind
At 17 years old, I wished so lanced at hiht nose In that moment, it felt like the rest of the world didn’t exist
After alked a bit, he still didn’t stop and he didn’t seeoing? If it gets any later, I won’t be able to get back into school”
Xu Yi stopped and looked at me casually Then he looked up at the sky He quickly pulled entle eyes, different froirlfriend!”
That’s when the rain started to fall
I pushed him away
He suddenly grabbed my hands and pulled them to his chest, and I couldn’t move The rain hit my head I closed my eyes and shook my head crazily, as if I’d been bewitched
Alhtly so I couldn’t , ”Promise me, promise htly and bit his shoulder
He didn’t move, not even a tremble My hair bun finally fell down, and it ly as a newborn octopus
I cried
In the end, I still cried I cried as I kicked hio The ones I’d run through the snow in His grip loosened
”Be entle The hand holding round I suspected I was drea
I felt hazy, as he carried ain, hazily, I heard him say, ”I won’t ever like you” Hazily, Bala held ontostepped on by numerous feet His head was covered in blood My head was heavy and in pain Everything, as if I’d been tossed into a boiling pot, started scrolling through my mind
The world had turned upside down, peace gone
”Coo over there!” he shouted as he pulled me over He pulled me under the roof of a shop He helped me wipe off the rain from my body, but it was really no use We were both already completely soaked
I was shi+vering from the cold, and I suddenly wanted to sarette”
Whene She stood on stage singing, then she would coarette The light lit up her face, as if lighting up all the warmth and desire
Xu Yi asked me, ”What did you say?”
”I want to smoke,” I said
He pulled out a cigarette, it was Yunyan He lit one for hi and it went out right away Xu Yi caain, but I pushed hiers I subconsciously pulled ain to hold arette still in his mouth, he stubbornly turned my head back
I felt like a hypocrite So inmy own hand
”Will you listen to me?”
”No”
”My dad went to jail for corruption”
”I know”
”My ot cancer, she died”
”I know”
He roared at me, ”You little witch, how much do you know about me? Tell me!”
With despair, I said, ”Xu Yi, don’t be like this” I felt the uselessness of my wordsI curled up (from cold) in front of him, unable to say any more
After Xu Yi calmed hiht? You wouldn’t lie to ht?”
I still didn’t say anything, just turning my head
He kept holding , ”I went to see you at the hospital You were lying there in the bed, sleeping I watched for a very long ti time since I’ve seen such a familiar face”
I still turned h it wasn’t attractive or a position that was easy to maintain But I was touched by his words I couldn’t keep a hold of my emotions anymore and fell to the temptation to turnAnd then, he bit onto…my…lips
My heart was beating crazily I wanted to push hihtly to my hands and pulled them over his chest
My lips really hurt then My cold fingers held onto his warm neck I wanted to break free, but he kept hold
Coant and quiet youth in my memory, Xu Yi had transformed into a stubborn and selfish e city, under the eaves, rain falling onto the eave it to my lovely Xu Yi As if to complete it, tears flowed down, my heart ever so painful
Much later, I read a azine It said that when a man placed a woman’s hand on his heart before he kissed her, it was true love