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”At that time, I was too young, and everything he said was very abstract to me. Whether my mother read it to me or he came to explain it to me occasionally, I was very confused.

That father has always been a wise man. Of course, he found that I didn't understand him, so he gave me a friendly personal experience. ”

Pei Tianlang had a strange smile on his face and said to himself, ”I was about six years old at that time. My father put a small hamster in my hand. It's very small and it's full of food. This is the first time I touch them, the first time I touch the fresh life. ”

Pei Tianlang stretched out his hand and curled his fingertips slightly. His eyes were pitiful and strange, as if there was a hamster in his palm. Then he held the hand with his other hand.

”My father's hand held my little hand in this way, which was very similar to the beautiful moment of an ordinary family. But suddenly his hands clenched mine like two pliers.

That hamster in my hand crazy struggle, keep scratching, I am at a loss, but he pinched my fingers, I was scared, crying, as if I was pinched by the neck. I wriggled to escape, but he held me down

”And then...” Pei Tianlang's voice even had a weeping tone. ”Then I heard the last dying cry. When I opened my hand again, it had not moved.”

”My father squatted behind me, holding my shoulders in his hands, and said,” you see, life and death are not as loud as people's exaggeration. They often end up in silence. Now you are the master of life and death. How does it feel when you think about life and death? ”

”Don't worry about what other people say. The so-called laws and morals are used to restrain you. Only by jumping away can you really surpass others in all aspects, and there will be no pain or trouble.”

Pei Tianlang imitated his father's tone and finished those long speeches, ”these words were just going in and out to me at that time. But I'm very conscious of one thing, I'm the hamster in my father's hand, the life that will be crushed at any time.

From then on, no matter what he asked me to see him do, dissect, make specimens or anything else, I tried my best to comply with him. Mother is very sad, many times I saw her sitting by the bed, looking at me with tears in her face when I was half awake, and my indescribable determination was flashing in my eyes.

When I was about to start school, my father asked my mother to read some books to me, such as the old man and the sea, John Christopher and the count of Monte Cristo.

People can be killed but not defeated. Ha ha Pei Tianlang sneered as if he didn't care about it.

”She is very angry at my indifference. I don't understand why she is angry. My father is holding me and her life. Shouldn't she obey him? Why did she do such a fearless struggle? But I can still feel my attachment to her. I'm afraid that my father will kill me if he is not satisfied with me somewhere. ”

Pei Tianlang's tone returned to calm. ”She can feel it, too, so she takes care of everything about me every day, from breakfast to bedtime.