Part 13 (2/2)

”Same difference,” said Terence, pouting.

”No,” said Berthea, ”it isn't. The difference is MB, ChB, MRCPsych. That's the difference.”

Chapter 41: May Contain Nuts.

Terence left Berthea with a strict instruction to be in the drawing room by a quarter to seven at the latest, when he would serve pre-prandial martinis. The mention of martinis gave rise to an exchange of warning glances, but nothing was said; both remembered the last time that Terence had mixed the c.o.c.ktails, when the conversation had gone perhaps a little further than was wise, with fantasies on the theme of how best to dispose of Oedipus Snark. That would not recur, or at least not in the company of others, who might not understand the length and depth and breadth of the provocation offered by Oedipus over the years.

At about twenty to seven, Berthea left her room. She wanted to be punctual because she knew that Terence, who was otherwise vague in the extreme, nonetheless took punctuality very seriously, just as Auden had. Martinis, in Auden's household, were served on the dot of six, and woe betide any guests who were late. Berthea had often wondered about this: Auden was messy his study filled with piles of paper, unwashed gla.s.ses, cigarette stubs and yet out of such chaos came order, of thought, of metre and of c.o.c.ktails. Perhaps it was something to do with notions of outer and inner cleanliness; Berthea had read that some travelling people gypsies, as they used fondly to be known liked the inside of their caravans to be spotless while the surrounds, the gra.s.s upon which they camped, would often be ... well, less than spotless, bless them. And it was frequently the case, she knew from professional experience, that people whose lives were disordered in some respect had one or two areas of their existence where they were punctilious and highly observant. Such people might expect high standards from others and were capable of flying into a rage over some petty lapse by an official or a friend. Yet they could not see that they themselves were guilty of exactly the same lapses, and much worse.

Terence was not like that. As far as Berthea could tell, he had no pa.s.siveaggressive traits at all: he was not afraid of intimacy, he never lied, he was not given to sulking. Terence was a bit of an enigma for Berthea; he was certainly not normal, in the way in which most of us were normal a very fuzzy concept, of course but he was not abnormal, in the way Oedipus was. Oedipus was psychopathic simpliciter, or, in plain English, bad, and it was indicative of his condition that he had no insight at all into how bad he was. Which should not surprise us, thought Berthea those most in need of help simply cannot see that need.

Plain English was useful, and she defended it, but had to accept that when it came to the human personality in all its complexity one had to resort to technical terms. Plain English terms did not allow for nuance: talk of ”madness” was very unhelpful, not because it disparaged those unfortunates who were afflicted by it, but because its brush was far too broad. One could not lump the psychotic together with the mildly neurotic; one could not put the mildly depressed alongside those suffering from vivid delusions. And yet Berthea sometimes felt that the ordinary, vulgar terms for mental disorder expressed an essential truth, and were cathartic, too, for those who worked in the field. She had heard a colleague refer quite affectionately to a patient as ”completely bananas”. One would not find the term ”bananas” in that diagnostic vade mec.u.m, the DSM-IV, but the psychiatrist who used it felt momentarily less oppressed by his calling simply because the word defused the tension and the sadness. Similarly, the term ”doolally”, which people used for those who lost their place, seemed less clinical, less frightening than the conventional diagnostic sentence.

That same colleague, irreverent as he was and therefore level-headed and popular had once remarked, as he and Berthea drove together past a psychiatric clinic, ”I think I should put a sign outside the place saying May contain nuts.” Berthea had laughed, and had woken up that night and laughed again at the recollection of his wonderful remark. Laughter, so rarely prescribed by any clinician, was surely the most therapeutic thing in the world. And now, she had read, there were studies to prove it something the drug companies would not be happy about, since laughter was free, could be administered by anybody, and had no negative side-effects.

May contain nuts ... The same might be said of Terence's house, with these odd friends of his. The last time she visited, there had been the sacred dance people and their Beings of Light; now there were these two resident gurus, Roger and Claire, who had insinuated themselves for the purpose of writing their magnum opus. And for the purpose of eating too, no doubt, and drinking Terence's martinis. Unless, of course, they did not indulge shortly she would see whether it was carrot juice or gin they drank, and that would tell her a lot about whether they were genuine.

She left her room, and then, on impulse, went back in to collect her handbag. It contained her purse and her credit cards, and for some reason she felt uneasy about leaving them in her room. If Roger and Claire were capable of leeching off poor Terence then might they not be equally capable of removing a few banknotes or a card from a guest? The thought came to her quite powerfully, but she immediately felt guilty; how could she think such a thing about fellow guests whom she had not yet even met apart from a brief sighting of Roger in the garden. I must not allow myself to be distrustful, she told herself firmly, but nevertheless she kept hold of her bag. It would not do to tempt Providence, at least not once Providence had been alerted to a possibility.

She made her way down the corridor. There was a door off to the left, to a room that she knew to be another spare bedroom; Uncle Edgar had stayed there when his wife had found it all too much to bear. She paused. The door was slightly ajar, just a tad, but enough for her to hear voices within a man's voice and then a woman's. She was not one to eavesdrop, and the old adage that those who did heard ill of themselves was very true, as so many of those irritating old adages were. But she could not resist; she crept closer to the door.

A squeaky floorboard protested loudly. Berthea froze. The murmur of voices ceased, but then resumed. She breathed a sigh of relief, and strained to hear what was being said.

Chapter 42: Behind the Arras.

Polonius had an arras behind which to hide not that it did him much good. Berthea Snark had no such cover as she stood on the first-floor landing of her brother Terence Moongrove's Queen Anne House near Cheltenham. The unfortunate Polonius brought Hamlet's wrath upon him through an ill-timed call for help; Berthea would make no such mistake. She stood motionless, and unless she were to sneeze which she had no plans to do the only threat lay in the squeaky floorboard she had just trodden upon. That was silent now, and if the owners of the voices murmuring within the room off the landing had been momentarily disturbed they were no longer on the alert, as their conversation had resumed.

If there is one thing which one can always make out in an otherwise indistinctly heard conversation it is one's name. Being professionally interested in such phenomena, Berthea had been fascinated to read in the psychological literature of how people in certain stages of sleep may not react to stimulus but upon hearing their name being called may wake up quite quickly. She had experienced this herself while sleeping through a meeting of a committee of the Royal College of Psychiatrists; she had awoken at precisely the moment the chairman mentioned her name, and fortunately had been able to respond to his question quite satisfactorily. Sleeping in meetings, of course, was nothing to reproach oneself for, even though it could be occasionally embarra.s.sing; many meetings were unnecessarily long, or indeed completely uncalled for, and if they provided an opportunity to catch up on much-needed sleep, that at least gave them some purpose. Berthea had once been at a meeting where everybody was asleep except her and the chairman, and the two of them alone had dispatched a great deal of business in a very efficient and appropriate manner. That same chairman, one of the great chairmen of his generation, was himself an accomplished napper, famous for being able to sleep through an entire meeting, only waking at the end, whereupon he would provide an excellent summary of everything that had happened during the meeting. Various explanations had been suggested, one being that he had a rare and useful ability to hear while he was asleep; another, more plausible explanation, was that he knew the members of the many committees very well, and knew that they were unlikely to come up with any novel remarks, and therefore he had no difficulty at all imagining what they had said.

Berthea was aware that inside the bedroom off the landing, presumably preparing to go downstairs for their seven o'clock martinis mixed by Terence, were the two other guests in the house, Roger and Claire. She had seen Roger as she arrived at the house earlier that day, hanging about in the rhododendron bushes near the drive, and had on the spot identified him as a charlatan. What, she wondered, was he doing in the rhododendron bushes? But, more pertinently, what was he doing exploiting poor, innocent Terence's generosity by coming to stay for an indefinite period of time possibly years, according to Terence while writing some mystical magnum opus that was undoubtedly risible in the extreme. She was yet to see Claire, whose voice she now heard from within the room and who was, in fact, the one who was mentioning Berthea's name. Like a sleeper in stage three non-REM sleep, Berthea homed in on what was being said.

” ... that woman. What's her name Bertha?”

”Berthea. Berthea Snark,” Terence said. ”His sister. She's the mother of that Lib Dem MP, Oedipus Snark. We've seen him on the box going on about something or other.”

Claire laughed. ”They do go on, don't they?”

”Nice job,” said Roger. ”You get paid to go on and on about things. I've often thought I'd like to be an MP.”

Claire took a moment or two to reply to this. ”You? You must be joking. And your talents, Rog. Think of your talents. If you were an MP you couldn't set up the centre. All our plans ...”

Berthea drew in her breath. Centre?

”True,” said Rog. ”Of course we can't treat anything as being in the bag. Not just yet.”

Claire appeared to agree. ”Naturally. What do they say? It's not over until the fat lady sings.”

”It's not over until Terence is kind enough to sign. Which he will.”

There now came from within the room the sound of a cupboard or drawer being closed. Berthea tensed. If Roger and Claire intended to be punctual for martinis, then they might emerge at any moment. She would have to move.

She s.h.i.+fted her weight. Within the room, the voices resumed.

”Will she prove awkward Berthea Stark or whatever she calls herself? I must say I didn't much like the look of her. I caught a glimpse when Terence drove her back from the station. Hostile-looking woman.”

”Well, if she's anything like him, she'll be no trouble.”

”Good. Oh, look at the time, shouldn't we ...”

Berthea took a step backwards. The floorboard squeaked. She froze. It was difficult to decide what to do. She could not stay where she was, but if she took another step she could alert them to her presence right outside their door, and that would be hard to explain. She moved again, very slightly. The floorboard protested.

There was only one thing to do. She knocked loudly on the slightly ajar door.

Roger opened it. He was smartly dressed now, a handkerchief protruding from his blazer pocket in a rather jaunty way.

”Oh ...”

”Sorry to give you a fright,” said Berthea. ”I wasn't sure if anybody was in. I was looking for ...” She thought quickly. ”A hairdryer. There isn't one in my room, you see.” She was pleased with the line: saying that she was not sure that anybody was in indicated that she had not heard their conversation. a.s.suming Roger was listening to what she was saying, of course.

”A hairdryer?”

”Yes.”

He turned to face into the room. ”Claire, Is there a hairdryer in here?”

Claire appeared behind him, peering at Berthea. She was a rather plump woman, considerably shorter than Roger, and was, like him, somewhere in her forties. Berthea's eye was drawn to a prominent mole on her brow, and then to her carefully plucked eyebrows.

”Who needs a hairdryer?” she said, looking at Berthea. ”It doesn't look as if you've washed your hair. It isn't wet.”

Berthea's right hand went up to her hair in a spontaneous gesture of ...guilt? Or dismay, perhaps, at having come up with a clever pretext that had such a fatal flaw.

”I'm planning to wash it later,” she said, trying to smile, but finding it rather difficult.

Chapter 43: Terence Moongrove Entertains.

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