C67 You love her (1/2)

”You love her, that's why you did it with her, that's why you didn't do it with me before, we used to agree to be virgins, to stick to each other until the day of our wedding, but you are no longer, then what's the point of me keeping it, before, I was saving it for love, and tonight, too, I'm not keeping it anymore … I want you to take me, I want to give myself completely to you, I want to know clearly, you love me, I want to feel the love from your soul to your body, I want to use my body to take your soul, and I want you to take my soul as well … ”

Qing Er said with hidden bitterness.

At this moment, my body reacted very violently.

For this purpose, Qing Er stupidly wanted to give his body to me.

I can't let Qing Er do this.

I felt a burst of sorrow and pain in my heart. I suddenly felt very inferior to myself, as my body was tainted by Mei Ling's body, so I was no longer worthy to be with Qing Er, I could not use my dirty body to taint Qing Er's pure body of a virgin, or to desecrate Qing Er's pure heart and soul. At least I could not do it now, or at least for now, my heart could not accept it.

I held Qing Er in my arms and caressed his beautiful body. The fire in my body gradually subsided and reason had the upper hand in my mind. My heart was filled with pity and love for Qing Er.

I used a gentle tone and said to Qing Er, ”Qing Er, you're so silly. ”My body is very dirty, I am not worthy of you right now. Give me time, let me cleanse my soul and body. I think, it will be on the day of our marriage that we can …”

”feng-ge, I actually don't hate Liu Yue, and I don't think it's easy for her either. She's not a bad person, and also, I feel that this person isn't bad, and she's a good woman, and we've had this relationship before, I don't mind you being dirty, I don't think you're dirty,” Qing Er said as she looked at me: ”If by the time of marriage, you still feel that you're not clean, then you wouldn't want me anymore?”

”You don't feel that I'm dirty, but I can't, I feel that I'm very dirty,” I gently kissed Qing Er's neck. ”I won't wait that long, when I'm with the beautiful and pure you, I will be quickly enlightened and nurtured by you, and I will slowly adjust myself. I think, once my heart and body are clean, once I feel that I'm worthy of you, on the day of our marriage, I will truly have you.

Qing Er only knows about the relationship between Liu Yue and I, and not Mei Ling and I? That's why I said that. And the reason why I felt that my body and soul were dirty, was because of Mei Ling.

”Oh …” Qing Er blinked his eyes: ”Then I'll listen to you, I don't understand this, I don't have any experience, you are already an experienced person, you understand it already, don't lie to me, if you lie to me again, I really have no way to live …”

I have said this, as long as you don't hate me, and don't drive me away. In this life, I will never leave you, and I will love you, and I will love you, and I will protect you, and accompany you, forever. It is precisely because I want to be together with you for a long time that I will respect you, and not treat you as I please … ”

”Ask for your parents' opinion as well as my parents' opinion. Of course, it's mainly your opinion. As long as you're willing, we can get married tomorrow …”

Qing Er was very satisfied with my answer. ”Mn … Actually, I don't think it's a good idea to get married too early. We're both poor now, so we should at least save up some money or do something about it … ”Actually, I still listen to you. I'll do whatever you say …”

I patted Qing Er's shoulder. ”Um … ”Good girl, we still have a long way to go, go to sleep …”

”Mm …” feng-ge, good night … ” Qing Er snuggled in my arms in satisfaction and meekly fell asleep.

I was wide awake in the dark, staring into the dark.

Even though Mei Ling is the main reason why I didn't do that thing with him tonight, in my heart, I still faintly feel that there is another mental barrier. This thing is hidden in the bottom of my heart, and it would jump out from time to time to stimulate my sensitive nerves.

My body has returned to Qing Er, my soul is still wandering around, and I am determined to make myself return completely, completely from the bottom of my heart to the rest of my body.

Tonight, I have finally found out about Liu Yue's situation, and found out about Liu Yue's recent injury. A year, what kind of life did Liu Yue lead? She, who was confident, optimistic, and determined in the past, was destroyed to such a state by this anonymous letter, becoming the laughing stock of other people's ridicule and ridicule, becoming the target of other people's contempt and trampling. I don't know how Liu Yue endured this year, or what kind of humiliation and contempt she endured.

My heart felt like it was being cut by a knife, and my heart ached so much that it hurt to death.

All of this was brought to her by me. If not for me, all of this would not have happened and Liu Yue would have been able to lead a different life.

I am the cause of all the evils in Liu Yue's current state. I am the culprit, and I cannot be forgiven.

Fortunately Liu Yue still had Corydalis by her side, and this was more or less a relief to Liu Yue.

And I, in a different way, hurt these two women, two women in my life.

Now, I am back to Qing Er's side, with Liu Yue by his side.

Perhaps, this was the arrangement of fate, fate.

Thinking up to here, I couldn't help but hold Qing Er tightly and lightly kiss his forehead.

Good night, Qing Er!

Tomorrow was coming.

Tomorrow was the beginning of a new year.