14 Longing (2/2)

”Claire, you can't avoid encountering him forever. Avoid him at first and if he bothers you tackle it head. There's nothing to be afraid of. He is the same Shaun, he would never hurt you. You just need to stay away from him.” I briefed myself.

I went to school the next day and since what everyone knew was that I'm taking the days off school beacuse of my health, they welcomed me warmly inquiring about my well being after the incident.

I was pleased meeting Emily and Ed but there was one person my eyes kept searching for.

After not seeing him all day long, I asked Emily about him.

”Shaun? He hasn't come. to school after your incident neither Patricia. I have that they won't be coming anymore, they left the school.”

”Left the school?” I was left astounded hearing it.

I couldn't sleep that night, my heart was unsettled because of Shaun leaving the school all of a sudden.

”Did he do it because of me?” I kept blaming myself.

”Where would he be now? What wold he be doing?” The thoughts of him messed up my mind.

For the next few days, with every spare moment my mind would rehearse a new letter to him. My eyes kept searching for his face, my hands for his touch. Hearing his name my heart beat faster.

I tried keeping myself busy but the gap he left behind couldn't be filled by another, by work or distractions.

With each passing day, it was getting difficult, sitting beside his empty seat or walking down the stairs he always saved me from falling on, everything was a torment I was unprepared for.

Even the moon didn't seems as bright. Paarta of me wonder if it ever be the same without you here calling my name.

Staring at my reflection in the bathroom mirror, I told myself. ”I look okay, normal even.” I pulled my lips into a smile. ”I can smile too. What I wanted has happened, he left. I have nothing to fear now. He has left and he won't be back again.” As I uttered the words the ache for him gnawed at my heart. I let out a frightened sob when I realized that I can't do it anymore. I can't go around finding him nowhere in my sight.

”I need to find him and bring him back.” I made up my mind.

That day, all I did was to read all the books on werewolves I could get my hands on and go around the school asking about Shaun and Patricia's whereabouts. Shaun's phone was turned off and do was Patricia's so I sneaked in the administration department to find any kind of information on Shaun and his parents. When I finally found Shaun's address, I borrowed Ed's car without any much thinking went straight to the place.

It was half an hour drive from the school near the outskirts of the city. When my car's GPS indicated that I was there, I got out the car and found myself standing in a pasture area outside of the forest. I looked around and saw a cabin near the woods. I ran to it. I knocked the doors and the windows, I called out Shaun but there was no one in there to respond to my cries.

I stood there, staring at the empty house, amid the endless winds that scream, I make no move. My face wet with tears. My chest ached as I thought I have lost him forever.