14 Longing (1/2)

I slid down my room door, bringing my knees up to my chest. Stayed there for what felt like hours. My heart was throbbing in my ears, loud and irregular, but I barely heard it, for my mind was not there but in the woods.

I was not frightened nor was I was afraid. What I felt was beyond such mere nouns.

I stood up,  steadied my breath and tried to calm the panic.

As I lied on my bed, my thoughts washed away and I fell asleep the moment I closed my eyes. I hadn't sleep so sound in a while it was as if I was running away from reality.

Slowly and reluctantly, I uncover my face as streaks of sunlight penetrate the window and spread across the room. Sight still in the clutches of the night's glue, I hesitantly rubbed the dreams away. Thoughts of the visions in sleep come and go in waves, clinging on to the very last memory of the night.

”I am not going to think about it anymore. I need to forget last night.” I hushed away my thoughts.

I freshened up and went down to have breakfast with dad.

”Claire, you don't look so good today. Is everything okay?” Dad asked, watching me barely eat.

”No, it's nothing.” I tried to smile.

”Well, I have a good news for you. You can go back to school now.”

”Really?”

”Yes, but be aware of our surroundings when you go back and dont trust anyone easily.”

”Sure, Dad. I'll go, tell Emily. She would be happy to hear this.” I picked up my phone and went back to my room.

”Emily, I'll be coming to school tomorrow.” I called Emily and informed her.

”That's great, have to told Ed?”

”No, you tell him.”

”Alright, I'll see you at school tomorrow.”

”Sure, bye.” I hung up.

”Should I really go tomorrow? What will I do if I see Shaun? How will I face him?” The questions arise in my mind.