Part 4 (2/2)

My back slammed into the wall and his tongue was in my mouth before I could even comprehend the slight pain in my back. His hands roamed up and down my body and his mouth was ravenous. I felt like if he could he would crawl up inside of me and never come out. I thought I knew Maddox, but in that instant it all came cras.h.i.+ng down on me in big waves that this beautiful man standing in front of me devouring me inside and out and completely consuming me was even more damaged than I was.

At some point Maddox pulled away from me and leaned his forehead up against mine. With such tenderness and compa.s.sion he started to wipe the tears away from my face. ”Sweetheart, it's ok. Please don't cry. I'm sorry I told you. I've wanted to tell you, but I knew it would destroy our friends.h.i.+p. I'm so sorry for everything. I'm just going to be in my room when you want to talk.” And with that he let go of me, opened my door and walked out.

I thought the kiss that we just shared was him giving in and allowing me to be with him, but the kiss to him was more of a goodbye and it answered so many of my questions. I fell down the wall and curled up into a ball. This was all happening so fast. I wiped the rest of the tears away from my face, but it didn't do me any good because the tears just kept coming. I tried to settle myself as best as I could and took a few calming breaths. I needed to get my bearings together in order to talk to Maddox.

A few minutes later I stood up and walked over to his room. I knocked a few times, but there were no answers so I just walked right in. Maddox was sitting on his bed with his head between his hands looking down at the floor. He didn't move when I knelt in front of him. I wanted to move his head so he would look at me when I told him my confession, but his stare would shatter me, body and soul.

”The first time I saw you I thought you were physically beautiful. As I have gotten to know who you are as a person I have learned that your physical beauty comes nowhere near in comparison with how beautiful your heart and your mind are. I spent my entire life with Cynthia telling me I'm not worth it, that I'll never be wanted, cherished, loved. I thought that what she was telling me was true because if my mom couldn't even love me why would anybody else? But that all changed when I met you and you changed everything for me.

You have shown me that people do care about my well-being and that there are good people out there. What I'm saying Maddox, is that everybody has a past and we do things we might later regret. I can't change mine and even if I wanted to I wouldn't because if I had done anything differently I might not be sitting here in front of you confessing my feelings. We might not have even met and I wouldn't be able to live with that. I already told you that I chose you and I still choose you. I might regret things I say or do, but I will never regret choosing you. I will always choose you. The question now is, what do you want? Who do you want? Who do you choose?”

Maddox looked up from the floor and put his hands on my face and swiped his finger across my lips. It looked like he was having an inner battle with himself and every second that went by my heart beat erratically quickened.

”Motherf.u.c.k. I don't deserve you Isabelle, but for as long as you'll have me I'm yours. Only yours.”

I didn't think my lips could take the loneliness anymore. I was about to kiss him, but he leaned into me and kissed me with such tenderness that I became weak in the knees. It was a good thing I was kneeling in front of him, because I would have fallen straight on my a.s.s. His kisses never seemed to get old and I didn't think they ever would. They took my breath away and showed me that there was so much more out there.

After kissing me he looked at me with such thoughtfulness in his eyes. ”So sweetheart, where do we go from here?”

”I don't care. It doesn't even matter where we go from here, just as long as I'm with you.”

A smile touched his lips for the first time since we kissed at the front door. ”I couldn't have said it better even if I tried.”

”Shut the front door, you b.i.t.c.h!” Jade was jumping up and down and squealing. Sarah just had this mega watt smile on her face and her eyes were twinkling. ”So what, are you guys like a couple or something? Oh my G.o.d, this is f.u.c.king crazy!”

I stood up and started to pull Jade back down to her seat. ”Jade please calm down, we are in the library for goodness sakes.”

The second Jade's a.s.s touched the seat she jumped back up and started to leave the library. ”Jade, where do you think you're going?”

Jade stopped dead in her tracks and turned around. ”Um, what does it look like I'm doing? I've never seen pigs fly. I'm just going outside to see what they look like.” With that she turned and walked out of the library.

”Cheese and rice, it's not that crazy that we're dating. Is it Sarah?”

Sarah was still smiling at me and I hadn't seen in her blink in a while so I waved my hand in front of her face. ”Sarah, are you ok? Are you broken or something? Do I need to reboot you?”

Sarah laughed and slapped my hand away. ”Oh you smarta.s.s, I'm fine. I'm just shocked is all and extremely happy. My two best friends are dating. I just can't wait to help you pick out your wedding gown and throw you the best bachelorette party ever!”

The second I heard the word wedding my stomach dropped and I became speechless.

Sarah waved a hand in front of my face like what she had just said was not that big of a deal. ”Oh sweetie, calm down. I'm just kidding around, but honestly, I could see it happening. Don't worry and don't you dare let it get to you, ok. Matter of fact, how about you just forget I said anything, ok?”

”Um, yeah. O-Ok.” Like that would happen.

By the time I was done with my internal freak out Jade came back in the room and fell down into her seat. ”Well, I missed them. Thanks a lot, Iz. So how amazeb.a.l.l.s is he at kissing? Did you instantly o.r.g.a.s.m?”

”Oh my gosh Jade, you really are crazy! All I will tell you is that his lips are amazing and his hands are... ”

”What about my hands, sweetheart?”

My heart sped up and I started to turn around. Maddox was looking down at me with a huge smile on his face and those d.a.m.n dimples were making a s.e.xy a.s.s appearance. ”Um, exactly how much did you hear? And who said I was talking about you, munchkin?”

He started to laugh and bent down and kissed me on the lips. I thought it was going to be a simple peck but he put one of his hands behind my head to deepen the kiss. Then his tongue was in my mouth swirling around with mine and the other was on my hips holding me still. I heard sighs from behind me but I was way too mesmerized by Maddox's lips. I was hypnotized. I started to put my hands up around his neck to play with his wavy hair but he broke away. His lips moved up into a devilish grin and his eyes sparkled. ”So who were you talking about, sweetheart?”

Maddox knew he had me right where he wanted me. I decided to go with the truth and see what he had to say about that. ”You. Only you.”

His smile got even bigger and I swear I saw fireworks go off in his eyes. ”So you ready to leave? I'm really hungry and am ready to have some dinner.”

”Um yea-” I didn't get to finish my sentence because Maddox pulled me up over his shoulders and turned to walk away. Before we made our way out of the library I heard Gabe yelling, ”Atta boy,” Sarah laughing and Jade yelled, ”So that's what the kids are calling it these days? Dinner? Well, I hope you two have some really spicy, hot, dirty dinner!” and then she winked at us.

Chapter 6.

I was sitting in the living room doing some homework when Maddox came up behind me and sat down on the sofa. I could tell that his eyes were on mine and I smiled. I looked over at him and he handed me a gla.s.s of wine while he took a sip from his bottle of beer.

I took the wine from him and took a good healthy sip. ”Thanks munchkin.” I leaned over and kissed him on the lips. I heard him moan which made me giggle and also got me really excited, a.k.a. h.o.r.n.y as f.u.c.k. I couldn't believe in a million years I was the one who was getting Maddox to make sounds like that. Made him feel those things and got the reactions he was getting.

Maddox stood up and set his beer on the coffee table and took my wine from me and set it on the coffee table as well. He then sat back down and looked at me. ”Why are you always staring at me, Maddox?”

He shrugged his shoulders like it was a no brainer. Almost as if I should know his answer to my question already. ”Because you're gorgeous. Beautiful. s.e.xy. h.e.l.l, those words don't even come close to describing you. It's just that I can never get enough of you. Every time I look at you I see a different emotion come across your face or a new freckle I hadn't noticed before. Why? Does it bother you?” I actually thought about it for a few seconds and then shook my head. ”You know what? I thought maybe it would bother me, but, it doesn't. It actually makes me feel cherished and special.”

He wrapped an arm around me to pull me closer and kissed me on the forehead. ”You are very special to me Isabelle. Very special indeed.” His words made me want him and before I knew it I was straddling him and crus.h.i.+ng my mouth to his. I twined my fingers through his hair and pulled back just a little so his head would fall back onto the couch. I wanted to take control and deepen the kiss. He happily obliged and wrapped his arms around my back. I could hear him grunting and sighs were coming from my mouth and it just made me want him even more than I already did. I didn't want to leave his mouth but I started to kiss down his neck and made my way up to his earlobes to bite down on them.

My lips were getting lonely so I kissed him on the lips again and bit his lower lip. The second I did that his bulging erection pushed into my groin. Yup, I would definitely have to keep that bit of information at the forefront of my mind for later.

Then it was my turn. Maddox suckled and nibbled his way down my throat to my collarbone. He started suckling at a soft spot along my jaw. My instincts kicked in and I started rubbing up against his groin. Oh, I like that feeling!

I could feel there was a tension building up inside of me and I just wanted to set it free. I needed to find a release. My release. I started grinding into him harder which gave him all the motivation he needed. He started sucking and nipping at my neck harder and his hands moved down my back to grab and pinch my a.s.s. I knew I was getting close and the second Maddox sucked on my earlobe I completely lost it. I came and man, did I come hard.

”Oh G.o.d. OH G.o.d MADDOX! MADDOX! ”

I heard Maddox grunt again and then he became still. Maddox was slowly kissing my neck and kissed me once on the lips while I was still panting and trying to catch my breath.

”Holy s.h.i.+t sweetheart! The was a-f.u.c.king-mazing!”

”Holy s.h.i.+tb.a.l.l.s, yeah it was.” I started to blush. Oh G.o.d, I cannot believe I just did that. With Maddox.

”Um sweetheart, why are you blus.h.i.+ng?”

”Uh, uh no reason.”

”Sweetheart?”

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