Part 3 (1/2)

I was about to collapse from oxygen deprivation because when I looked at Maddox I forgot normal functions like breathing. Then Maddox ran and jumped on my bed. ”Ah h.e.l.l no, it's a Friday night so get your cute little a.s.s up and get ready because we are going out.”

”Look Maddox, I just wanted to relax tonight. It's been a long week for me.”

He stopped jumping and fell on my bed. ”Sweetheart, it is a Friday night and we are in college. We are leaving in fifteen minutes. You have the choice of wearing that or something else. It won't matter to me either way because I would prefer you in nothing, but those are your options.”

I could feel a blush creeping on so I grabbed my clothes and headed for the bathroom.

I should be in the Guinness Book of World Records because I took a shower, freshened up my make-up and hair, and dressed in ten minutes flat! My hair was in waves and I was wearing a knee length, tight, green halter dress with white wedges and clutch. As I made my way into the kitchen I heard Maddox cracking open a beer. He was just about to take a sip when he saw me and his jaw fell open. His eyes bored into me and reached into my soul. I felt jittery and nervous and completely alive all at the same time. His eyes made their way down my body and then back up again searching mine. He gulped and took a long drag of his beer before shaking his head.

”Nope, not going to happen. Sweetheart, you have to change. Like right now.”

Um, was I as high as a kite or was Maddox speechless when I walked in?

”Why what's wrong? I think I look cute,” I said while twirling around. When I faced Maddox again he gulped and took a deep breath.

”No, you look gorgeous. h.e.l.l, you look gorgeous all the time. Can't you just wear like a brown paper bag or something? No, you know what? You would look gorgeous in that too. Ugh f.u.c.k! Can you just please, for the love of G.o.d, change out of that? I would really like to not end up in jail tonight for beating up f.u.c.ktards,” he said.

I looked gorgeous? All the time? In his eyes?

But I'd clearly won this battle because I walked over to the fridge, cracked open a beer and said, ”Munchkin, you told me I had fifteen minutes and there are two minutes left which means I won't have time to change. So how about you just be my bodyguard for the night?” He chugged his beer and said, ”Alright but if I see one a.s.shole look at you the wrong way we are leaving!”

We decided to go to a local bar with a dance floor and music. Luckily, it wasn't too crowded. I was nervous because I wasn't twenty-one but Maddox had it covered and had a fake id for me. After making our way to the bar we ordered shots of tequila. After downing our shots I ordered a Corona and Maddox got a Bud Light.

I was feeling great after a couple of drinks and really wanted to dance. ”Maddox, come dance with me.” I didn't give him a chance to think about it because I grabbed his hand and pulled him onto the dance floor. The current song playing was Superba.s.s by Nicki Minaj. I was feeling brave from the alcohol and wrapped my arms around his neck and we started to grind into one another. We danced for a couple more songs and then my jam, Turnin' Me On * by Lil Wayne and Keri Hilson started to play. I immediately turned around and started rubbing my a.s.s up against him. I could feel how much he wanted me through his jeans and I wrapped my arms around his neck. He slowly skimmed my side and I instantly felt goose b.u.mps where his fingers touched me.

I couldn't believe how sensual it was and I slowly turned around in his arms and ran my fingers through his hair. Just as I did that I heard him take a sharp breath and for just a moment we stopped dancing and just stood there, staring at one another. Whatever thought I had of him kissing me vanished the second Jason tapped Maddox on the shoulder. ”Mind if I cut in?”

Maddox looked like he was going to combust but he just shook his head and walked back to his seat at the bar. I put my arms around Jason's neck feeling a little hurt about the way Maddox just walked away from me.

After a few seconds I asked, ”So Jason, what was it you wanted to ask me?” He put his hands on my hips and slowly pulled me closer to him. I was facing the bar and could see Maddox's face turning bright red as he strangled the neck of his beer bottle.

What was the matter with him? He was the one who left. Jason and I were just dancing and I wasn't even Maddox's girlfriend. What was I to him? Oh yeah, his roommate.

I tore my eye contact from Maddox and turned my attention back to Jason. He looked a little annoyed, but shook it off. ”You didn't hear anything I said, did you?”

”Oh, I'm sorry Jason; the alcohol is just starting to hit me. You mind if we get some air?”

Just as we were walking outside Maddox pulled me against him. ”Ok, we're leaving now.”

”Dude! What the h.e.l.l is your problem? Izzy is fine. We were just getting some air.” Jason looked between me and Maddox and didn't know what to do. h.e.l.l, I didn't either. Maddox and I were friends, but I could see that for some reason Maddox was really p.i.s.sed off.

While Jason was really built, I knew that Maddox could break him in half like a twig. I put my hand on Maddox's arm to try and calm him down. ”Jason, we're just going to go. I'll see you later?” Jason shrugged his shoulders and before I knew it Maddox was putting me into his car. He slammed my door shut, got in on his side, and sped down the street.

”Maddox, what the h.e.l.l is the matter with you? We were just dancing!” Of course Maddox didn't say a d.a.m.n word the whole ride home.

We had just pulled up to the apartment and I was getting ready to open my car door but Maddox beat me to it. He put me over his shoulder, carried me to my bedroom and slammed the door behind him as he left. I didn't know what to say so I just sat on my bed in complete shock.

A few minutes later Maddox walked in. He looked like he had calmed down a lot and walked over and sat next to me on my bed.

”Look Isabelle, I know what guys are like and what Jason is after. The way he was looking at you he just wanted one thing. Trust me when I say that Jason doesn't date girls; he f.u.c.ks them. I knew you were drinking and I just didn't want you to make any mistakes. I'm sorry for the way I acted, but I was just trying to look out for you. To protect you.”

I thought I had calmed down but my blood started to boil and I bolted up off the bed.

”You have got some f.u.c.king nerve accusing me of that. Maddox, you are the King of sleeping with any girl who is willing to spread her legs for you. And my G.o.d, are they willing!”

I wanted to add that I was willing as well. But I don't want to be somebody's once but somebody's forever.

I could see his head fall and I felt bad for the words that came out of my mouth. After all, he did give me a place to stay rent free and, maybe in his eyes, I was in danger. I took a few deep breaths and bit my lip to avoid saying anything to make the situation worse. I sat by him on the bed and took his hand in mine.

”But Maddox, you really don't have to worry about that kind of stuff with me.” He held on to my hand and turned to face me. ”Why don't I have to worry about that with you, sweetheart?” I thought Maddox was smart enough to read between the lines, but apparently not. Ugh, this was so embarra.s.sing but it would ease his mind and I wouldn't have to deal with any more embarra.s.sing public scenes. So I took a few breaths and said, ”I'm a virgin.”

Maddox stood up from the bed and burst out laughing. ”s.h.i.+t, you're good. For a second you really had me going there.” When I didn't say anything he stopped and looked at me. ”f.u.c.k, you're not kidding. Are you?” He sat back down on the bed and I shook my head.

”Look, it's not like guys aren't attracted to me or anything. I've had my options, but I haven't really had a lot of choices to make in my life that are just mine. This is the one thing I have and I can make the decision myself. No one else can.”

I couldn't understand why I was explaining myself to Maddox, but I felt comfortable with him. He made me feel things that I never felt before. Everything was different between us.

Maddox picked me up and pulled me onto his lap. I thought he was going to make some smart a.s.s comment about my virginity, but he tucked my head under his chin and whispered, ”Sweetheart, whoever you choose will be the luckiest b.a.s.t.a.r.d known to man.”

I couldn't believe what I had just heard. I took a second to let the words sink in and a smile touched my lips. ”Thanks Madd, that means a lot.” If it was even possible, Maddox pulled me closer to his chest and then said, ”Of course, we could always do the deed right now if you really wanted to?” I slapped him on the chest and giggled. ”Thanks munchkin, I'll take it under advis.e.m.e.nt. You know I have a ton of suitors available and waiting for me.”

He laughed and I could feel the vibration from his chest against me. ”Oh sweetheart. If only.” He pushed up from the bed and set me down. ”Goodnight Isabelle. Sweet dreams.”

After he left my room, I fell onto my bed and whispered, ”If only.”

Chapter 4.

”Holy f.u.c.k, he's gorgeous. I swear, just staring at him I get an o.r.g.a.s.m!” Jade was staring past Sarah and me and fanning herself. Sarah just started laughing. ”Ok Jade, who are you talking about now?”

Jade was still fanning herself and looking off in the distance when she said, ”Oh, just the s.e.xiest man known to the universe who has every piece of a.s.s groveling at his feet. Except he's staring at Izzy like she is his last meal, Aladdin's three wishes, or the best girl on girl p.o.r.n video out there. Take your pick. h.e.l.l, she could be all three to him.”

I just started to laugh at her a.n.a.logy. Aladdin's three wishes? ”Jesus, Jade. Could you talk any louder because I don't think everybody heard you?”

Jade finally broke her stare. ”Oh, come on Iz. There really isn't anything going on between the two of you? Like seriously, have you not looked at Maddox?”

I didn't look up from doing my homework. Explaining myself was really getting old. ”Yes, I most certainly have looked at that gorgeous piece of a.s.s. Normal functions like breathing are hard to do around him. But have you looked at me?”

n.o.body said anything for a while so I looked up and they were both staring at me with the dumbest looks on their faces.

Sarah took a long breath and flicked me on the forehead. ”Ow, Sarah. What the h.e.l.l was that for?”

Sarah crossed her arms and looked at me. ”Well, I was trying to slap the stupid out of that head of yours. Isabelle Katherine Clark, you are a gorgeous girl. Inside and out. I don't know who made you think that you are nothing, but they are completely wrong.”

”I'm not saying I'm ugly or anything, but I don't compare to those girls who are always huddled around Maddox. I'm nowhere near his level and never will be. It doesn't even matter if I was on his level or not. n.o.body has ever loved me. I don't think anybody ever will. Plain and simple.”