Chapter 191 I Think Shes a Person Worthy of Respect (2/2)
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Dr. Fear’s voice doesn’t sound like she’s telling a lie. More than anything else, my Sympathy Magic made me feel how painful Dr. Fear’s regrets are.
[……I don’t think that saving one life would allow me to be forgiven for taking one life. No, rather, no matter how many lives I save, even if I save all the people in the world, my sins will never be forgiven…… for my sins shouldn’t be forgiven.]
[……………………]
[I am not an omnipotent God. No amount of repentance, no amount of tears to shed to the point of withering, no amount of apologizing here every day…… For no matter how much I do all of these, you can’t bring back a life that’s gone.]
When I came here with Noir-san, Dr. Fear was in a prayer position in front of the altar.
However, it seems that wasn’t a prayer, but a penance…… In this place surrounded by the symbols of her sins, she continued to apologize for the lives she had taken.
[……Even though it’s painful and brings me to tears, I will not turn away from my sins and will continue to carry them until the end of my life. And using this sinful life of mine, I will continue to save as many lives as possible…… that’s probably the only redemption I can do.]
[……Dr. Fear.]
[I’m sorry. I’m not the kind of person you can respect.]
[………………….]
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I wonder what I can say here? I honestly can’t think of any words to say at all.
Dr. Fear said that her sins would never be forgiven, but perhaps, more than anyone else, Dr. Fear couldn’t forgive herself.
So, no matter what I said here, I’m sure that Dr. Fear would still carry her sins for the rest of her life.
However, I wonder why? I really felt like I should say something.
[……I honestly don’t know what you’re talking about. Whether what kind of person Dr. Fear was before or what sin you had committed…… I can’t say anything about it.]
[……Unnn. That’s fine…… It would be better if you despise someone who has greatly sinned like me……]
[However, as I thought, I still feel lots of respect for Dr. Fear.]
[…………….Eh?]
I don’t know about Dr. Fear’s past, and even if I did, I don’t think I’d be able to get any impressions from it, as I’m not related to it at all, aside from my typical reactions.
So, I decided not to think about it.
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[I don’t know what your past was, and I’m not going to ask. It’s just that, the woman I’ve known and with whom I’ve been in contact with all day today…… to me, she’s a kind person who reached out to people who are hurt and someone I can truly respect.]
[……Miyama-kun……]
[Besides, you should be at least 200 years old, right? There’s no I would ascertain what happened back then…… and even if I knew about Dr. Fear’s past sins, I wouldn’t lose my respect for “the current Dr. Fear”.]
[……Miyama-kun…… Have people ever told you that you’re a womanizer?]
[Ehh? W- What the heck are you suddenly saying!?]
She suddenly turned the conversation to something completely incomprehensible…… Womanizer… Why the heck is she saying that to the virgin me?
Seeing my confusion, Dr. Fear looks amused for some reason.
[Ahaha, you must be popular huh?]
[N- No, it’s not like I’m……]
[I don’t know about that~~ Well, no matter…… Thank you, Miyama-kun.]
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[Ehh? Eh? Ah, yes. Y- You’re welcome.]
I don’t know what the heck happened, but it looks like Dr. Fear seems to be feeling better, and she tightly interlocked her hands with each other in front of her breasts.
[Al~right~~, I’m filled with determination! I’m going to work harder today than I ever have before!]
[Ah, errr, yes.]
[Now then, it’s about time I clean up and see you off, Miyama-kun…….]
[Ahh!? Dr. Fear, watch your feet! There’s a step there!!!]
[Fuehh? ——-Kyaaahh!?]
[! ? ]
Dr. Fear was about to vigorously step forward, but the altar is a step higher than the floor…… I instantly knew what was going to happen next, so I quickly reached out my hands to her.
And somehow, I managed to catch Dr. Fear who had lost her footing and was about to fall over.
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[……A- Are you alright?]
[U- Unnn…… T- Thank you.]
That’s great…… Thanks to Dr. Fear’s slender figure, even the weak me still managed to catch her.
If I wasn’t able to support her and she still fell, it would have been a really shameful situation…… Yep, let’s go work out a bit more. Let’s do that.
Raising Dr. Fear’s body, I make sure she’s firmly standing before separating.
I could still feel her body from my hands that caught her earlier though, and even though I said all those sorts of words saying that I respect her, I felt my heart skip a beat.
Dr. Fear is slender but…… She’s quite well-endowed…… wait, what the heck am I thinking about!?
[……Hey, Miyama-kun.]
[Ehh? Ah, yes!]
[……Come visit me again. Even on the days where Noir-san won’t receive treatment…… I’ll at least serve you a cup of tea.]
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[Yes. Alright. I’d love to visit again.]
I don’t know if it’s because Dr. Fear is a healer or not, but she’s gentle and kind, and talking to her makes me feel relieved, so I was grateful for her offer.
I’ll continue to visit her in the future, though not as much as to interfere with her work as a doctor.
It was already well into the evening, so I left the church/hospital with Dr. Fear saying goodbye to me.
As Dr. Fear gave me a small wave, I waved back at her before turning my back…… but that’s when I think I heard a small voice.
[……That must be why Kuromu-sama likes you huh……]
[Eh? Did you say something?]
[No. It’s nothing…… See you later!]
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[Ah, yes.]
Turning around once to ask her what she just said, Dr. Fear just shook her head and gave me a big smile.
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The bright expression on her face soothed me, and waving my hand to her once again, I head home.
Dear Mom, Dad—— A lot of things seemed to have happened to Dr. Fear in the past, and she seemed to regret it a lot. There’s nothing I can do about her regret, and I probably shouldn’t thoughtlessly intrude upon such matters…… But regardless of that, what I think of Dr. Fear is that——– I think she’s a person worthy of respect.
No, Kaito, you’re a womanizing riajuu. Go die.
Serious-senpai: [I- I won’t be fooled…… T- To be placated with such sweetness…… P- Please give me more!]
I was actually planning to start Sieg’s arc in the next chapter, but Kaito’s visit to Fear’s church has gotten longer than I thought, so I’ll just suspend Sieg’s arc a chapter more and insert another story.
My apologies.
T/N: 55/237