Chapter 191 I Think Shes a Person Worthy of Respect (1/2)

After she finished treating the injured man who was suddenly rushed in, the two men thanked her for her help and left, Noir-san said it was time for her to go home and get ready for dinner.

I suggested that I would carry her back home, but after she told me she was okay, Noir-san left.

Even though it was still early in the evening, I was worried about sending a woman home alone…… but in the first place, Noir-san is a Demon, a half-vampire…… I heard that as long as her kind is replenished with blood, they’re incomparably better than me, so it seemed like my worry wasn’t needed.

I could have gone home too, but since I’m here, I decided to take a look around the church, and Dr. Fear gladly agreed to that.

The vast number of crosses on the walls looks like stars in a planetarium, and that’s what makes this church a little different from normal churches.

I’ve never been to a church in person, but I know about them to a certain extent…… They were also sometimes being shown on TV and anime, so I at least know that it wasn’t filled with so many crosses.

(T/N: Christianity is considered as one of Japan’s minor religions. source: google)

[……It’s beautiful, but it’s slightly different than the church that I had imagined.]

[Yes, that’s true. That’s because this place isn’t a church to begin with.]

[……Ehh?]

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When I said the question that came to my mind, I received a shocking from Dr. Fear.

Eh? This isn’t a church? Even though it’s decorated like this?

Seeing my astonishment, Dr. Fear softly smiles and touches a nearby wooden bench, she spoke.

[……This place was originally built by me personally, and as far as I’m concerned, it wasn’t intended to be a church but…… Just like Miyama-kun, someone misunderstood my intentions and asked me to let her pray. Thereupon, I added benches and an altar, and made it look lie a church.]

[I see. So that’s why Dr. Fear, a doctor, is also a priest as well.]

[……W- Well~~ I’m not really doing anything priestly, and as for me, just being a doctor is good enough for me but…… Well, I guess that’s just what the public’s perception has turned out huh?]

Dr. Fear looked beautiful when she chuckled when she said that, and combined with her nun’s habit, she really looked like a saint.

[Speaking of which, why did Dr. Fear become a doctor?]

[Ehh? Me?]

[Ahh, no, it’s okay if you don’t want to answer……]

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I found myself unexpectedly asking such questions.

I think Dr. Fear is a splendid person and I can tell for sure by the emotions that come through the Sympathy Magic that she is truly a kind person.

However, there was something strange…… It’s like there’s always a faint hint of dark emotion mixed in with her gentle kindness, and for some reason, painful emotions were flowing from Dr. Fear when the men thanked her before leaving.

I wanted to know the answer to that question, but of course, if there were some circumstances involved in it, I’m not going to force her to answer.

When I told her that, Dr. Fear held up her index finger with a smile after a bit of silence.

[……Well then, before I answer, here’s a question for you! Why do you think I became a doctor in the Symphonia Kingdom?]

[……E- Errr…… Hmmm. Because the food here is so good?]

[It’s true that Symphonia Kingdom has a good food culture. But, unfortunately… That’s not the right answer.]

To be honest, the only difference I know between the Symphonia Kingdom and the other countries is that this country has a developed food culture based on what Alice taught me about……

However, from the way Dr. Fear spoke, there seems to be some other reason why she is working as a doctor here in the Symphonia Kingdom.

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[The answer is…… because there are “few doctors” here in the Symphonia Kingdom.]

[Eh? Is that so?]

[Unnn. The reason for this is simple. Because there’s a temple in this country dedicated for the “Goddess of Health”.]

[……Ah, I see! The blessings!]

I remembered hearing that there’s a culture in this world where people go to the temple on New Year’s day to receive a blessing from the Goddess of Health, which will prevent them from getting sick.

I see, and if no one gets sick, it must mean less work for doctors.

[That’s correct…… However, Miyama-kun, what you’re thinking right now is probably wrong.]

[……Eh?]

[……Blessings, you see. Except for the ones that are done directly by the Goddesses, they are only something that consoles the public…… and there are only a few people who directly receive the blessings from the Goddess……]

Dr. Fear surprised me. Come to think of it, the blessing from God is one gold coin each…… Converted to Japanese yen, that’s 1 million yen.

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Putting aside if you’re part of a noble family, but for the cost of a gold coin, for each family…… Only the wealthy families would be able to set aside 2 million for a couple, or at least, 3 million if they also have children, each year.

That means that most people in the Symphonia Kingdom aren’t directly blessed by the Goddess and can get sick.

[……That’s why doctors aren’t really a popular profession in this country. The people in the upper echelons who have money don’t get sick and don’t get injured as often…… Well then, here’s another question.]

[Eh?]

[If a mermaid/harpy hybrid mother and a half-elf father had a child, if that child got sick…… what hospital would you take him to? To the mermaids’? The harpies’? The elves’? Or perhaps, the humans’?

[……Ahh.]

[Yes, there are lots of hybrids in this world, and different races have different bodies. It’s really hard to be a doctor…… I’ve been a doctor for a long time. It took me 200 years to be able to see a patient with a reasonable amount of confidence, and yet, I still get patients with symptoms I’ve never seen before.]

This world has different races mingling with each other, and hybrids aren’t uncommon.

In fact, from the people I know, Lunamaria-san is a mixed-blood of four different races from what I heard from here…… So, the difficulty of medical treatment will probably dramatically increase.

Furthermore, the Demons have much more diverse races, and the treatment of the Demons who live in the Human Realm would be treated as if they were different from Humans, and the diseases they get would also be different.

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[……Well, because doctors are often in short supply, that’s why I became a doctor, I guess? I still have some things to learn, but I’d love to be a doctor who can cure as many species as possible.]

[Is that…… to help a lot of people?]

[……Unnn. I want as many people to be as healthy as possible. I just want them to live with a smile on their faces…… and even if it’s just a little bit, hopefully help them live a happy life.]

I think that her kindness really is bottomless…… but, it appeared again. I can feel some painful emotions again, as if she’s suffering from something.

This is…… It kind of resembles the emotions I felt from Lilia-san during the Sacred Tree Festival. That is to say, could this emotion be…… regret?

However, I think this is probably something I should just lightheartedly step into, nor is it something I can just ask.

[I see, thank you for telling me. Dr. Fear really is a splendid doctor. I respect you.]

[ ! ? ]

I should have brought this conversation to a close…… but hearing my words, Dr. Fear’s expression distorted. She looked helpless and feeling in pain……

In front of me, who was confused by the change in her expression, Dr. Fear slowly walked over to the altar and without turning to look at me, she quietly muttered.

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[……I’m not a splendid person worthy of your respect. No, rather…… I think I’m the biggest fool in this world.]

[……Eh?]

[……You see, the crosses glittering around this church. It’s the “number of lives I’ve taken”……]

[ ! ? ]

I didn’t immediately understand the sorrowful words that she said.

She had taken as many lives as the number of these little crosses? But, these crosses…… They’re so tightly packed in the walls that counting them in 100s or 1000s wouldn’t be enough…..

[……E- Errr, does that mean…… these are people you couldn’t help as a doctor?]

[……No. You’re mistaken…… Of course I’m not all-powerful either, so there are lots of people I couldn’t help. In the backroom of the doctor’s office, I’ve left the names of people I couldn’t help for me to remember but…… These crosses are completely different from them.]

[Different?]

[……Long ago, I took the lives of so many people. I took away the precious lives of innocent people for no reason…… The crosses in this room is the symbol of the sins I committed and the punishment I will have to carry for the rest of my life……]