Part 11 (1/2)

Such a remark was sailing, you may say, almost within three points of the wind; and his own accidental allusion to Romeo had brought it about with an aptness and a celerity which were better for my purpose than anything I had privately developed from the text of Bottom and t.i.tania; none the less, however, did I intend to press into my service that fond couple also as basis for a moral, in spite of the sharp turn which those last words of mine now caused him at once to give to our conversation.

His quick reversion to the beginning of the talk seemed like a dodging of remarks that hit too near home for him to relish hearing pursued.

”Well, sir,” he resumed with the same initial briskness, ”I was ashamed if you were not.”

”I still don't make out what impropriety we have jointly committed.”

”What do you think of the views you expressed about our country?”

”Oh! When we sat on the gravestones.”

”What do you think about it to-day?”

I turned to him as we slowly walked toward Wors.h.i.+p Street. ”Did you say anything then that you would take back now?”

He pondered, wrinkling his forehead. ”Well, but all the same, didn't we give the present hour a pretty black eye?”

”The present hour deserves a black eye, and two of them!”

He surveyed me squarely. ”I believe you're a pessimist!”

”That is the first trashy thing I've heard you say.”

”Thank you! At least admit you're scarcely an optimist.”

”Optimist! Pessimist! Why, you're talking just like a newspaper!”

He laughed. ”Oh, don't compare a gentleman to a newspaper.”

”Then keep your vocabulary clean of bargain-counter words. A while ago the journalists had a furious run upon the adjective 'un-American.'

Anybody or anything that displeased them was 'un-American.' They ran it into the ground, and in its place they have lately set up 'pessimist,'

which certainly has a threatening appearance. They don't know its meaning, and in their mouths it merely signifies that what a man says snakes them feel personally uncomfortable. The word has become a dusty rag of slang. The arrested burglar very likely calls the policeman a pessimist; and, speaking reverently and with no intention to shock you, the scribes and Pharisees would undoubtedly have called Christ a pessimist when He called them hypocrites, had they been acquainted with the word.”

Once more my remarks drew from the boy an unexpected rejoinder. We had turned into Wors.h.i.+p Street, and, as we pa.s.sed the churchyard, he stopped and laid his hand upon the railing of the pate.

”You don't shock me,” he said; and then: ”But you would shock my aunts.”

He paused, gazing into the churchyard, before he continued more slowly: ”And so should I--if they knew it--shock them.”

”If they knew what?” I asked.

His hand indicated a sculptured crucifix near by.

”Do you believe everything still?” he answered. ”Can you?”

As he looked at me, I suppose that he read negation in my eyes.

”No more can I,” he murmured. Again he looked in among the tombstones and flowers, where the old custodian saw us and took off his hat.

”Howdy, Daddy Ben!” John Mayrant returned pleasantly, and then resuming to me: ”No more can I believe everything.” Then he gave a brief, comical laugh. ”And I hope my aunts won't find that out! They would think me gone to perdition indeed. But I always go to church here” (he pointed to the quiet building, which, for all its modest size and simplicity, had a stately and inexpressible charm), ”because I like to kneel where my mother said her prayers, you know.” He flushed a little over this confidence into which he had fallen, but he continued: ”I like the words of the service, too, and I don't ask myself over-curiously what I do believe; but there's a permanent something within us--a Greater Self--don't you think?”