Part 10 (1/2)
”Why, yes. We have, alas! to expect and allow for rudeness sometimes, even in our chosen few, and for liberties in their chosen few; it's only the hotel clerk and the head waiter from whom we usually get impudence; while insolence is the chronic condition of the Wall Street rich.”
”You in the North!” she repeated. ”And so your Northern eyes can't see it, after all!” At these words my intelligence sailed into a great blank, while she continued: ”Frankly--and forgive me for saying it--I was hoping that you were one Northerner who would see it.”
”But see what?” I barked in my despair.
She did not help me. ”If I had been a man, nothing could have insulted me more than that. And that's what you don't see,” she regretfully finished. ”It seems so strange.”
I sat in the midst of my great blank, while her handsome eyes rested upon me. In them was that look of a certain inquiry and a certain remoteness with which one pauses, in a museum, before some specimen of the cave-dwelling man.
”You comprehend so much,” she meditated slowly, aloud; ”you've been such an agreeable disappointment, because your point of view is so often the same as ours.” She was still surveying me with the specimen expression, when it suddenly left her. ”Do you mean to sit there and tell me,” she broke out, ”that you wouldn't have resented it yourself?”
”O dear!” my mind lamentably said to itself, inside. Of what may have been the exterior that I presented to her, sitting over my slice of Lady Baltimore, I can form no impression.
”Put yourself in his place,” the girl continued.
”Ah,” I gasped, ”that is always so easy to say and so hard to do.”
My remark proved not a happy one. She made a brief, cold pause over it, and then, as she wheeled round from me, back to the counter: ”No Southerner would let pa.s.s such an affront.”
It was final. She regained her usual place, she resumed her ledger; the curly dog, who had come out to hear our conversation, went in again; I was disgraced. Not only with the profile of her short, belligerent nose, but with the chilly way in which she made her pencil move over the ledger, she told me plainly that my self-respect had failed to meet her tests. This was what my remarkable ingenuity had achieved for me. I swallowed the last crumbs of Lady Baltimore, and went forward to settle the account.
”I suppose I'm scarcely ent.i.tled to ask for a fresh one to-morrow,” I ventured. ”I am so fond of this cake.”
Her officialness met me adequately. ”Certainly the public is ent.i.tled to whatever we print upon our bill-of-fare.”
Now this was going to be too bad! Henceforth I was to rank merely as ”the public,” no matter how much Lady Baltimore I should lunch upon! A happy thought seized me, and I spoke out instantly on the strength of it.
”Miss La Heu, I've a confession to make.”
But upon this beginning of mine the inauspicious door opened and young John Mayrant came in. It was all right about his left eye; anybody could see that bruise!
”Oh!” he exclaimed, hearty, but somewhat disconcerted. ”To think of finding you here! You're going? But I'll see you later?”
”I hope so,” I said. ”You know where I work.”
”Yes--yes. I'll come. We've all sorts of things more to say, haven't we?
We--good-by!”
Did I hear, as I gained the street, something being said about the General, and the state of his health?
VIII: Midsummer-Night's Dream
You may imagine in what state of wondering I went out of that place, and how little I could now do away with my curiosity. By the droll looks and head-turnings which followed me from strangers that pa.s.sed me by in the street, I was made aware that I must be talking aloud to myself, and the words which I had evidently uttered were these: ”But who in the world can he have smashed up?”
Of course, beneath the public stare and smile I kept the rest of my thoughts to myself; yet they so possessed and took me from my surroundings, that presently, while crossing Royal Street, I was nearly run down by an electric car. Nor did even this serve to disperse my preoccupation; my walk back to Court and Chancel streets is as if it had not been; I can remember nothing about it, and the first account that I took of external objects was to find myself sitting in my accustomed chair in the Library, with the accustomed row of books about the battle of Cowpens waiting on the table in front of me. How long we had thus been facing each other, the books and I, I've not a notion. And with such mysterious machinery are we human beings filled--machinery that is in motion all the while, whether we are aware of it or not--that now, with some part of my mind, and with my pencil a.s.sisting, I composed several stanzas to my kingly ancestor, the goal of my fruitless search; and yet during the whole process of my metrical exercise I was really thinking and wondering about John Mayrant, his battles and his loves.
ODE ON INTIMATIONS OF ROYALTY
I sing to thee, thou Great Unknown, Who canst connect me with a throne Through uncle, cousin, aunt, or sister, But not, I trust, through bar sinister.
Chorus: Gules! Gules! and a cuckoo peccant!