Part 5 (2/2)
Christina squeezed her eyes shut.
”Okay, now open them.”
In his hands, Jim Ed was holding up a silver heart-shaped locket on a chain.
”It was my grandmother's,” he said. ”She pa.s.sed it down to my Mama who pa.s.sed it on to me so I could give it to you.”
”Oh, Jim Ed, it's beautiful!”
”Look Christina,” said Jim Ed. ”I'm not too good at fancy words, so I'm just gonna says what's on my mind. ...Christina, from the first day we met, I knew you was the one for me. And I...I...hope you think I'm the one for you. When overseas, nearly all I could think about was getting back home to you. It was the thoughts of you that helped keep me safe.”
”And a lot of prayers from me and your family,” added Christina.
”Yes, of course. But, what I'm trying to say is...Christina... will you marry me? ...Before you answer, I have another surprise. I got me a good job in Jackson now. Start the first of next month. Because of working on trucks in the Army, I got hired as a mechanic at the Sears & Roebuck Auto Center. The pay is decent so I can at least put a roof over our heads till you finish school and we can get something better and-”
Christina placed one finger over Jim Ed's mouth. ”Shhh,” she said, moving her body closer and cuddling up under his arm. There was a long silence and Jim Ed was starting to get nervous. He' d already been sweating.
”Mrs. Christina Porter,” she said. ”I like the sound of that.”
”So that means yes?”
”What do you think? Of course it means yes.”
”Yeeeee Haaaa!” Jim Ed let out a holler so loud that tradition says it could be heard all the way to Osyka twenty miles down the road.
”Jim Ed,” Christina said, ”Calm down. I will marry you, but there is one condition though.”
Jim Ed's holler quickly became a whimper. ”Yes ma'am?”
”You have to let me teach you. Because you're a veteran now you can take the new G.E.D. test and then you can go to college on the G.I. Bill. You have to take advantage of the opportunity, Jim Ed.”
”What?”
”Hey, you think I'm joking? This is no game to me. I'm serious. You let me work with you and one day you will go to college too. You have so much to offer, Jim Ed.”
Jim Ed turned his head away from Christina and looked out the truck window thinking about her proposal. ”All right, I guess so,” he said, turning his head back. ”Mrs. Porter-to-be, it's a deal.”
”You promise, Jim Ed? Because I know you're a man of your word. If you let me down, I'll be so disappointed because I know you can do it. You've got great gifts in you that G.o.d wants to develop, Jim Ed.”
”I promise.”
”It's not going to be easy.”
”I said I promise.”
”Now you can holler,” said Christina.
”Yeeeee Haaaa!”
15.
Jim Ed cleared his throat. ”Sure do miss her. Sometimes I get so lonely, but not lonely from being by myself. I see a lot of people-have many friends. I get lonely for my life partner, my soul mate. When Christina died, it was like the best part of me died right along with her. You have to understand, we went through a whole life together and after each battle we fought and won, we became that much stronger. It's great to have someone in the foxholes of life with you. She was the best thing that ever happened to me outside of the good Lord Himself. You know, in the beginning, our relations.h.i.+p was mostly about our physical attraction and pa.s.sion-all the fluff of infatuation. As we grew older, all that slowed down. But you know what?”
”What?” I said, sitting up on the edge of the bench.
”Infatuation gave way to something much better... authentic love. You see, when I saw my life's partner coming through for me again and again, standing by my side, getting dirty with me in the foxholes of life, my love for her grew that much deeper. Wasn't always easy. Had to push through some hard times. I remember when our girl Tallah died. Got the measles just two years before the vaccine. Two years! Only eight years old, my baby girl was just beginning to live. Can't imagine the heartache. Something you never get over. Just learn to live with it. Still hurts after all these years. I was so mad at G.o.d.
”Christina went into deep grief too, but she never got angry with G.o.d though she had a ton of questions for Him. I thought for sure that tragedy was going to be the end of my faith and maybe us, but just the opposite happened. Jesus met us and carried us. The only way I can explain... it's supernatural. Sometimes tragedy drives couples apart, but Christina and I got closer, the bond between us stronger.
”As time pa.s.sed, even though she was still the most beautiful thing my eyes ever did see, her outer sh.e.l.l started to mean less and less because now I was in love with her true being, her character. And I tell you what, that woman had some kind of character. She stuck by my side through thick and thin, pus.h.i.+ng me, encouraging me. After a while, our souls just meshed, became one. In the beginning, we were one in body, but as we grew together, we became one in spirit. A lot of people get married and become one in body, but they never become one in spirit.
”When I first married Christina, I felt honored that she married me-couldn't imagine that out of everyone in the whole world she actually picked me to spend the rest of her life with. Think about it. That's some kind of honor-a person picking you to spend their whole life with. I suppose I never really got over it-the honor of it all.”
”You were fortunate to have found that kind of love in life,” I said. ”Some people never do.”
”You sure are right. I was truly fortunate. This may surprise you, but you know what I miss the most?”
I shrugged my shoulders.
”The hugs. They were the best part. I long to touch Christina's soft skin and to smell her sweetness. My favorite parts of the day were in the mornings and the evenings when we'd hug in the bed. And when she'd be standing in the kitchen, I'd walk up behind her and wrap my arms around her from behind. Squeeze her tight and nibble on her neck and ears and smell her hair. Her scent was like a drug. I tell you, it'd put me in a state. Sometimes I can still smell her around the house, almost as if she were standing right in front of me. This morning I was standing at the kitchen sink, and I swear I could smell her. You know what I'm talking about-that unique scent that each person has? Every day that goes by, however, her scent fades from the house a little bit more. Sometimes I'll walk around the house like some crazy old man, sniffing pillows and towels and things, trying desperately to recapture her scent.”
”That's not crazy, Jim Ed.”
”Whenever I touched her and took in her scent, it gave me energy for living. And you know what else we'd do? ... Almost every night Christina would sit down at one end of the couch and I'd sit down on the other and she'd put her feet up in my lap and I'd rub them while we watched TV. She loved me rubbing her feet, but to tell you the truth, I think I loved rubbing them more. It was real calming for me...we didn't have to be going out on the town all the time in order to be content. We were just as happy sitting on the couch being together. I'm gonna tell you something else that I know you're not going to believe.” Jim Ed grinned like a little child.
”As we got older, the loving got better. Most of the time, it was so good we couldn't hardly believe it ourselves. I tell young people, you can't compare a one-night stand to the loving that comes from years of real love and partners.h.i.+p- loving when you're one in spirit. There's no comparison. Of course, to have that kind of loving, you have to really value your mate. I like to tell young men, if you want your wife to respond, you have to treat her like the queen she is. You make her feel really special...and I guarantee she'll respond.” He sat his brush down and again looked up at the sky. ”But I still miss the hugs the most.”
My head dropped. ”I know Paige needed my affection,” I said. ”She'd been asking me to open up to her and let her in.”
Jim Ed's eyes again fixed onto mine with that now familiar stare. Obviously he didn't want me to miss the point he was about to make.
”There's something special about touching the ones you love,” he said. ”Never forget to touch the people you love because one day they may not be here. Touch them. Smell them. Take in their essence and energy. So many take the people in their lives for granted-don't know what they have until they're gone.” A single tear rolled down his cheek and he made no attempt to wipe it away. ”I'd give just about anything to hold my Christina one more time. She was my best friend, my very best friend.”
For the next minute or two Jim Ed painted in silence, no doubt reliving distant memories of him and Christina.
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