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[Konohara Narise] Sleeping Bunny (Part 4) [END]
Yareba dekiru jyan! 인간승리!!! <- shut=””>
I'll work on the epilogue now o)/ (I think I can finish that before the end of this year, hahaha I actually feel quite proud of myself now o)
He had a spare key to the roo inside So he waited for the man in front of the door Even after 8 PM, the ht, Kouichi lifted his lowered head at the sound of footsteps that deceived him few times already
When thein front of his door, he turned away Kouichi chased after hiht hi up until now, but his eyes were red and he suely re that he hated alcoholic drinks
”Please go away”
”Stop running away from me”
”Please get lost I don't want to see that school uniform on you”
The lared at Kouichi with drunken red eyes
”Was it fun playing around with an older teacher?”
Not even caring what anyone else ht think, he kissed the ed the man inside the room
He pushed down the refusingit so violently
The word 'rape' popped into his mind, and then disappeared When he forced his way inside, the man was in pain and protested, but after few moments he started to make small sounds and moved his waist himself
He didn't want to make any excuses Instead, he countlessly patted his back with soothingthe sheets He had cried sobunny
”I have to go home now”
The
”Let's talk I'ain tomorrow, okay?”
He didn't want to part fros were tre His heart somehow throbbed painfully
The man didn't co, he had chained the door closed, so he couldn't go inside After 3 days of that, on the 4th day, the man's room was completely empty He spent half a day in front of theaimlessly It was an empty room so there was no way that the man would return, but he had no choice but to wait
Tiain That thought kept on crossing his ree with that thought He became sad
When the sun nearly set, he finally remembered to move, so he stood up
He walked the familiar streets that led to his home From Kase Station, it was three stops until his stop He was buried in sea of workers ere heading hoates with unco that his body and soul had separated when he heard so his name behind him It was the voice of his friend, as the last person he wanted to ht now
”What were you doing, cutting school?”
”Nothing” He answered without turning around
”He came to school, you know”
He thought he was hearing things at the words When he turned around, Kakimoto muttered, ”Sly bastard”
”He was at the teacher's lounge He'll be there tomorrow, too, wouldn't you think?”
Kouichi was about to leave horabbed his arm when he tried to run
”Wait until tomorrow”
”I can't wait”
”Chill out already!”
When he shouted at him, he stopped Kakimoto came nearer to Kouichi and smacked Kouichi's head Hard But it didn't hurt at all
”Just chill out, okay? It's not like he's going to disappear on you in a day or two”
”What are you gonna do if he DOES disappear? Huh?” Once he started to talk, he couldn't stop ”If I can never onna be responsible or soht noant to see him”
Tears came out After he had matured, he had never cried in front of his friends Shaether and spilled out
”He's going to couarantee it”
He didn't knohere his confidence was co from, but that's what Kakimoto said
”Stop crying You're grossing me out”
He lightly smacked Kouichi's lowered head
”If he DOES disappear I don't want to, but I'll look for hio hoently said
”I really don't get you,” Kouichi suddenly muttered
”Well, what can I do? Even if you're like that, you're ay, but”
They both closed theirfurther He kept feeling Kakiaze behind his back, so he was unhappy
He discoverd hie When he ran towards hinized Kouichi and nervously ran inside He sat at his desk and opened a book on purpose
”I have so to say to you”
Grey suit ignored Kouichi as standing right behind hirabbed the man's arm
”I can't say it here, so let's go”
He coldly shrugged him off Kouichi rested both of his hands on the ainst his ears
”If you won't co”
The ry, nor did he look troubled He just looked so scared that he looked like he would burst into tears
”I don't want to see any longer I neither wish to talk to you, nor toof you,” the man said, his head lowered ”It's unnatural for us to continue this relationshi+p”
The rooh school e room Ever since they had entered the room, the man had refused to look at Kouichi in the eyes
”You've been doing this unnatural thing all this time”
”Because I didn't know anything” He said, ironic tone seeping into his voice ”If I kneould have never dated you Especially soh school student”
”I knew”
The man lifted his head
”I knew fro that you wereto me”
The man's face crumpled painfully He bit into his lips and muttered, ”I alht? You ”
He let out a small scream of despair
”If only I could, I'd like to KILLfro to end it all How a, idiotic things?”
”You love me, don't you?”
”I always thought so, but you sound so arrogant Are you treating me as a fool?”
”If you love me, bear with it a little”
”What the heck are you talking about?!” The man shouted ”Just how e difference? It's ten years When I was an adult, you were still in eleet, this ten year old difference is not going to disappear”
”It's your fault for being born first”
He was shamelessly selfish
”Oh, so it's all oing to end this now”
In the end, the , because he orried about what the society thought, he didn't even give a thought about sharing their future together He didn't try to understand Kouichi's feelings at all
”Fine Shall I break up with you?”
At the parting words, the man stared at Kouichi His eyes looked like they would overfloith tears at any h he said he wanted to break up, he would look at hi to hiht be more honest than his words The man clenched his hands into fists
”Shall I break up with you? Right here, right now, I'll say lots of words that would tear you apart and cruelly dump you That's easy And then you'll all shrivel up and think that you'd never want to fall in love again Because you're a scaredy-cat You'll never be able to love anyone, ever again You'll always be alone You'll always be lonely, and spend your life saying you're lonely And then you'll think about ret for the rest of your life that you shouldn't have dumped me”
”How could you say so like that?”
His voice was tre
”I' you to THINK about it Think carefully with that stupid head of yours”
The man covered his ears with both of his hands
”No one would ever love you like lance to an inconspicuous, normal man like you”
”How cruel your words are”
”It's the truth”
”Then” The man said, his voice small ”Then shall I be forced to be in your debt for the rest of my life? Shall I be forever worried about the fact that I've lied to you, that I'his oing to do if I fall in love with you even er!”
Towards the end he had been sobbing and screa He wouldn't listen, no matter what he said Kouichi pushed the man away He lost his balance and knocked over a stack of chairs
”I don't care about you any more”
His words echoed in his head He didn't cry, but his heart ached so much that he wanted to cry
Girls are strong By chance, Kouichi saw the girl he had recently duo? When Kouichi refused to go out with her, her eyes had filled with tears, but now she was happily laughing next to another boy
Did she confess with feelings that she could forget about in a week or two? The thought ry That's not real That's not a real love Or was he pathetic for dragging on the love that had already ended? He wasn't sure
He had never met the man at school After that incident, he saw him only few t for the man unconsciously, he felt empty He was the one who pushed him away in the end It was definitely Kouichi who concluded the good-bye that the ht up
He kept having dream about the man He wanted hinored his pride and chased after theevery ti NoIf love hts that he couldn't breath, he never wanted to offer love to anyone again He kept thinking, I wish I'd never met that man
Kakih he was such a busybody, he didn't ask anything about what happened, nor what he was going to do from now on
It was a short break ti class (T/N: In japan, teachers move from class to class, not students However, for some classes (like music), students must move to the classroootten hurt, because his left ares He was talking with a male student under the stairs
'Didn't you say you were not into younger men?'
He knew that there was no way that thewith those kind of intentions But he couldn't help but be pissed when he saw hi with an unknown man
If the sight upset hiaze away
When the bell rang, the ht hand looked unco sorry for him, he started to walk towards hi hiot to it first and lifted the books up
Laughing, the student started to climb the stairs The man slowly started to ascend as well
His heart felt like it had been stabbed The nized him yet But he felt as if he had already been excluded fro a little distance between hi care that the man would not notice him Kouichi had his head lowered, but he lifted it up when he heard noisy sounds of so sounds didn't stop until it passed Kouichi and reached the end of the stairway It was a plastic chalk container
”I'm sorry”
He heard the man's voice The container's lid was broken and the contents were rolling here and there Kouichi walked all the way down the stairs and retrieved it
When Kouichi raised his face, his gaze and the aze met The man's eyes widened, and then he suddenly lowered his head
”Please hurry back to your room Your class will start”
Kouichi walked while picking up the fallen chalks
”You don't need to do that, so hurry and go back to your class”
He ignored his, he walked to the man's side The man had stopped in the middle of the stairway and did notup and handed hi hands
”You got hurt”
At Kouichi's words, the htly stiff
”I fell down the stairs”
”Idiot”
At Kouichi's words, the man bit into his lips Neither the o' Until recently, he had been allowed to touch his thin and white neck, fingers, and red lips, as ed to hi so close to him, yet he could not touch him
”You'll be a senior soon,” theup a conversation ”Did you decide on your et harder”
”What's it to you?”
The man lifted his face, as if so Even if he showed that kind of face, he was the one who had been cruel He wanted to break up and he hated hie only made him madder
”Did you grow to hatevoice Even if he told hi about it, so he couldn't understand why the s?
”I really hate you”
He dropped his gaze at Kouichi's words
”Then Don't be nice to me any more”
”I'm not”
”You are You just picked this up for me, too”
”I would've done so for anyone Don't get cocky”
Kouichi snatched the small case he had handed over to the man and threw it down the stairs