Part 11 (1/2)
When an attractive young clinician from Falmouth College asked me if I could explain some of the causes of my own r.e.t.a.r.dation, I told her that Professor Nemur was the man to answer that.
It was the chance he had been waiting for to show his authority, and for the first time since we'd known each other he put his hand on my shoulder. ”We don't know exactly what causes the type of phenylketonuria that Charlie was suffering from as a child-some unusual biochemical or genetic situation, possibly ionizing radiation or natural radiation or even a virus attack on the fetus-whatever it was resulted in a defective gene which produces a, shall we say, 'maverick enzyme' that creates defective biochemical reactions. And, of course, newly produced amino acids compete with the normal enzymes causing brain damage.”
The girl frowned. She had not expected a lecture, but Nemur had seized the floor and he went on in the same vein. ”I call it compet.i.tive inhibition of enzymes. compet.i.tive inhibition of enzymes. Let me give you an example of how it works. Think of the enzyme produced by the defective gene as a Let me give you an example of how it works. Think of the enzyme produced by the defective gene as a wrong key which fits wrong key which fits into the chemical lock of the central nervous system- into the chemical lock of the central nervous system-but won't turn. Because it's there, the true key-the right enzyme-can't even enter the lock. It's blocked. Result? Irreversible destruction of proteins in the brain tissue.” Because it's there, the true key-the right enzyme-can't even enter the lock. It's blocked. Result? Irreversible destruction of proteins in the brain tissue.”
”But if it is irreversible,” intruded one of the other psychologists who had joined the little audience, ”how is it possible that Mr. Gordon here is no longer r.e.t.a.r.ded?”
”Ah!” crowed Nemur, ”I said the destruction to the tissue was irreversible, not the process itself. Many researchers have been able to reverse the process through injections of chemicals which combine with the defective enzymes, changing the molecular shape of the interfering key, as it were. This is central to our own technique as well. But first, we remove the damaged portions of the brain and permit the implanted brain tissue which has been chemically revitalized to produce brain proteins at a supernormal rate-”
”Just a minute, Professor Nemur,” I said, interrupting him at the height of his peroration. ”What about Rahajamati's work in that field?”
He looked at me blankly. ”Who?”
”Rahajamati. His article attacks Tanida's theory of enzyme fusion-the concept of changing the chemical structure of the enzyme blocking the step in the metabolic pathway.”
He frowned. ”Where was that article translated?”
”It hasn't been translated yet. I read it in the Hindu Journal of Psychopathology Hindu Journal of Psychopathology just a few days ago.” just a few days ago.”
He looked at his audience and tried to shrug it off. ”Well, I don't think we have anything to worry about. Our results speak for themselves.”
”But Tanida himself first propounded the theory of blocking the maverick enzyme through combination, and now he points out that-”
”Oh, come now, Charlie. Just because a man is the first to come forth with a theory doesn't make him the final word on its experimental development. I think everyone here will agree that the research done in the United States and Britain far outs.h.i.+nes the work done in India and j.a.pan. We still have the best laboratories and the best equipment in the world.”
”But that doesn't answer Rahajamati's point that-”
”This is not the time or place to go into that. I'm certain all of these points will be adequately dealt with in tomorrow's session.” He turned to talk to someone about an old college friend, cutting me off completely, and I stood there dumbfounded.
I managed to get Strauss off to one side, and I started questioning him. ”All right, now. You've been telling me I'm too sensitive to him. What did I say that upset him that way?”
”You're making him feel inferior and he can't take it.”
”I'm serious, for G.o.d's sake. Tell me the truth.”
”Charlie, you've got to stop thinking that everyone is laughing at you. Nemur couldn't discuss those articles because he hasn't read them. He can't read those languages.”
”Not read Hindi and j.a.panese? Oh, come on now.”
”Charlie, not everyone has your gift for languages.”
”But then how can he refute Rahajamati's attack on this method, and Tanida's challenge to the validity of this kind of control? He must know about those-”
”No...,” said Strauss thoughtfully. ”Those papers must be recent. There hasn't been time to get translations made.”
”You mean you haven't read them either?”
He shrugged. ”I'm an even worse linguist than he is. But I'm certain before the final reports are turned in, all the journals will be combed for additional data.”
I didn't know what to say. To hear him admit that both of them were ignorant of whole areas in their own fields was terrifying. ”What languages do you know?” I asked him.
”French, German, Spanish, Italian, and enough Swedish to get along.”
”No Russian, Chinese, Portuguese?”
He reminded me that as a practicing psychiatrist and neurosurgeon he had very little time for languages. And the only ancient languages that he could read were Latin and Greek. Nothing of the ancient Oriental tongues.
I could see he wanted to end the discussion at that point, but somehow I couldn't let go. I had to find out just how much he knew.
I found out.
Physics: nothing beyond the quantum theory of fields. Geology: nothing about geomorphology or stratigraphy or even petrology. Nothing about the micro- or macro-economic theory. Little in mathematics beyond the elementary level of calculus of variations, and nothing at all about Banach algebra or Riemannian manifolds. It was the first inkling of the revelations that were in store for me this weekend.
I couldn't stay at the party. I slipped away to walk and think this out. Frauds-both of them. They had pretended to be geniuses. But they were just ordinary men working blindly, pretending to be able to bring light into the darkness. Why is it that everyone lies? No one I know is what he appears to be. As I turned the corner I caught a glimpse of Burt coming after me.
”What's the matter?” I said as he caught up to me. ”Are you following me?”
He shrugged and laughed uncomfortably. ”Exhibit A, A, star of the show. Can't have you run down by one of these motorized Chicago cowboys or mugged and rolled on State Street?” star of the show. Can't have you run down by one of these motorized Chicago cowboys or mugged and rolled on State Street?”
”I don't like being kept in custody.”
He avoided my gaze as he walked beside me, his hands deep in his pockets. ”Take it easy, Charlie. The old man is on edge. This convention means a lot to him. His reputation is at stake.”
”I didn't know you were so close to him,” I taunted, recalling all the times Burt had complained about the professor's narrowness and pus.h.i.+ng.
”I'm not close to him.” He looked at me defiantly. ”But he's put his whole life into this. He's no Freud or Jung or Pavlov or Watson, but he's doing something important and I respect his dedication-maybe even more because he's just an ordinary man trying to do a great man's work, while the great men are all busy making bombs.”
”I'd like to hear you call him ordinary to his face.”
”It doesn't matter what he thinks of himself. Sure he's egotistic, so what? It takes that kind of ego to make a man attempt a thing like this. I've seen enough of men like him to know that mixed in with that pompousness and self-a.s.sertion is a G.o.dd.a.m.ned good measure of uncertainty and fear.”
”And phoniness and shallowness,” I added. ”I see them now as they really are, phonies. I suspected it of Nemur. He always seemed frightened of something. But Strauss surprised me.”
Burt paused and let out a long stream of breath. We turned into a luncheonette for coffee, and I didn't see his face, but the sound revealed his exasperation.
”You think I'm wrong?”
”Just that you've come a long way kind of fast,” he said. ”You've got a superb mind now, intelligence that can't really be calculated, more knowledge absorbed by now than most people pick up in a long lifetime. But you're lopsided. You know things. You see things. But you haven't developed understanding, or-I have to use the word-tolerance. You call them phonies, but when did either of them ever claim to be perfect, or superhuman? They're ordinary people. You're the genius.”
He broke off awkwardly, suddenly aware that he was preaching at me.
”Go ahead.”
”Ever meet Nemur's wife?”
”No.”