Part 9 (2/2)
The first day was pa.s.sed in mutual inquiries and mutual communications.
Lady Belfield told me that the amiable f.a.n.n.y, after having wept over the grave of her mother, was removed to the house of the benevolent clergyman, who had kindly promised her an asylum till Lady Belfield's return to town, when it was intended she should be received into her family; that worthy man and his wife having taken on themselves a full responsibility for her character and disposition; and generously promised that they would exert themselves to advance her progress in knowledge during the interval. Lady Belfield added, that every inquiry respecting f.a.n.n.y, whom we must now call Miss Stokes, had been attended with the most satisfactory result, her principles being as unquestionable as her talents.
After dinner, I observed that whenever the door opened, Lady Belfield's eye was always turned toward it, in expectation of seeing the children.
Her affectionate heart felt disappointed on finding that they did not appear, and she could not forbear whispering to me, who sat next her, ”that she was afraid the piety of our good friends was a little tinctured with severity. For her part, she saw no reason why religion should diminish one's affection for one's children, and rob them of their innocent pleasures.” I a.s.sured her gravely I thought so too; but forbore telling her how totally inapposite her application was to Mr.
and Mrs. Stanley. She seemed glad to find me of her opinion, and gave up all hope of seeing the ”little melancholy recluses,” as she called them, ”unless,” she said, laughing, ”she might be permitted to look at them through the grate of their cells.” I smiled, but did not undeceive her, and affected to join in her compa.s.sion. When we went to attend the ladies in the drawing-room, I was delighted to find lady Belfield sitting on a low stool, the whole gay group at play around her. A blush mixed itself with her good-natured smile as we interchanged a significant look. She was questioning one of the elder ones, while the youngest sat on her lap singing. Sir John entered, with that kindness and good humor so natural to him, into the sports of the others, who, though wild with health and spirits, were always gentle and docile. He had a thousand pleasant things to entertain them with. He, too, it seems, had not been without his misgivings.
”Are not these poor miserable recluses?” whispered I maliciously to her ladys.h.i.+p, ”and are not these rueful looks proof positive that religion diminishes our affection for our children? and is it not abridging their innocent pleasures, to give them their full range in a fresh airy apartment, instead of cramming them into an eating-room, of which the air is made almost fetid by the fumes of the dinner and a crowded table?
and is it not better that they should spoil the pleasure of the company, though the mischief they do is bought by the sacrifice of their own liberty?” ”I make my _amende_,” said she. ”I never will be so forward again to suspect piety of ill nature.” ”So far from it, Caroline,” said Sir John, ”that we will adopt the practice we were so forward to blame; and I shall not do it,” said he, ”more from regard to the company, than to the children, who I am sure will be gainers in point of enjoyment; liberty, I perceive, is to them positive pleasure, and paramount to any which our false epicurism can contrive for them.”
”Well, Charles,” said Sir John, as soon as he saw me alone, ”now tell us about this Lucilla, this paragon, this nonpareil of Dr. Barlow's. Tell me what is she? or rather what is she not?”
”First,” replied I, ”I will as you desire, define her by negatives--she is _not_ a professed beauty, she is _not_ a professed genius, she is _not_ a professed philosopher, she is _not_ a professed wit, she is _not_ a professed any thing; and, I thank my stars, she is _not_ an artist!” ”Bravo, Charles, now as to what she is.” ”She is,” replied I, ”from nature--a woman, gentle, feeling, animated, modest. She is by education, elegant, informed, enlightened. She is, from religion, pious, humble, candid, charitable.”
”What a refreshment will it be,” said Sir John, ”to see a girl of fine sense, more cultivated than accomplished--the creature, not of fiddlers and dancing-masters, but of nature, of books, and of good company! If there is the same mixture of spirit and delicacy in her character, that there is of softness and animation in her countenance, she is a dangerous girl, Charles.”
”She certainly does,” said I, ”possess the essential charm of beauty where it exists; and the most effectual subst.i.tute for it, where it does not; the power of prepossessing the beholder by her look and manner, in favor of her understanding and temper.”
This prepossession I afterward found confirmed, not only by her own share in the conversation, but by its effect on myself; I always feel that our intercourse unfolds, not only her powers, but my own. In conversing with such a woman, I am apt to fancy that I have more understanding, because her animating presence brings it more into exercise.
After breakfast, next day, the conversation happened to turn on the indispensable importance of unbounded confidence to the happiness of married persons. Mr. Stanley expressed his regret, that though it was one of the grand ingredients of domestic comfort, yet it was sometimes unavoidably prevented by an unhappy inequality of mind between the parties, by violence, or imprudence, or imbecility on one side, which almost compelled the other to a degree of reserve, as incompatible with the design of the union, as with the frankness of the individual.
”We have had an instance among our own friends,” replied Sir John, ”of this evil being produced, not by any of the faults to which you have adverted, but by an excess of misapplied sensibility, in two persons of near equality as to merit, and in both of whom the utmost purity of mind, and exactness of conduct rendered all concealment superfluous. Our worthy friends Mr. and Mrs. Hamilton married from motives of affection, and with a high opinion of each other's merit, which their long and intimate connection has rather contributed to exalt than to lower; and yet, now at the end of seven years, they are only beginning to be happy.
They contrived to make each other and themselves as uncomfortable by an excess of tenderness, as some married pairs are rendered by the want of it. A mistaken sensibility has intrenched, not only on their comfort, but on their sincerity. Their resolution never to give each other pain has led them to live in a constant state of petty concealment. They are neither of them remarkably healthy, and to hide from each other every little indisposition, have kept up a continual vigilance to conceal illness on the one part, and to detect it on the other, till it became a trial of skill which could make the other most unhappy; each suffering much more by suspicion when there was no occasion for it, than they could have done by the acknowledgment of slight complaints when they actually existed.
”This valuable pair, after seven years' apprentices.h.i.+p to a petty martyrdom, have at last found out that it is better to submit to the inevitable ills of life cheerfully and in concert, and to comfort each other under them cordially, than alternately to suffer and inflict the pain of perpetual disingenuousness. They have at last discovered that uninterrupted prosperity is not the lot of man. Each is happier now with knowing that the other is sometimes sick, than they used to be with suspecting they were always so. The physician is now no longer secretly sent for to one, when the other is known to be from home. The apothecary is at last allowed to walk boldly up the public staircase fearless of detection.
”These amiable persons have at length attained all that was wanting to their felicity, that of each believing the other to be well when they _say_ they are so. They have found out that unreserved communication is the lawful commerce of conjugal affection, and that all concealment is contraband.”
”Surely,” said I, when Sir John had done speaking, ”it is a false compliment to the objects of our affection, if, for the sake of sparing them a transient uneasiness, we rob them of the comfort to which they are ent.i.tled, of mitigating our sufferings by partaking it. All dissimulation is disloyal to love. Besides, it appears to me to be an introduction to wider evils, and I should fear, both for the woman I loved and for myself, that if once we allowed ourselves concealment in one point, where we thought the motive excused us, we might learn to adopt it in others, where the principle was more evidently wrong.”
”Besides,” replied Mr. Stanley, ”it argues a lamentable ignorance of human life, to set out with an expectation of health without interruption, and of happiness without alloy. When young persons marry with the fairest prospects, they should never forget that infirmity is inseparably bound up with their very nature, and that in bearing one another's burdens, they fulfill one of the highest duties of the union.”
CHAPTER XVIII.
After supper, when only the family party were present, the conversation turned on the unhappy effects of misguided pa.s.sion. Mrs. Stanley lamented that novels, with a very few admirable exceptions, had done infinite mischief, by so completely establis.h.i.+ng the omnipotence of love, that the young reader was almost systematically taught an unresisting submission to a feeling, because the feeling was commonly represented as irresistible.
”Young ladies,” said Sir John, smiling, ”in their blind submission to this imaginary omnipotence, are apt to be necessarians. When they _fall_ in love, as it is so justly called, they then obey their _fate_; but in their stout opposition to prudence and duty, they most manfully exert their _free will_; so that they want nothing but _knowledge absolute_ of the miseries attendant on an indiscreet attachment, completely to exemplify the occupation a.s.signed by Milton to a cla.s.s of beings to whom it would not be gallant to resemble young ladies.”
Mrs. Stanley continued to a.s.sert, that ill-placed affection only became invincible, because its supposed invincibility had been first erected into a principle. She then adverted to the power of religion in subduing the pa.s.sions, that of love among the rest.
I ventured to ask Lucilla, who was sitting next me (a happiness which, by some means or other, I generally contrived to enjoy), what were her sentiments on this point? With a little confusion, she said, ”to conquer an ill placed attachment, I conceive may be effected by motives inferior to religion. Reason, the humbling conviction of having made an unworthy choice, for I will not resort to so bad a motive as pride, may easily accomplish it. But to conquer a well-founded affection, a justifiable attachment, I should imagine, requires the powerful principle of Christian piety; and what can not that effect?” She stopped and blushed, as fearing she had said too much.
Lady Belfield observed, that she believed a virtuous attachment might possibly be subdued by the principle Miss Stanley had mentioned; yet she doubted if it were in the power of religion itself, to enable the heart to conquer aversion, much less to establish affection for an object for whom dislike had been entertained.
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