Part 15 (1/2)
”Nay,” replied the other, ”I have done my bit. I would like to live a bit longer, but there, it's a' for the best. I'm not afraid, Tom; do you remember that night before we came out here, when we left the canteen together?”
”Ay, I remember.”
”I settled it that night,” said the Scotchman. ”You remember me tellin' ye that I was always a thinking sort o' laddie? Weel, when I got away by mysel' that night I made up my mind, and I just accepted the way o' salvation, which my mither explained to me when I were a wee laddie. And it worked, Tom! It worked! I laughed at releegion when I was wi' you in Lancas.h.i.+re; but man, there's nothing else that stands by a man. Ay, and it works, it does. I want ye to write to my mither and tell her this. Tell her that I gave my life to the Lord on the night before I left England, that I have not touched a drap of drink since then, and that I died with the love of G.o.d in my heart. Will you tell her, Tom?”
”Ay,” said Tom, ”I will.”
”Write down her address, will ye?”
Tom's hand trembled and the tears coursed down his face as he wrote the address of the woman who lived away in the Highlands of Scotland.
”It will comfort her,” said McPhail when this was done. ”It will make her feel that her teaching and her example were not in vain.”
”Ay, but you must not die, you must not die,” sobbed Tom.
”Dinna talk like that, lad,” said the Scotchman. ”I have been thinking it all oot sin' I have been here, and it's richt. It's a'richt.
Without shedding of blood there is no remission of sin, and you can't purge away iniquity without paying the price: I am a part of the price, Tom. The Son of G.o.d died that others might live. That's not only a fact, it is a principle. Thousands of us are dying that others may live. Christ died that He might give life and liberty to the world, and in a way that is what we are doing. I can't richtly explain it, it's too deep for me; but I see glimpses of the truth. Tom, have you learnt the secret yourself?”
”I think I have,” replied Tom. ”On the night of the attack I was on sentry duty, and while I was alone I--I prayed. I could not say it in words like, they wouldn't come, but I am sure I got the grip of it, and I feel as though G.o.d spoke to me.”
”That's it, lad, that's it!” said the dying man eagerly. ”Tom, do ye think ye could pray now?”
By this time the room had become very silent. The men who had been talking freely were evidently listening to that which I have tried to describe, but the two lads were not conscious of the presence of others.
”I don't know as I can pray in words,” said Tom, ”somehow prayer seems too big to put into words. I just think of G.o.d and remember the love of Jesus Christ. But happen I can sing if you can bear it.”
”Ay, lad, sing a hymn,” said the Scotchman. Tom knelt by the dying man's bed and closed his eyes. For some time nothing would come to him; his mind seemed a blank. Then he found himself singing the hymn he had often sung as a boy.
Jesu, Lover of my soul, Let me to Thy Bosom fly; While the nearer waters roll, While the tempest still is high; Hide me, O my Saviour, hide, Till the storm of life is past, Safe into the haven guide, O receive my soul at last.
”Ay, that's it, that's it,” said the Scotchman, ”it's a hymn I dinna ken, but it goes to the heart of things. Man, can ye recite to me the twenty-third Psalm?”
”Nay,” replied Tom, ”I forget which it is.”
”That's because you were born and reared in a G.o.dless country,” replied the Scotchman. ”No Scottish lad ever forgets the twenty-third Psalm, especially those who canna thole the paraphrases. 'The Lord is my Shepherd,' surely ye ken that, Tom?”
”Ay,” replied Tom eagerly, ”I know that.”
Then the two lads recited the psalm together:
”_The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want._
”_He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: He leadeth me beside still waters._
”_He restoreth my soul: He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His Name's sake._
”_Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for Thou art with me; Thy rod and Thy staff they comfort me._”