Part 39 (1/2)
”And gather in the money? More than you are ent.i.tled to? Haven't you been changing your opinions?”
Ingleby made a little whimsical gesture, which alone sufficed to show that he had, as the girl expressed it to herself, expanded.
”I suppose I have--that is, I have modified them. One has to now and then,” he said. ”Still, you see, the men I mean don't grind money out of others. They create it. They take hold of the wilderness, bridge the rivers, drive the roads through it, and the ranches and the orchards follow. Every man who makes a new home in the waste owes a little to them.”
”Still, all that is not done easily. One must have the faith--and, as you suggest, the money with which to make the start. Even then the ladder is hard to climb.”
Ingleby involuntarily glanced down at his hands, and the girl noticed the scars on them, which, however, did not repel her. She also noticed the spareness of his frame, the curious transparency of his darkened skin, and the brightness of his eyes, all significant of an intensity of bodily effort. The man had been purged of grossness, moral and physical, by toil in icy water and scorching sun, and the light that shone out through his eyes was the brighter for the hards.h.i.+ps he had undergone. He had gained more than vigour while he swung the shovel and gripped the drill with hands that bled from the blundering hammer stroke, after other men's work was done. It is possible that he had also gained more than tenacity of will.
”Still,” he said slowly, ”I think I shall manage it.”
Grace felt that this was likely. She realized the purpose which animated him, and there suddenly came upon her a desire that he should tell it to her. She knew that he would do so when he felt the time was ripe; but she wished to hear it now, or, at least, to see how far his reticence would carry him. She leaned forward a little and looked him steadily in the eyes.
”It will be a struggle,” she said. ”Is it worth while?”
Ingleby stirred uneasily beneath her gaze, for it seemed to him that she had brushed aside every distinction there might be between them. He did not know how she had conveyed this impression, but he felt it. She was also very close to him. As she moved, the hem of her skirt had touched him, and he felt the blood tingle in his veins.
”It would be worth dying for,” he said.
Grace laughed in a curious fas.h.i.+on. ”The money, and the envy of less fortunate men?”
Ingleby stood up suddenly, though he scarcely knew why he did so, or how it came about that he yielded with scarcely a struggle now to the impulse that swept him away. It is, however, possible that Grace Coulthurst, who had only looked at him, understood the reason.
”Success would be worth nothing without another thing,” he said. ”Like what I have already, the money wouldn't be mine, you see. I am not poor now--but I should never have held on here by any strength of purpose that was in me alone. I borrowed it from another person.”
He stopped abruptly, half-afraid, wondering what had happened to him that the truth should be wrung from him in this fas.h.i.+on. Then he saw the clear rose colour creep into the girl's cheeks and the sudden softening of her eyes, and his courage came back to him. He had ventured too far to be silent now.
”Yes,” he said, ”there is somebody I owe everything to--and it's you.”
Grace do longer looked at him, but sat still now with hands clasped on her knees, and Ingleby felt the silence becoming intolerable. There was still a murmur of voices in the adjoining room, and he could hear the wind outside moaning among the pines.
”I suppose I have offended past forgiveness. I did not mean to tell you this to-night,” he said.
Grace looked up for a moment. ”Oh,” she said softly, ”I think I knew--and you see I am not blaming you.”
Ingleby quivered visibly, and his face grew hot; but while the desire to kneel beside her and seize the clasped hands was almost irresistible, he stood still, looking gravely down upon her, which was, perhaps, not wise of him.
”You knew?” he said.
”Is that so difficult to understand, after what happened at Alison's Sault?”
Ingleby bent down and took one of her hands, but he did it very gently, though the signs of the fierce restraint he laid upon himself were in his face.
”I should never have told you, Grace--I lost my head,” he said. ”Still, the one hope that has led me so far, and will, I think, lead me farther, has been that I might--one day when the time was ripe--induce you to listen, and not send me away. Now it must be sufficient that you are not angry. I can take no promise from you.”
”Is it worth so little?” Grace said softly.
Ingleby's grasp tightened on her hand until it grew almost painful. ”It would,” he said, ”be worth everything to me, but I dare not take it now.
What I am, you know--but the claim is yielding well--and I only want a little time. Until I can ask Major Coulthurst for you boldly you must be free.”