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昨天 by 風弄 Chapter 13
Yesterday by Feng Nong
I thought YuJiang would show his dominance but he only smiles indifferently and leaves the room. I feel miserable, lying in bed. I sit up halfway and throw up except that there was nothing that came out. Not even saliva. I should at least get in touch with mom and dad, to check on their situation. I can only hope that YuJiang won't put too much pressure on them. After lifting the receiver, before I dialed the number, a pleasing female voice comes through:
”Mr. Huang, who would you like to call?” I am astounded.
”I want to call home.” The female voice apologizes profusely:
”I'm sorry, Mr. Rong has instructed that for the time being, I can't put you through. If you were to discuss this later with Mr. Rong ......... ” I quickly hang up and lean weakly on the bedside. This is precisely like Rong YuJiang. I'm actually not sick but my steps are shaky when I get off the bed. I open the room door to find two men dressed in suits waiting outside the door.
”Mr. Huang would like to go out?” asks respectfully, showing extreme dedication to their work. I nod:
”I want to go home.” The leader smiles:
”Please wait a moment, I'll call Mr. Rong to confirm.” Not waiting for him to take out his cell phone, I close the door with a **kacha** sound. I would have flown into a rage before but instead I lie back down peacefully on the bed. Isn't this fitting? Only like this can it be considered YuJiang's style. Pinning me down like getting stuck in a spider web. These filaments binding without end, letting you struggle and struggle, up to the point of death still letting you think that there is a chance to fight. He must have taken care of the outside details. From the outside, I'm just a good friend that is here for a leisurely holiday while being taken care of with great care. I smile bitterly in this desolate room. Who would have thought that after suffering a big loss in YuJiang's hands, it unexpectedly increased my confidence in him to such an extent. I regard him as omnipotent, capable of overcoming all obstacles. The next few days, I did not lack for clothes nor food. I tried the phone a few times but the female voice still greeted me like before. The men a.s.signed outside my door are only two or three, changing in s.h.i.+fts, but just looking at them, I already feel defeated.
YuJiang comes by frequently, still showing continuous affection, taking care of me with great care. But I could no longer touch a single hair on his body. Everytime I swung my fist, he is already on guard, grabbing my fist and pulling me in to kiss me on my lips, saying smilingly:
”Don't be like this already. You've already hit me once in the president's room, and once more in this room, doesn't it hurt?” Everytime he touches me, my heart suffers a piercing pain. My heart is in thousands upon thousands of knots. I rack my brain but still can't figure it out. I ask:
”YuJiang, what is it that you want?” He calmly replies:
”Rong enterprise is already mine. Of course it is for us to stay together all the time.”
”I don't want to. Please let me go.” He asks:
”ShengSheng, if I were to let you go, why would I have gone through so much to bring you back?” My heart shrinks and I beg him:
”YuJiang, I am already powerless against you, please let me go.”
”How have I constrained you?” He doesn't understand: ”Do I ill-treat you? Do I hit you or scold you? If I don't love you, why would I have used my connections to help Huang enterprise overcome the crisis?” I can't stifle my sigh and recline back on the bed. He stretches out his hand to hug me and gently stroke my lips. The numbness I feel outside contrasts with the suffering I feel inside. YuJiang says: ”ShengSheng, my whole life, the person I treasure the most is you.” I stay speechless. I recall what he once said ----------- ”Rong family's favor of nuturing me, and your feelings for me, are both my most treasured things.” Look at how Uncle Rong dejectedly resigned, and how YuTing has sunk so low. ”ShengSheng, why don't you believe me? Why is it that you hate me so?”
”YuJiang, I don't dare to believe you.” I look into his eyes and say miserably: ”I really don't dare to believe you.” That's how it was over and over again. I rise and fall in the ocean of feelings, unable to touch the ground, unable to keep my head afloat.
Even though I don't have freedom, I still receive news from the outside world. One day, YuJiang's image flashes across a financial tv program. It turns out that Rong enterprise has been expanding recently, annexing several big companies in a row, leading to a sharp rise in the stock price. I quickly changed the channel. The other channel was showing an international financial news broadcast. ”The large Chinese-run French fund is once more announcing unfavorable news ......... ” I fearfully watch on pins and needles. My wan and sallow old man emerges on the screen. Huang enterprise! Huang enterprise is again experiencing a crisis. My heart aches terribly and I fall onto the sofa. People say that intellectuals are useless. What about HuangSheng? I fear that I am even more useless. I despise myself. Everyday I am fidgety and restless, feeling awful and anxious, frequently unable to eat my meals. Mom and dad are fighting hard to preserve the family fortune while I can't even manage to contact them. This kind of unfilial son, there can't be many in this world. YuJiang walks in and as usual, sits by my bedside.
”Are you not feeling well? You look very bad.” He gently caresses my face. I remain unflinching, obediently letting him do as he pleases.
”YuJiang, I want to talk to mom and dad.” He smiles:
”You can do that at any time. Isn't the phone right here?” I look at him coldly. ”I'll help you dial.” He carefully lifts the receiver and gave instructions in a low voice before handing over the receiver to me. I accept it.
”h.e.l.lo, is it ShengSheng?” Hearing mom's voice, I almost cry out. I bite my lip and say: