Chapter 75 - 75: The Female Lead I (1/2)

”Why? What have I done wrong?” Emily asked Geoffrey as tears fell from her eyes.

Geoffrey can feel his heart being wrenched. After their first visit at the orphanage, he has been contemplating. He spent more time this past week with Emily just to be sure. There was a part of him that was reluctant to end things with her, however, he knew that he must make a stance. He cannot lead her on when he already had his mind set on setting things right in hopes that in the future, his arranged marriage would work.

”Please accept my sincerest apologies Emily. You did not do anything wrong. It's just that our time spent together made me realize that we are too similar to stay as lovers happily.” He replied in an earnest manner.

”So that's it? We have only been in this relationship for more than a month and you're already giving up on me? On us? Did I ever mean anything to you?” she said in anguish.

Geoffrey bowed his head, not meeting her eyes. He had a lot to say, but he did not want to hurt her than he already has. Although he had doubts if she truly loved him or just his title, he could not bring his self to utter those words. One, because he held no proof. Two, for she will only deny it. Last, for there was no use to know the answer.

”What is it you don't like about me? I can change. We have been corresponding for more than a year. I have loved you even then. Did it mean nothing to you?

”It meant a lot to me, Emily. But…”

”But what? You regret it? Or maybe you look down on me?”

”No, I don't regret any of the time we spent together, and I don't look down on you. In fact, I think so highly of you. You are a good person and deserve so much better than what I am and will be able to give you.”

Emily wanted to say more, but she knew she will not win this battle. Not when she knew that she was so lacking in comparison to Serena. She was not senseless as not to realize this was coming. From the looks Geoffrey gave Serena at the orphanage, she knew that it was only a matter of time.

Thus, when today came, she was prepared. In fact, it took a longer time to come than she expected. She thought he will break up with her the day after, but it still took him over a week.

Her feelings of hurt were all true for she truly did love him. However, it was not as pure nor innocent as it once was. If it was, she would've pushed and slapped him already. Yet, she did not do all those. She just cried, appealing to Geoffrey's sense of pity. She knew tears worked best on him.

”Do you no longer want me in your life?”

”Emily, I'm truly sorry. There will always be a place for you in my life, just not in my heart. Please, stop crying, you're making this more difficult than it already is.” Geoffrey said as he wiped Emily's tears.

Emily nodded her head. ”I understand… I know I was at fault too. Perhaps this was what I deserve. I have pressured you to enter a relationship with me knowing that you already belong to another. It was just that I fell for you so deeply because you were the first person to have so much faith in me, to give me so much support. I am sorry too.”

Geoffrey felt that he really was the worst. ”I entered a relationship with you because I also wanted to. So, stop blaming yourself. Besides, although we can't be lovers anymore, we can still remain as friends. I will continue to give you as much support that you need. Please.”

Emily gave him a small smile, looking a little pitiful while stopping her tears, she said ”Remember, you're the one to utter those words, so don't blame me if I take you up to that.”

Geoffrey felt that he can breathe again. In a good mood he too gave her a smile and nodded his head.

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