Chapter 30 (1/2)
This chapter of Lost You Forever finally feels like a chance for a fresh start for Xiao Yao Of course I love her with the three guys who love her, kind patient Jing, volatile perplexing Xiang Liu, and constant oppa Zhuan Xu From the moment the books start she’s always been tied up with one or more of the men around despite her conscious desire to be independent and not rely on others to avoid getting hurt The last few chapters have been hard on Xiao Yao’s e worse than the childhood she survived I want to seea person to walk life’s road with If she does find such a guy, who loves her and she loves back and being together isn’t going to involve world shattering i to do in that very ordinary life she craves The easy answer is to go back to being a little doctor in a little clinic in a little town But the first time around Xiao Yao didn’t really take it seriously It was yet another way for her to for ti isLiu’s duty as a General in the Sheng Nong resistance ar up under pressure from Zhuan Xu’s powerful rule, will Xiao Yao finally look at her Zhuan Xu gege in a different light when suddenly there is no other men around and the two of theer? I do want her to grasp how i his family and little sister Zhuan Xu’s love for Xiao Yao is just as sad in that he can’t express it and she doesn’t even know it At least Xiao Yao isn’t that dense as to be unable to sense that Xiang Liu feels so for her He stubbornly refuses to openly ad re Liu is not an option Poor Xiao Yao gets tugged around until finally she decides to step back and get herself out of the center of the maelstrom for now
Chapter 30 – No Reason for a Desire to Return:
Spring went and Winter ca arrived, in the blink of an eye three years passed
Zhuan Xu was the only grandson of the Yellow Emperor and Empress Lei Zhu It was unexpected the way he ascended the throne but also understandable The Xuan Yuan elders initially opposed hirace to lessen their opposition on one hand while being strict and forceful on the other hand Gradually all the Xuan Yuan proed hiht and brought upthe capital fro fro Mountain but Zhi Yi Castle was not officially designated as the capital When Zhuan Xu broached this topic it caused waves to ripple as all the Middle Plains families supported it while the Xuan Yuan elders vehemently opposed it
But Zhuan Xu’sto write up the capital h and detailed and everyone kneas Zhuan Xu’s trusted subordinate so clearly this plan was in the works for awhile With such a detailed plan in hand, people had no room to object and even the Xuan Yuan elders had to concede that Xuan Yuan Castle was no longer suitable to be the capital for the increasingly powerful Xuan Yuan Kingdoering opposition and ordered the capital to be moved
Zhuan Xu’s followers included people who spent the last fifty years renovating the palaces so had lots of experience with construction, plus with the Middle Plains full support, after the royal decree cay into itAfter a year of building and reconstruction and renovation, a bigger, better, and more fortified castle wall and palace was built on top of the original Sheng Nong Kingdom capital
Perhaps it was due to consideration for the Xuan Yuan elders, or because of his own nostalgia, Zhuan Xu rena Palace which was the same name as the Xuan Yuan Palace The Middle Plains families didn’t care about this name but it itimate side In the end both sides were happy
Zhuan Xu picked a auspicious day for the official capital nation of Zhi Yi Castle as the capital city of Xuan Yuan
Zhuan Xu visited the Yellow Eress The Yellow Eestions or praise or criticis in cal whether Zhuan Xu was like he boasted to the world, having a grand vision, broad ay
It was clear he was pleased with Zhuan Xu’s rule, his grandson not only did not disappoint hied to surprise him
On the day when Zhi Yi Castle became the Xuan Yuan capital, the Yellow E off outside and said to Xiao Yao “Zhuan Xu did well!”
Xiao Yao smiled “You’ve been so silent on this that many officials even used you to pressure Zhuan Xu! They said you and Grandmother built Xuan Yuan Castle personally that you would never agree to the capital move”
The Yellow Emperor said “To move the capital is to shatter tradition and requires shouldering a lot of pressure But Zhuan Xu did it so well!”
Xiao Yao was proud of Zhuan Xu as well “Whatever Gege wants to do, he will never give up!”
With everything all settled, Zhuan Xu came one day to see the Yellow Emperor who found a reason to send Ah Nian aside so they could talk
The Yellow Emperor said “It’s time to announce an Empress and allow the Middle Plains to be fully at ease”
Zhuan Xu unconsciously glanced at Xiao Yao and she perked up and asked “Who does Gege want to be your Ehtly pursed and he said nothing
The Yellow Ehed inside his heart before slowly stating “Of course it can only be Sheng Nong Xing Yue”
Xiao Yao yelled “I don’t agree!”
Zhuan Xu glanced with unbridled joy at XIao Yao as she gru the Euys leave her?”
The happiness seeped out of Zhuan Xu’s eyes and he lowered his head seely in a daze
The Yellow Emperor explained to Xiao Yao “If Ah Nian beco tribe will be furious and the Chi Sui clan will also feel slighted It will leave the entire Middle Plains feeling like Zhuan Xu crossed the bridge and then tore it down, lying to them If we stayed in Xuan Yuan Mountain then ould have room to retreat but we’ve moved the capital now so there is no way back We can only keep going forward What do you want to do, Xiao Yao? Send the world into chaos again just for one Ah Nian?”
Xiao Yao had no response She hardly left the mountain these past few years but the few ti before her eyes The Middle Plains fa the Xuan Yuan elders clans as they also cautiously stepped in In this critical juncture, it was like terful beasts residing in the same mountain as they wearily circled each other If they determined neither had ill intent then they would live in harmony and even becoht tense wind blowing, it could lead to the each other apart
Xiao Yao walked up to Zhuan Xu “Gege, between Xing Yue and Ah Nian, who do you want to be your Euys want I don’t care since this is all my life will be!” He stood up and walked out without even a farewell greeting to the Yellow Ee! You, you…what do you mean you don’t care!”
The Yellow Emperor said “Let hilared at the Yellow E Yue as the Eive Ah Nian hope?”
The Yellow Emperor said “I’ll talk to Ah Nian about this so don’t worry about it Ah Nian, come in here!”
Ah Nian bit her lips and walked in with her eyes red, clearly she already overheard the news that Zhuan Xu was going to take Xing Yue as his Empress
The Yellow Eently said to Ah Nian “Cos to say to you”
“Grandfather!” Ah Nian buried her face in the Yellow E
Xiao Yao walked out to the sound of Ah Nian crying She felt so helpless knowing that the Yellow E people even in his small chambers
It was dark by the ti for her She saw Ah Nian’s eyes swollen like two peaches and sighed “Did you use up an entire lifetime’s worth of tears today?”
Ah Nian said “I wish”
Xiao Yao asked “What did you discuss with grandfather?”
Ah Nian said “I randfather and that is between us”
“What are you planning to do?”
“I’ tomorrow”
Xiao Yao was thrilled “You don’t want to reat!”
Ah Nian said “What are you talking about? I just think it’s not suitable for e takes I can ignore it as unrelated to me But the Empress is not like the other wives, now Zhi Jin Palace will have a mistress of the house and she won’t welco Princess so even if I can do anything for Zhuan Xu gege I still can’t e”
Xiao Yao furrowed her eyebrows and stared at Ah Nian wondering what the Yellow Emperor said to her
Ah Nian said to Xiao Yao “Jiejie, don’t waste your life sleepwalking through each day You’re not a kid any about your own future”
“What? You’re talking about uard
Ah Nian sincerely said “You are listless all day with nothing to do If it’s just Zhuan Xu gege, Grandfather, andYue becomes Empress she will become the oing forward she will be above you Even her father needs to bow to her when he sees her, much less you’re just a sister-in-law Once the positions change between people then e She will look at you differently and treat you differently She won’t be happy with your casual attitude You don’t even give the proper respect to the Grand Emperor or the Yellow Emperor, much to an Empress like she will becoive her the respect to curry favor with her”
Ah Nian said “No matter how you treat Dad and Grandfather, they will notYue willYue who has spent her entire life trying to reach her position in life Your casual attitude will only lead her to think you don’t give her the proper respect and she’ll start to resent you How she will deal with you is so I don’t even dare have a clue about”
Xiao Yao was shocked “Did Grandfather explain all this to you?”
Ah Nian glared “Grandfather said a bit but rew up in a palace so I know a lot even if I’ve not yet experienced it The way I treat Grandfather is exactly that, friendly with a side of buttering hihed “That’s true! So that was you being friendly and buttering hi as how you spoke up on ive you solike this then one day you will fall into Xing Yue’s hands! I suggest you co withto you!”
Xiao Yao s Her dad was on Five Gods Mountain but because her mom divorced her dad and she followed her mo An, and Ah Nian was one complete family unit while she was the outsider She feltwith the Yellow Eht, Zhuan Xu’s hoet its mistress of the house and Xiao Yao’s personality likely wouldn’t win any favors with the new mistress
She used to think that no e’s home would always be her hoe’s ho as she wanted but it was living under someone’s roof She would need to endure the owner’s whi disliked
Ah Nian saw Xiao Yao wasn’t ready to go back and added “If you don’t like living in Five Gods Mountain and can’t stay in Sheng Nong Mountain, then you only have another path left”
“What?”
“Getis the only way out for a woo to Jade Mountain and be the next Royal Mother” Ah Nian sighed “But even if you gotlives in Zhi Yi and Zhuan Xu gegeMountain He’s very sociable and is the Chi Sui clan leader and you are his wife so you need to kno to socialize But you…you’re socially aard and don’t kno to even dress Now people are alreadysituations will arise in the future If you don’t get on the good side of the Empress, who kno the days will be like for you down the road……Sigh!”
Xiao Yao said “You stop it, I’ then I’ll feel like my life is such an utter failure without any hope left”
Ah Nian burst out giggling “I was feelingyou like this makes me feel like I’m not as bad off as you”
Xiao Yao stood up “Get soo back to Five Gods Mountain with you”
“Eh? Why?”
“What do youYue to maintain our past friendshi+p If we live in the sas will get wiped away and I’ll start to get on her nerves Best leave as soon as I can!”
Ah Nian s to what I said earlier”
“You havea woht to listen to you more
Ah Nian nodded “That’s more like it”
Xiao Yao left Ah Nian’s residence and thought that she ought to say goodbye to Zhuan Xu tonight if she was leaving tomorrow But she didn’t even knohich of his wive’s residences he was in right now
Xiao Yao smiled wistfully, it really wasn’t the sae anytio back! It doesn’t ht or to anyway
Xiao Yao returned to her residence and laid down on her pallet but couldn’t sleep When she lost Jing she felt that she still had Zhuan Xu and no matter what happened she would never lose hiht she felt for the first tio they held hands and walked up Cao Yun Peak, facing adversity that did not defeat theive up on each other But now they reached the end, there were sobetween them that it naturally split them apart
It wasn’t that one wanted to leave the other or the other stop caring, it was life being sothem to this point
Xiao Yao felt her heart constricting tightly so she sat up and took deep breaths It started with being sleepless but over time she see Liu was being bothered by her right now
All these years in the deep dark of the night, when she was at herso made her feel she wasn’t alone Ither company and it coes she sent hi hio to Jiu Li with her when he had ti Liu never replied and Xiao Yao didn’t dare mention it a second time
Xiao Yao clutched her heart and slowly laid back down After laying for a long ti when Xiao Yao went to see the Yellow Emperor, Ah Nian and Zhuan Xu were both there
Ah Nian looked terrible, her eyes were still red and swollen likely having cried some more Zhuan Xu also looked weary with dark circles under his eyes as if he didn’t sleep a wink last night Xiao Yao wanted to laugh and didn’t realize that she also looked as bad
Zhuan Xu said to Xiao Yao “I spoke with Grandfather and have decided toYue my Empress”
Ah Nian quietly sat beside the Yellow E If Ah Nian didn’t object then Xiao Yao had even less reason to object so she said “Fine!”
Zhuan Xu stared at Xiao Yao with his eyes blazing but Xiao Yao just smiled
Ah Nian said to Xiao Yao “I already told Grandfather and said goodbye to Gege We’ll leave for in a bit for Five Gods Mountain”
Xiao Yao said with a smile to Zhuan Xu and the Yellow E tio with Ah Nian”
The Yellow Eo back and see your Dad”
Zhuan Xu asked “When will you be co back?”
Xiao Yao was taken aback, ill she be co back? She really didn’t think about it! Not like before when she knew she would beco back to Zhuan Xu so she didn’t take much with her when she left This ti to co
Xiao Yao smiled “Haven’t decided when to co”
When Xiao Yao went back to Gao Xing in the past she said the sa but this time Zhuan Xu felt Xiao Yao’s tone of voice was very disrandfather and Ah Nian there he couldn’t ask so he casually said “Fine” Zhuan Xu understood for the first time that the more nervous a person was, the o back to handle his official matters and just kept Ah Nian and Xiao Yao company Ah Nian was reluctant to leave and kept by Zhuan Xu’s side while Xiao Yao attended to the Yellow E his he needed to pay attention to about his health
These past years with Xiao Yao tending to him and his cooperation, the Yellow Emperor’s health had i Nong Mountain taking care of hi another few hundred years
Zhuan Xu summoned some snacks and dined with Xiao Yao and Ah Nian After they finished hen Hai Tang cae is all packed, do the princesses want to depart now?”
Xiao Yao and Ah Nian stood up and bowed to the Yellow Eo handle your affairs, no need to come back to see me”
“Yes!”
Zhuan Xu accoe As they neared Zhuan Xu saw five large cloud carriages stuffed with luggage trailing behind the passenger one
Xiao Yao never used luggage carriages when she left so Zhuan Xu chuckled “Ah Nian, you sure have a lot of luggage, did you clean out your entire residence?”
Ah Nian blinked a few times “It’s not all mine”
Zhuan Xu turned and stared at Miao Pu who reported “Three of the luggage carriages contain the Eldest Princess’s luggage”
Zhuan Xu’s expression shuttered so quickly Miao Pu was alarmed and immediately knelt down Zhuan Xu calmed himself and turned back around with a s to say to you”
Xiao Yao was already sitting in the cloud carriage with her eyes closed ready to nap so she yawned and walked out of the cloud carriage Zhuan Xu pulled her to the side while she lazily asked “What’s so important?”
Ah Nian stared curiously at the
Zhuan Xu asked Xiao Yao “When are you coht about it, I want to live with Dad for a bit and then think about co back!” Xiao Yao was perplexed, didn’t he already ask her before?
“Can you co discussions just underway, Zhuan Xu and Xing Yue’s wedding couldn’t be held in just one month’
“Can you come back in two months?”
“Probably not”
“Three months?”
“No”
“Four months?”
“No”
Zhuan Xu actually went down the list ofof no, not likely, and probably nots
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“Can you come back in thirteen months?”
Xiao Yao felt she couldn’t say “probably not” to that so slowly said “I don’t know”
Zhuan Xu said “Fine, I’ll send someone to fetch you in thirteen months”
Xiao Yao quickly added “No need, if I want to come back then I’ll come back”
Zhuan Xu appeared to not hear what she said “In thirteen months, I’ll send so for Xiao Yao’s reply, he walked towards the cloud carriage ready to send her off
Xiao Yao walked over and , I’m already used to it, why need someone to come fetch me? What if thirteen months later I’m not ready to come back, wouldn’t that be a wasted trip? Whatever!”
Zhuan Xu stopped and stared at Xiao Yao and it actually made her heart lurch so she quickly looked down
Zhuan Xu said “If you don’t coet you” And then he walked off in big fast strides
Since the dawn of time the Emperors never met each other Even if the Grand Emperor was Zhuan Xu’s dodo and chased after Zhuan Xu “What did you just say?”
Zhuan Xu shoved Xiao Yao into the cloud carriage and said to both girls “Don’t play too ht to Five Gods Mountain Say hello to Master for me Have a safe trip!”
Zhuan Xu stepped back and said to the servants “Depart!”
The driver ied horses which rose into the air
Xiao Yao and Ah Nian crowded around the ith Ah Nian waving frantically at Zhuan Xu as he waved back at theht that Ah Nian turned back and looked very gleeful “Did you get yelled at? I saw Gege was angry at you, as he upset at you?”
Xiao Yao laid down on the soft pillow “Myto sleep for a bit”
“What do you do all night long then? Don’t you sleep?”
Xiao Yao sighed, she woke ht and even if she did sleep it wasn’t soundly She really wasn’t resting enough so she just had to increase her resting hours
Ah Nian jabbered “Hey, I’ to you!”
Xiao Yao placed a handkerchief over her face indicating don’t bother me, I’m asleep!
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A month and a half later, the Xuan Yuan E Nong royal fa Yue as his E was lavish as the nation celebrated for three days This wedding officially announced the trueof the Xuan Yuan tribe led by the Yellow E tribe led by the for Yue wore all red as the custo tribe, but Zhuan Xu did not wear all yelloas the custom of the Xuan Yuan tribe He instead wore all black eold thread
No one knehy Zhuan Xu did this but the all black was ial so it quicklyand his friends assumed it was to differentiate Zhuan Xu fro him the Black Emperor After Zhuan Xu heard that he said “I orried about what my official moniker would be but this will do, from now on I’ll be the Black Enation of the Black E, Zhuan Xu announced an official decree encouraging inter families and the Xuan Yuan fareater use the sons from those families
Initially the two tribes were not very keen to get close to each other but after the capital e of tiradually the inter more and more
No matter the opposition in the past, once the bloodlines were randfathers fro at theirways to go before the two tribes would fully be integrated but Zhuan Xu had taken the first successful step forward Perhaps tens of thousands of years later, when the Yellow Eer around, the vast wilderness would have no Sheng Nong tribe or Xuan Yuan tribe and all that remained was the bloodline mixed descendants of both tribes
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With half the vast wilderness celebrating thewas affected The songs being sang in the tea houses are all celebrating the e and everyone who heard it was happy except for Xiao Yao and Ah Nian
Xiao Yao started to really understand what Ah Nian said, the Empress was not like the other women In the past it didn’tShe saw Ah Nian and Xing Yue tussling but it didn’t involve her because she would always be Zhuan Xu’s little sister no matter who he ed to someone else, even if she was his little sister she couldn’t be by his side any Yue ould be happy when he was happy and sad when he was sad Xiao Yao couldn’t lay under the ot sick he couldn’t sleep in the outside roo her company
Xiao Yao had no choice but to ad Yue stole the person she was closest with
Xiao Yao confided her sadness to Ah Nian but Ah Nian didn’t pity her and instead said “Even you have this day” After she mocked Xiao Yao hen Ah Nian felt even worse, in the past she felt Xiao Yao and Zhuan Xu’s closeness gave her a leg up over all the other wo Yue stole Zhuan Xu, wouldn’t that mean she was even further from Zhuan Xu from now on?
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