Part 4 (1/2)
”Well! she would like that 'some day' to be now, and she has a reason for wanting it at once, which, I hope, will decide you to gratify her.
The third of June is Sainte-Clotilde's day, and she has taken it into her head that she would like to give her mamma a magnificent present--a present that, of course, we shall unite to give her. For some time past I have been thinking of asking you to paint a portrait of my daughter,”
continued M. de Nailles, who had in fact had no more wish for the portrait than he had had to be a deputy, until it had been put into his head. But the women of his household, little or big, could persuade him into anything.
”I really don't think I have the time now,” said Marien.
”Bah!--you have whole two months before you. What can absorb you so entirely? I know you have your pictures ready for the Salon.”
”Yes--of course--of course--but are you sure that Madame de Nailles would approve of it?”
”She will approve whatever I sanction,” said M. de Nailles, with as much a.s.surance as if he had been master in his domestic circle; ”besides, we don't intend to ask her. It is to be a surprise. Jacqueline is looking forward to the pleasure it will give her. There is something very touching to me in the affection of that little thing for--for her mother.” M. de Nailles usually hesitated a moment before saying that word, as if he were afraid of transferring something still belonging to his dead wife to another--that dead wife he so seldom remembered in any other way. He added, ”She is so eager to give her pleasure.”
Marien shook his head with an air of uncertainty.
”Are you sure that such a portrait would be really acceptable to Madame de Nailles?”
”How can you doubt it?” said the Baron, with much astonishment. ”A portrait of her daughter!--done by a great master? However, of course, if we are putting you to any inconvenience--if you would rather not undertake it, you had better say so.”
”No--of course I will do it, if you wish it,” said Marien, quickly, who, although he was anxious to do nothing to displease Madame de Nailles, was equally desirous to stand well with her husband. ”Yet I own that all the mystery that must attend on what you propose may put me to some embarra.s.sment. How do you expect Jacqueline will be able to conceal--”
”Oh! easily enough. She walks out every day with Mademoiselle Schult.
Well, Mademoiselle Schult will bring her to your studio instead of taking her to the Champs Elysees--or to walk elsewhere.”
”But every day there will be concealments, falsehoods, deceptions. I think Madame de Nailles might prefer to be asked for her permission.”
”Ask for her permission when I have given mine? Ah, fa! my dear Marien, am I, or am I not, the father, of Jacqueline? I take upon myself the whole responsibility.”
”Then there is nothing more to be said. But do you think that Jacqueline will keep the secret till the picture is done?”
”You don't know little girls; they are all too glad to have something of which they can make a mystery.”
”When would you like us to begin?”
Marien had by this time said to himself that for him to hold out longer might seem strange to M. de Nailles. Besides, the matter, though in some respects it gave him cause for anxiety, really excited an interest in him. For some time past, though he had long known women and knew very little of mere girls, he had had his suspicions that a drama was being enacted in Jacqueline's heart, a drama of which he himself was the hero.
He amused himself by watching it, though he did nothing to promote it. He was an artist and a keen and penetrating observer; he employed psychology in the service of his art, and probably to that might have been attributed the individual character of his portraits--a quality to be found in an equal degree only in those of Ricard.
What particularly interested him at this moment was the a.s.sumed indifference of Jacqueline while her father was conducting the negotiation which was of her suggestion. When they returned to the salon after smoking she pretended not to be the least anxious to know the result of their conversation. She sat sewing near the lamp, giving all her attention to the piece of lace on which she was working. Her father made her a sign which meant ”He consents,” and then Marien saw that the needle in her fingers trembled, and a slight color rose in her face--but that was all. She did not say a word. He could not know that for a week past she had gone to church every time she took a walk, and had offered a prayer and a candle that her wish might be granted. How very anxious and excited she had been all that week! The famous composition of which she had spoken to Giselle, the subject of which had so astonished the young girl brought up by the Benedictine nuns, felt the inspiration of her emotion and excitement. Jacqueline was in a frame of mind which made reading those three masterpieces by three great poets, and pondering the meaning of their words, very dangerous. The poems did not affect her with the melancholy they inspire in those who have ”lived and loved,”
but she was attracted by their tenderness and their pa.s.sion. Certain lines she applied to herself--certain others to another person. The very word love so often repeated in the verses sent a thrill through all her frame. She aspired to taste those ”intoxicating moments,” those ”swift delights,” those ”sublime ecstasies,” those ”divine transports”--all the beautiful things, in short, of which the poems spoke, and which were as yet unknown to her. How could she know them? How could she, after an experience of sorrow, which seemed to her to be itself enviable, retain such sweet remembrances as the poets described?
”Let us love--love each other! Let us hasten to enjoy the pa.s.sing hour!”
so sang the poet of Le Lac. That pa.s.sing hour of bliss she thought she had already enjoyed. She was sure that for a long time past she had loved. When had that love begun? She hardly knew. But it would last as long as she might live. One loves but once.
These personal emotions, mingling with the literary enchantments of the poets, caused Jacqueline's pen to fly over her paper without effort, and she produced a composition so far superior to anything she usually wrote that it left the lucubrations of her companions far behind. M. Regis, the professor, said so to the cla.s.s. He was enthusiastic about it, and greatly surprised. Belle, who had been always first in this kind of composition, was far behind Jacqueline, and was so greatly annoyed at her defeat that she would not speak to her for a week. On the other hand Colette and Dolly, who never had aspired to literary triumphs, were moved to tears when the ”Study on the comparative merits of Three Poems, 'Le Lac,' 'Souvenir,' and 'La Tristesse d'Olympio,'” signed ”Mademoiselle de Nailles,” received the honor of being read aloud. This reading was followed by a murmur of applause, mingled with some hisses which may have proceeded from the viper of jealousy. But the paper made a sensation like that of some new scandal. Mothers and governesses whispered together. Many thought that that little de Nailles had expressed sentiments not proper at her age. Some came to the conclusion that M. Regis chose subjects for composition not suited to young girls.
A committee waited on the unlucky professor to beg him to be more prudent for the future. He even lost, in consequence of Jacqueline's success, one of his pupils (the most stupid one, be it said, in the cla.s.s), whose mother took her away, saying, with indignation, ”One might as well risk the things they are teaching at the Sorbonne!”
This literary incident greatly alarmed Madame de Nailles! Of all things she dreaded that her daughter should early become dreamy and romantic.
But on this point Jacqueline's behavior was calculated to rea.s.sure her.
She laughed about her composition, she frolicked like a six-year-old child; without any apparent cause, she grew gayer and gayer as the time approached for the execution of her plot.