Part 29 (2/2)

”Remember, it will not be your expiation alone, but mine also. I am a woman; the outside world is closed to me, else I would have gone myself. My hardest punishment is that I must put on you the burden of my sin.”

”Don't say that, sister. The path I was treading was not your path. It attracted me because of its dangers and difficulties.

Now that your path calls me, let it be a thousand times more difficult and dangerous, the dust of your feet will help me to win through. Is it then your command that this money be replaced?”

”Not my command, brother mine, but a command from above.”

”Of that I know nothing. It is enough for me that this command from above comes from your lips. And, sister, I thought I had an invitation here. I must not lose that. You must give me your __prasad__ [26] before I go. Then, if I can possibly manage it, I will finish my duty in the evening.”

Tears came to my eyes when I tried to smile as I said: ”So be it.”

26. Food consecrated by the touch of a revered person.

Chapter Eleven

Bimala's Story

XX

WITH Amulya's departure my heart sank within me. On what perilous adventure had I sent this only son of his mother? O G.o.d, why need my expiation have such pomp and circ.u.mstance?

Could I not be allowed to suffer alone without inviting all this mult.i.tude to share my punishment? Oh, let not this innocent child fall victim to Your wrath.

I called him back--”Amulya!”

My voice sounded so feebly, it failed to reach him.

I went up to the door and called again: ”Amulya!”

He had gone.

”Who is there?”

”Rani Mother!”

”Go and tell Amulya Babu that I want him.”

What exactly happened I could not make out--the man, perhaps, was not familiar with Amulya's name--but he returned almost at once followed by Sandip.

”The very moment you sent me away,” he said as he came in, ”I had a presentiment that you would call me back. The attraction of the same moon causes both ebb and flow. I was so sure of being sent for, that I was actually waiting out in the pa.s.sage. As soon as I caught sight of your man, coming from your room, I said: 'Yes, yes, I am coming, I am coming at once!'--before he could utter a word. That up-country lout was surprised, I can tell you! He stared at me, open-mouthed, as if he thought I knew magic.

”All the fights in the world, Queen Bee,” Sandip rambled on, ”are really fights between hypnotic forces. Spell cast against spell --noiseless weapons which reach even invisible targets. At last I have met in you my match. Your quiver is full, I know, you artful warrior Queen! You are the only one in the world who has been able to turn Sandip out and call Sandip back, at your sweet will. Well, your quarry is at your feet. What will you do with him now? Will you give him the coup de grace, or keep him in your cage? Let me warn you beforehand, Queen, you will find the beast as difficult to kill outright as to keep in bondage.

Anyway, why lose time in trying your magic weapons?”

Sandip must have felt the shadow of approaching defeat, and this made him try to gain time by chattering away without waiting for a reply. I believe he knew that I had sent the messenger for Amulya, whose name the man must have mentioned. In spite of that he had deliberately played this trick. He was now trying to avoid giving me any opening to tell him that it was Amulya I wanted, not him. But his stratagem was futile, for I could see his weakness through it. I must not yield up a pin's point of the ground I had gained.

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