Chapter 204 - Two Hundred And Four: Insecurity (1/2)

Maya's point of view

I was sad after Niklaus' left. Heck, I didn't want him to leave me, I wanted him glued to my side, twenty-four hours, seven days a week, was I asking too much? Holy shit, why was I becoming too clingy? Yes, this must be it, pregnancy hormones! I heard pregnant women get too emotional for no reason at all?

Gosh, was I going to be that way too? Oh my God, this was horrible. What if I got too demanding and Niklaus leaves me to my fate? Oh my God, there were a lot of things I didn't know about pregnancy!

I heard that pregnant women craved odd and unnecessary food. What if mine is so weird that I yearn for freshly baked bread from across the world? Would Niklaus do that for me?

The worst of all, what if I sniff my way to a neighbor's place and beg for their food which seems more pleasing than my freshly cooked ones. This is so crazy.

Moreover, I was going to get fat. What if I get so fat that Niklaus leaves me for Tina or a better-looking woman? He was once a player, so it was possible. The horrors Maya, what in the name of God is wrong with you?

”I swear to God Maya, I'll puncture your eyes if you don't stop fidgeting,” Fiona, one of the company's makeup artists warned.

Right now, she was applying mascara on my eyes and I was so lost in thought that I didn't realize I was unconsciously disrupting her work.

”I'm sorry,” I apologized

”She was normal during shooting, don't know what's suddenly up with her” Said Lisa who was sitting beside me and was being attended to by another makeup artist.

Thankfully, I had aced through my first shooting today and the emotional mayhem had begun right after that. Perhaps, it was because there was nothing to occupy my idle mind.

”I've told you, Maya, if it's because of the interview? Don't worry about a thing, I'll guide you through it,” Lisa smiled warmly at me.

Unlike my expectation, I found out that Lisa was actually a good person except the fact she was painfully direct and a pompous ass.  With her type of fame, it was no wonder she turned out that way.

”Thank you,” I flashed back a smile.

If they knew what was going on with my life, their mouth would hang open from shock. Yeah, it was not that encouraging. I barely just landed a role that's supposed to bring me to the limelight and here I am pregnant with a child.

The movie was supposed to be shot for three months, which meant that my bump would become obvious and people would begin to speculate and gossip if I wasn't married by then.

Marriage? Yes, I would love to be married to Niklaus but I just never expected this outcome. I was planning on making a name for myself before settling down but fate has made its own plans for me which I can't change.

”How do you manage your career and your family?” I blurted out.

Fiona was stunned by my question, it came out of nowhere - I didn't even know when it slipped out of my mouth.

Fiona was a mother of two and pregnant with another, so I couldn't help but want to ask an experienced mother since I would be one, soon.

”That's surprising, why do you ask?” Fiona questioned with narrowed eyes.

My pulse quickened, was she suspecting I was pregnant? Wrong choice, I should have asked Cecil. Who was I kidding? Cecil hardly had time to look after her son.

”Umm,” I cleared my throat awkwardly while readjusting in my seat,” I have been observing you for a while now and am pretty amazed how you handle your job and family at the same time, not everyone can achieve that,” Inwardly, I prayed my excuse was convincing.

”Thank you for the compliment,” Fiona appreciated me,” But all I can say is that it wouldn't be easy but the success depends on both of you”

”Both of us?” I blinked in confusion.

”My husband and I, but in your case, your future husband and you,”

”Oh,” I nodded my head like an attentive student in a class.

”Understanding matters a lot in marriage, Maya. My husband knows the kind of job I do and what comes with it, so he does his best to support me while I make out time and try not to take advantage of him helping out.

Both of you should work like the wheels on a bicycle; the cyclist needs two not one wheel to keep it moving. So the success of my marriage and work also, is not my effort only, your man needs some credit too,” she finished with a wink.

I swallowed, that kind of odd look? Does she know I'm ..? How did she..? You know what, I'm done asking before I run crazy.

”You should wear this,” Fiona brought a nude-colored stiletto for me to wear.

”I hate heels,” I told her,” They make me sick,”