33 I Loved And I Lost You (2/2)

”She's gone Bloom she's gone” mother cried.

No, no no i felt like floor beneath my legs is moved. Mother was holding me, i cried embracing her. I pulled back from embrace.

I stood up and walked towards bier, Zeri was in creamy white dress. Her vicinity was covered in flowers, she looked like a goddess who's sleeping peacefully and could wake up any moment if disturbed. But it's not true she will never wake up and i could never see her brown eyes smiling towards me and calling me Bloomy. That's hurts so much. It was not easy to let her go for me but I did it for her happiness and i could have done anything to make her happy. I love you Zeri, I love you so much. I touched her face but there's no warmth and feel in it anymore.I gently kissed her forehead. And that's a wretching pain not feeling anything.

”mother where is Remus and how is he ??” I asked sniffing and turned around to see her.

”he's fine and resting in the guest chamber” she replied.

I wanted to see my brother i swiftly walked to the guest chamber. I opened the door and found him sleeping on bed. There were bruises and cuts on his wrists and hands. I breathed in relief when I saw him fine. I walked towards him and sat next to him on bed. His face had some bruises, like he was punched couple of times on his face.

”wake up soon brother” i uttered.

Remus's POV

I'm standing in front of Zeri or should i say her  grave. I woke up a day later after her burial. I don't even get to see her last time or bid her goodbye. God must be literally playing a very sick joke upon my life.

I still can't believe she's gone, left me to live my alone worthless life without her. It all happened in front of my eyes, everything they tortured her and killed her. I was supposed to save her but i didn't do anything, i just saw her enduring rigorous pain and begging for death and eventually they killed her in front of my eyes and she left her last breath in my arms. She didn't wanted to die, she wanted to be with me but I couldn't do anything to save her.

”I'm so sorry my love i couldn't save you” I said tears streaming down my face. It's like a huge part of me missing I'm feeling void without her.

If i had never hurt her with my behaviour she wouldn't have left the castle and rushed into woods and would've never been abducted, tormented and killed. It's all because of me. I'm responsible for her pain and death. I will never forgive myself for that, never ever. I lost my love and my life.

_______The End_______