Part 23 (1/2)
That night, in her bed, Callie spent a long time reflecting on what Regan had said. It was almost more than she could bear: to know that Regan was not only a good, moral, thoughtful, beautiful woman, but that she was a true top was enough to make her swoon. She'd been thinking about the issue with an almost detached perspective, but when she couldn't stop thinking, she decided she had to release some tension to get to sleep. She slipped her hand between her bare legs and was amused to discover her body had been thinking about s.e.x, even when her mind hadn't. Her fingers slipped around her c.l.i.t, so thoroughly lubricated she had to stroke herself firmly to get any friction. But she didn't mind. Thinking about Regan lying on top of her, bearing down with her weight, making Callie squirm under her was all she needed to propel herself to climax after climax until her wrist hurt and the tips of her fingers pruned. Please make it soon, she pleaded, as she drifted off. I know you want it as much as I do.
On the fourth of July, Callie was trying to lift a heavy cooler full of water and soft drinks. She only had to take it a few hundred feet, but the sand was hot and she hadn't kept her flip-flops on, even though Regan had warned her to. She made it across the sand by jumping into the air every second or third step, and she could hear Regan laughing all the way across the beach.
”Told you so.”
”Experience is the best teacher.” She flopped down on the blanket making sure no part of her was in the sun. ”It's crowded!”
”It's the fourth of July. You expected just a few Mannings out here?”
”Well, no...but how do I know? I've never been on the beach for fireworks. There must be four times as many people as on a regular weekend.”
”Everybody comes for fireworks. You're gonna love 'em. I just hope my nephews don't cry the whole time like they did last year. Kinda ruined it.”
”They're a year older now.”
”Yeah, but they still cry a lot. Max especially. He's a drama queen.”
”Don't let Delaney hear you say that!”
”Ahh, you've noticed that no one in the family can critique anything the boys do?”
”I'm not going to answer that. I want everyone to like me.”
”Ha! I'd like to see the fool that doesn't like you.” Regan smiled so genuinely that Callie felt herself fall in love with her for the thousandth time.
Hours later, when it was dark and everyone was tired from their long day in the surf and sun, the first big ”pop” went off. Minutes later, Delaney and Ray gathered up their two bundles of tears and picked their way through the crowd, headed home.
”Maybe next year,” Regan said.
”Shouldn't we help them? They've got a lot of stuff.”
”Nah. If she wants help she'll order us around. Other than that, you'll just be standing there, looking stupid.”
”I wish they hadn't taken all of those blankets. I'm cold!”
”Cold? It's probably seventy degrees.”
”Oh, okay, I'll tell my goose b.u.mps they're mistaken.”
”Come here.” Regan was sitting in a sand chair and she wiggled a finger to indicate Callie should sit in front of her. ”Lean up against my legs and then you can pull my blanket up over yourself.”
Thinking this was a fine idea, Callie ditched her own chair and settled herself right in front of Regan. She pulled the blanket up over her feet and legs, and was able to rest against Regan's s.h.i.+ns, letting her lean her head back to see the explosions. ”The boys might have liked it better if we hadn't been so close,” Callie said. ”We're about one inch away from the barrier.”
”When they're here before me they can choose the spot.” Regan tugged on a lock of Callie's hair, then grasped another handful. ”Boy, your hair is really thick.”
”Really?” she said, disingenuously. ”I'm not sure you're right. Maybe you should experiment more to make sure.”
”Oh, you like your head rubbed, huh?” Regan started running her fingers across Callie's scalp, making her purr with delight.
”I love that. But I also like just having bits of it pulled. Gently, of course.”
”Of course.”
Callie let her head rest against Regan's knees, watching the fireworks explode over their heads while Regan gently tugged on bits of her hair. ”How's that?” she asked, leaning over to speak directly into Callie's ear.
”G.o.d,” she moaned. ”I mean... good. Really good.” She dearly hoped Regan couldn't see her looking like she was about to drool.
One beautiful August afternoon they lay on the gra.s.s of the Boston Common, stretching out their legs after a fifteen-mile run. It was a perfect day and Callie knew they would probably stay outside until they were so hungry they had to give in and go back to her apartment for dinner.
Regan got up and jogged over to a vendor who was selling ice cream. She ran back with two chocolate covered confections and smiled when Callie dug into hers as though she hadn't eaten in a week. When Regan finished gulping her own ice cream down she pointed the stick at Callie and said, ”Do you know who we never talk about anymore? Marina,” she said decisively before Callie could answer.
”Sounds like progress to me. I like not talking or thinking about her.”
”I guess you don't want to talk about her now, but some things about your relations.h.i.+p have always puzzled me.”
Callie lay down on the gra.s.s and stared at the deep blue sky. ”Ask away. I'm feeling so good that I can tolerate thinking about Marina.”
”Stop me if this is too personal, but I've always wondered why you agreed to having an open relations.h.i.+p.”
”I think we talked about this one of the first times we spoke. Didn't we?” She lifted her head just enough to be able to see Regan's face.
”Yeah, I think it was one of the first times, but I didn't know you very well then and you didn't elaborate. I'm interested in how the whole thing played out, if you feel like talking about it.”
”I don't have any secrets from you. If you're interested, I'll tell you anything.”
”I've always gotten the impression that it was Marina's idea.”
”Oh, yeah. It was all her idea. At first I dismissed it without even considering it. But she was really persistent. She was in Dallas and I was in Phoenix and she came to see me a lot.” She emphasized the last word dramatically.
”That doesn't surprise me,” Regan said smiling at her. ”That smile of yours could make women weep.”
”I think you're exaggerating.” Callie couldn't help but show her best smile. It was fun to taunt her a little bit. Regan was so transparent about some things that it made toying with her irresistible. Her blue eyes opened wide, and she stared at the smile a moment longer than a friend would have. Desire infused her expression, but Callie didn't push. She knew the key to their future relations.h.i.+p was to wait for Regan to be ready. ”She was very persistent. And she kept reminding me why Rob and I had broken up. Over time, she convinced me that having a little abreathing room' as she liked to call it made fidelity much less of an issue.” She rolled over onto her belly and rested her weight on her arms. ”I know you probably don't see it this way, but our agreement isn't what caused us to break up. The fact that she was dishonest was the problem.”
”If you say so.”
”I do. Open relations.h.i.+ps are really pretty common, especially for gay men. I think, if both people feel the same about it, it can work.”
”Not for me it wouldn't. Never.”
”I'm not the spokesperson for open relations.h.i.+ps. It takes a certain kind of person and you're not that person.” Callie smiled warmly at her. ”I think you're the kind of person who would give her all to one woman. I'm just sorry the woman you chose wasn't able to accept everything you had to give her.”
Looking hauntingly sad, Regan nodded her head. ”Yeah. Me, too. Sometimes you can't help but fall for the wrong person. I guess the key is to learn from it so you don't have to repeat your mistake.”
”You won't. I'm sure of that.”
”So am I,” Regan agreed firmly. ”Never again. I'd rather have a girlfriend with no s.e.x drive at all than have one who cheats on me.”
”That's being a little extreme. s.e.x is too important to throw it away, girl.”