Part 17 (1/2)

' ”Nowhere either with more quiet or more freedom from trouble does a man retire than into his own soul...”' I quoted.

She looked up at me, startled. 'That's the beginning of the compet.i.tion.'

'Yes. Are you allowed help?'

'Yes. Anything. But...'

'It's Marcus Aurelius.'

'Who?' She was staggered.

'Marcus Aurelius Antoninus. Roman Emperor, 121 to 180 A.D. A.D....'

'The Meditations?' I nodded.

'What language was it originally written in? We have to put that too. Latin, I suppose.'

'Greek.'

'This is fantastic... just where did you go to school?'

'I went to a village school in Oxfords.h.i.+re.' So I had, for two years, until I was eight. 'And we had a master who perpetually crammed Marcus Aurelius down our throats.' But that master had been at Geelong.

I had been tempted to tell her the truth about myself all afternoon, but never more than at that moment. I found it impossible to be anything but my own self in her company, and even at Slaw I had spoken to her more or less in my natural accent. I hated having to pretend to her at all. But I didn't tell her where I had come from and why, because October hadn't, and I thought he ought to know his daughter better than I did. There were her cosy chats with Patty... whose tongue could not be relied on; and perhaps he thought it was a risk to his investigations. I didn't know. And I didn't tell her.

'Are you really sure it's Marcus Aurelius?' she said doubtfully. 'We only get one shot. If it's wrong, you don't get another.'

'I should check it then. It comes in a section about learning to be content with your lot. I suppose I remember it because it is good advice and I've seldom been able to follow it.' I grinned.

'You know,' she said tentatively, 'It's none of my business, but I would have thought you could have got on a bit in the world. You seem... you seem decidedly intelligent. Why do you work in a stable?'

'I work in a stable,' I told her with perfect, ironic truth, 'because it's the only thing I know how to do.'

'Will you do it for the rest of your life?'

'I expect so.'

'And will it content you?'

'It will have to.'

'I didn't expect this afternoon to turn out like this at all,' she said. 'To be frank, I was dreading it. And you have made it easy.'

'That's all right, then,' I said cheerfully.

She smiled. I went to the door and opened it, and she said, 'I'd better see you out. This building must have been the work of a maze-crazy architect. Visitors have been found wandering about the upper reaches dying of thirst days after they were supposed to have left.'

I laughed. She walked beside me back along the twisting corridors, down the stairs, and right back to the outside door, talking easily about her life in college, talking to me freely, as an equal. She told me that Durham was the oldest English University after Oxford and Cambridge, and that it was the only place in Britain which offered a course in Geophysics. She was indeed, a very nice girl.

She shook hands with me on the step.

'Goodbye,' she said. 'I'm sorry Patty was so beastly.'

'I'm not. If she hadn't been, I wouldn't have been here this afternoon.'

She laughed. 'But what a price to pay.'

'Worth it.'

Her grey eyes had darker grey flecks in them, I noticed. She watched me go over and sit on the motor-cycle and fasten on the helmet. Then she waved her hand briefly, and went back through the door. It closed with finality behind her.

Chapter 14.

I stopped in Posset on the return journey to see if there were any comment from October on the theory I had sent him the previous week, but there was no letter for me at all.

Although I was already late for evening stables, I stopped longer to write to him. I couldn't get Tommy Stapleton out of my head: he had died without pa.s.sing on what he knew. I didn't want to make the same mistake. Or to die either, if it came to that. I scribbled fast.

'I think the trigger is a silent whistle, the sort used for dogs. Humber keeps one in the drinks compartment of his car. Remember Old Etonian? They hold hound-trails at Cartmel, on the morning of the races.'

Having posted that, I bought a large slab of chocolate for food, and also Jerry's comic, and slid as quietly as I could back into the yard. Ca.s.s caught me, however, and said sourly that I'd be lucky to get Sat.u.r.day off next week as he would be reporting me to Humber. I sighed resignedly, started the load of evening ch.o.r.es, and felt the cold, dingy, sub-violent atmosphere of the place seep back into my bones.

But there was a difference now. The whistle lay like a bomb in my money belt. A death sentence, if they found me with it. Or so I believed. There remained the matter of making sure that I had not leaped to the wrong conclusion.

Tommy Stapleton had probably suspected what was going on and had walked straight into Humber's yard to tax him with it. He couldn't have known that the men he was dealing with were prepared to kill. But, because he had died, I did know. I had lived under their noses for seven weeks, and I had been careful: and because I intended to remain undetected to the end I spent a long time on Sunday wondering how I could conduct my experiment and get away with it.

On Sunday evening, at about five o'clock, Adams drove into the yard in his s.h.i.+ning grey Jaguar. As usual at the sight of him, my heart sank. He walked round the yard with Humber when he made his normal tour of inspection and stopped for a long time looking over the door at Mickey. Neither he nor Humber came in. Humber had been into Mickey's box several times since the day he helped me take in the first lot of drugged water, but Adams had not been in at all.

Adams said, 'What do you think, Hedley?'

Humber shrugged, 'There's no change.'

'Write him off?'

'I suppose so.' Humber sounded depressed.

'It's a b.l.o.o.d.y nuisance,' said Adams violently. He looked at me. 'Still bolstering yourself up with tranquillizers?'

'Yes, sir.'

He laughed rudely. He thought it very funny. Then his face changed to a scowl, and he said savagely to Humber, 'It's useless, I can see that. Give him the chop, then.'

Humber turned away, and said, 'Right, I'll get it done tomorrow.'

Their footsteps moved off to the next box. I looked at Mickey. I had done my best for him, but he was too far gone, and had been from the beginning. After a fortnight, what with his mental chaos, his continual state of drugged-ness, and his persistent refusal to eat, Mickey's condition was pitiable, and any one less stony than Humber would have had him put down long ago.

I made him comfortable for his last night and evaded yet another slash from his teeth. I couldn't say I was sorry not to have to deal with him any more, as a fortnight of looking after an unhinged horse would be enough for anyone; but the fact that he was to be put down the next day meant that I would have to perform my experiment without delay.