Part 11 (1/2)

”The protein in Airifan affects alpha-one ant.i.trypsin production in the liver. But we do not use it that way in the drug. Our goal was asthma and emphysema, two of the major diseases of our time. We could not step through a door into that room.”

”What are you saying?”

”I'm saying, we have it.”

Shane pulled over and stared at him. ”You have what?”

”A protein that solves for alpha-one ant.i.trypsin deficiency. We have it,” Prajuk a.s.sured him. ”We just left it behind a door.”

4.

In August, Caleb fell off of Engineer Mountain.

He was thirteen thousand feet up in the air, just underneath the belly of the clouds, seventy-one miles into the Hardrock 100.

The race had begun in the antediluvian mining town of Silverton, Colorado. It looped counterclockwise through Lake City, Ouray, Telluride, and back to Silverton, over thirteen peaks of the San Juans. Last year, his descents from the snowcapped summits had given him trouble. The trick was to slide down the snow on one hip, but the powder hid sharp rocks, and Caleb never managed the necessary abandon. He had finished twenty-seventh. All last winter, he had practiced proper glissades.

So at dawn Caleb stood in front of the Silverton high school along with 140 other runners, from their twenties to their sixties, staring ahead at the mountain range. A few hopped up and down to warm up in the mist; most conserved their energy. Just ahead of him he recognized Julien Chorier, Betsy Nye, a few other top-ten finishers from last year. He also spotted other runners whom he had witnessed sobbing and vomiting along the trails.

In his hand Caleb gripped lightweight trekking poles for the snow and ice. Across his shoulders he wore a small orange backpack filled with energy gel, sunblock, shades, and water. Everything else he would need lay in drop bags strategically placed inside the aid stations.

Mack had called them together in the dark, held their hands, and gave them some Whitman: ”'Not I, nor anyone else, can travel this road for you. You must travel it by yourself. It is not far. It is within reach.'” He nodded, then burst into a wild grin. ”'Each of us inevitable! Each of us limitless!'”

They had held each other, heads bent. A runner named Joel Zucker had died of a brain aneurysm on this course in 1999; Rae reminded them all to stay alert. When the gun sounded, Caleb sprinted through the narrow streets of Silverton, past Runner's World magazine photographers, cheering fans, and curious townsfolk. Behind him Kyle Meltzer, who had won more than a few ultras, shook his head at whoever was so foolish as to run off the start. But Caleb never walked the start of a race, he knew no other way than to gallop into the distance, as he had in Issaquah as a boy, until he had no choice but to slow.

A few miles into the mountains, Caleb plunged into Little Giant Basin. It was like running down the inside of a deep bowl of jade. Caleb found his rhythm, breathed deeply, and trotted across the lush green field and up the other side of the basin.

He was the first to the Arrastra stream. The smell of salmon filled the frigid water. It felt good to be shocked alive. When he emerged and began jogging up the trail in his wet shoes, and his calves awoke, Caleb felt as happy as he guessed was possible in the world.

He drank his water and ran past a cairn toward steep beige cliffs. He ascended up to the scree fields, rock crumbling beneath him; he might slip and shatter his legs with any step. Below, he saw the magnificence of Cunningham Gulch, its ribbons of white snow winding through dark brown granite.

The first aid station appeared on his left. A good crowd wearing Gore-Tex sh.e.l.ls of various neons stood by the blue nylon tent, clapping for him. A few held video cameras, and there seemed to be lots of parents and children. It looked like a stranger's family reunion, and Caleb had the mind to run past it. But then Alice appeared, beckoning him inside.

”Nice race. But slow down,” she told him, handing him a banana milkshake.

Caleb nodded, sat on a bench, and stared down at his wet Montrails. Alice rubbed sunscreen onto his reddening shoulders and refilled his water bottle.

”I'm pacing you this leg,” she informed him.

He nodded.

”Meltzer,” Alice gestured.

Caleb watched him approach. He was walking quickly, apparently taking in the glory of the day. He must have run and jogged to be here this quickly, but he did not seem to have broken a sweat yet. Caleb found a baseball hat in his pack, grabbed his poles, and ran out with Alice onto the trail toward Green Mountain. Leaving, he heard someone say something about sleet.

The course grew steeper, punis.h.i.+ng his quads and calves. b.u.t.terflies brushed against his shoulders. Alice held him back as they ascended toward the white snowpack; anytime he began to move faster she touched his shoulder. Some miles later they were confronted by a herd of goats ambling across the path. Just to their left was a sheer four-hundred-foot drop, and on their right a granite wall. There was nowhere to go, Alice said, flattening her back nervously against the rock. Caleb plunged straight through the herd, causing a braying that echoed down into the valley.

As the trail rose, he concentrated on his heart rate. Monitoring his body took all of his attention, leaving none for such tangents as the contemplation of pain. Even as he starved, he felt his soul being fed. He took his first steps on snow.

And then the course shot steeply downward. At Maggie Gulch he ran through a summer field covered in orange wildflowers, while a microclimate of a snowstorm drifted just ten feet away. Alice handed him an electrolyte gel. His stomach clenched unhappily; he had the experience of these gels causing him trouble.

They reached the end of the first leg, two hours under the cutoff. Caleb checked in with race officials at the Sherman station. He had lost three pounds; seven was an automatic disqualification. Alice kissed his cheek, and Leigh, willowy and red-faced, walked over with climbing equipment and called to him as to a puppy, ”Come on, Caley!”

Some miles later they moved into a grove of aspens, where black flies flew from the conifer and bit his neck. He watched Handies Peak materialize ahead of him.

Leigh whispered, ”I dropped here last year.”

He recalled it. A severe thunderstorm had swept in, crus.h.i.+ng the trail to mud, pelting the climbers with hail. Luckily, he had been on his way to Telluride by then.

They stopped to pull crampons from their packs and over their shoes. He shook loose his trekking poles, and their points plunged through wet tufts of frozen gra.s.s and snowpack, scattering loose stones beneath him. He called a warning to Leigh behind him and pushed himself skyward. It was not his job to worry about her.

The ascent up to fourteen thousand feet took longer than he had antic.i.p.ated. Below them the approaching runners seemed to be coming at him in one large pack. He began to visualize his old flowcharts from his days at InterFinancial, going over them as his legs pushed against the granite, lost in math and equations.

At the summit the air around him was as pure as newborn breath. Fluttering orange flags pointed them toward a narrow natural bridge, made of rock, covered in snow, which connected them to the south face of the next pa.s.s. The drop below them was astonis.h.i.+ng. They crossed carefully, hovering eleven thousand feet in the air with no guardrail, suspended above the world.

On the other side, the trail dropped abruptly into boulder fields. Without thinking about it he executed a perfect glissade down the snow, ice lacerating his cheeks. Halfway down, he turned his head, saw Leigh just behind him, and Kyle Meltzer at the top.

At the next aid station, Kevin Yu was waiting for him with bigger shoes. This was good; his feet had swelled half a size. Where was June, he thought? She wasn't quite ready to run Hardrock, so he imagined Mack had told her to pace. He felt the need of her as the sky began to dim.

Caleb slammed a nauseating glucose polymer mix. He considered his situation. His fifth mountain peak confronted him. He had been running nonstop for sixteen hours. He should be fine.

He followed Kevin up the incline ahead. Maybe June was meeting him in Telluride, and they would have time together until the dawn. He was visualizing this when he jammed a foot under a large purple rock. Nerve pain shot into his right knee like fire and he fell hard to the snowy ground.

Kevin caught up, panting. He kneeled and looked at Caleb's leg. His kneecap had s.h.i.+fted out of position; it bulged ugly and rocklike against his stretched skin. Kevin touched it and Caleb shut his eyes tight, the pain blinding. His poles slipped from his hands and rolled down twenty yards. Meltzer jogged ahead into the dusk. Caleb stared after him, sweat soaking through his s.h.i.+rt. He started s.h.i.+vering.

”They have medics at Grouse. Should we go back?”

Runners began pa.s.sing, some nodded in empathy but most were too focused to notice. If Caleb were helped to move in any way, it would be a disqualification. Kevin looked to him, asking with his eyes if he should do it. Caleb nodded grimly.

And Kevin raised the flat of his hand and slammed it against Caleb's kneecap. Once. Twice. Caleb screamed. Red agony tore him asunder as if he had stepped on a third rail.

”Sorry,” Kevin muttered, frowning.

He hit it again, harder this time, and the kneecap s.h.i.+fted back into place with an audible click.

This moment, right now, was the finish line. If he could not cross it, then no other banner mattered. Caleb knew enough to understand that the longer he sat here, the more his knee would swell and stiffen. It was either keep it loose, or end this. So he stood gently, hopped on his left leg, took a very long breath, visualizing kinetic energy flowing from the trees into his kneecap, and took a full step on his right leg. The pain was horrific. Somehow he did not collapse, and he tried another step. Eventually the pain would subside, he knew, but it might take miles.

Kevin stood beside him. ”Engineer's gonna hurt, bro,” he said seriously.

The sun fell behind the mountain, plunging them into a sudden and complete darkness. Kevin took two headlamps with Petzl lights and pulled them onto his head and Caleb's. Only the five yards of trail directly in front of him were visible in the circle of yellow light. Moving into it felt like the night swimming he had done in Issaquah. A primal fear pushed against a sense of deep trust and faith, a sense of the unknowable.

After some miles of ascent, the pain in his knee began to subside. Tomorrow it would be a very different story, he knew, but right now it was nearly numb. He looked below him. A wave of golden lights hovered below like j.a.panese lanterns. They were the headlamps of other runners weaving through the darkness. A beautiful sense of camaraderie overtook him.