Part 10 (1/2)
”Certainly, darling,” Lady Surrey answered, with a vague foreboding of something wrong.
”I don't say I care any more for Mr. Vardon than for anybody else; I haven't seen enough of him to know whether I care for him or not. But if ever I _do_ care for anybody, it will be for somebody like him, and not for somebody like Lord St. Ives or Monty Fitzroy. I don't like the men I meet in town; they all talk to us as if we were dolls or babies. I don't want to marry a man who says to himself, as Surrey says already, 'Ah, I shall look out for some rich girl or other and make her a countess, if she's a good girl, and if she suits me.' I'd rather have a man like Mr.
Vardon than any of the men we ever meet in London.”
”But, my darling,” said Lady Surrey, quite alarmed at Gladys' too serious tone, ”surely there are gentlemen quite as clever and quite as intellectual as Mr. Vardon.”
”Mamma!” cried Gladys, rising, ”do you mean to say Mr. Vardon is not a gentleman?”
”Gladys, Gladys! sit down, dear. Don't get so excited. Of course he is.
I trust I have as great a respect as anybody for talent and culture. But what I meant to say was this--can't you find as much talent and culture among people of our own station as--as among people of Mr. Vardon's?”
”No,” said Gladys shortly.
”Really, my dear, you are too hard upon the peerage.”
”Well, mamma, can you mention any one that we know who is?” asked the peremptory girl.
”Not exactly in our own set,” said Lady Surrey hesitatingly; ”but surely there must be _some_.”
”I don't know them,” Gladys replied quietly, ”and till I _do_ know them, I shall remain of my own opinion still. If you wish me not to see so much of Mr. Vardon, I shall try to do as you say; but if I happen to like any particular person, whether he's a peer or a ploughboy, I can't help liking him, so there's an end of it.” And Gladys kissed her mother demurely on the forehead, and walked with a stately sweep out of the room.
”It's perfectly clear,” said Lady Surrey to herself, ”that that girl's in love with Mr. Vardon, and what on earth I'm to do about it is to me a mystery.” And indeed Lady Surrey's position was by no means an easy one.
On the one hand, she felt that whatever she herself, who was a person of mature years, might happen to do, it would be positively wicked in her to allow a young girl like Gladys to throw herself away on a man in Harry Vardon's position. Without any shadow of an _arriere pensee_, that was her genuine feeling as a mother and a member of society. But then, on the other hand, how could she oppose it, if she really ever thought herself, even conditionally, of marrying Harry Vardon? Could she endure that her daughter should think she had acted as her rival? Could she press the point about Harry's conventional disadvantages, when she herself had some vague idea that if Harry offered himself as Gladys'
step-father, she would not be wholly disinclined to consider his proposal? Could she set it down as a crime in her daughter to form the very self-same affection which she herself had well-nigh formed?
Moreover, she couldn't help feeling in her heart that Gladys was right, after all; and that the daughter's defiance of conventionality was implicitly inherited from the mother. If she had met Harry Vardon twenty years ago, she would have thought and spoken much like Gladys; in fact, though she didn't speak, she thought so, very nearly, even now. I am sorry that I am obliged to write out these faint outlines of ideas in all the brutal plainness of the English language as spoken by men; I cannot give all those fine shades of unspoken reservations and womanly self-deceptive subterfuges by which the poor little countess half disguised her own meaning even from herself; but at least you will not be surprised to hear that in the end she lay down on the little couch in the corner, covered her face with chagrin and disappointment, and had a good cry. Then she got up an hour later, washed her eyes carefully to take off the redness, put on her pretty dove-coloured morning gown with the lace tr.i.m.m.i.n.g--she looked charming in lace--and went down smiling to lunch, as pleasant and cheery a little widow of thirty-seven as ever you would wish to see. Upon my soul, Harry Vardon, I really almost think you will be a fool if you don't finally marry the countess!
”Gladys,” said little Lord Surrey to his sister that evening, when she came into his room on her way upstairs to bed--”Gladys, it's my opinion you're getting too sweet on this fellow Vardon.”
”I shall be obliged, Surrey, if you'll mind your own business, and allow me to mind mine.”
”Oh, it's no use coming the high and mighty over me, I can tell you, so don't you try it on. Besides, I have something I want to speak to you about particularly. It's my opinion also that my lady's doing the very same thing.”
”What nonsense, Surrey!” cried Gladys, colouring up to her eyebrows in a second: ”how dare you say such a thing about mamma?” But a light broke in upon her suddenly all the same, and a number of little unnoticed circ.u.mstances flashed back at once upon her memory with a fresh flood of meaning.
”Nonsense or not, it's true, I know; and what I want to say to you is this--If old Vardon's to marry either of you, it ought to be you, because that would save mamma at any rate from making a fool of herself.
As far as I'm concerned, I'd rather neither of you did; for I don't see why either of you should want to marry a beggarly fellow of a tutor”--Gladys' eyes flashed fire--”though Vardon's a decent enough chap in his way, if that was all; but at any rate, as one or other of you's c.o.c.k-sure to do it, I don't want him for a step-father. So you see, as far as that goes, I back the filly. Now, say no more about it, but go to bed like a good girl, and mind, whatever you do, you don't forget to say your prayers. Good night, old girl.”
”I wouldn't marry a fellow like Surrey,” said Gladys to herself, as she went upstairs, ”no, not if he was the premier duke of England!”
For the next three weeks there was such a comedy of errors and cross-purposes at Colyford Abbey as was never seen before anywhere outside of one of Mr. Gilbert's clever extravaganzas. Lady Surrey tried to keep Gladys in every possible way out of Harry's sight; while her brother tried in every possible way to throw them together. Gladys on her part half avoided him, and yet grew somewhat more confidential than ever whenever she happened to talk with him. Harry did not feel quite so much at home as before with Lady Surrey; he had an uncomfortable sense that he had failed to acquit himself as he ought to have done; while Lady Surrey had a half suspicion that she had let him see her unfledged secret a little too early and too openly. The natural consequence of all this was that Harry was cast far more than before upon the society of Ethel Martindale, with whom he often strolled about the shrubbery till very close upon the dressing gong. Ethel did not come down to dinner--she dined with the little ones at the family luncheon; and that horrid galling distinction cut Harry to the quick every night when he left her to go in. Every day, too, it began to dawn upon him more clearly that the vague reason which had kept him back from proposing to Lady Surrey on that eventful night was just this--that Ethel Martindale had made herself a certain vacant niche in his unfurnished heart. She was a dear, quiet, una.s.suming little girl, but so very graceful, so very tender, so very womanly, that she crept into his affections unawares without possibility of resistance. The countess was a beautiful and accomplished woman of the world, with a real heart left in her still, but not quite the sort of tender, shrinking, girlish heart that Harry wanted. Gladys was a lovely girl with stately manners and a wonderfully formed character, but too great and too redolent of society for Harry.
He admired them both, each in her own way, but he couldn't possibly have lived a lifetime with either. But Ethel, dear, meek, pretty, gentle little Ethel--well, there, I'm not going to repeat for you all the raptures that Harry went into over that perennial and ever rejuvenescent theme. For, to tell you the truth, about three weeks after the night when Harry did _not_ propose to the countess, he actually _did_ propose to Ethel Martindale. And Ethel, after many timid protests, after much demure self-depreciation and declaration of utter unworthiness for such a man--which made Harry wild with indignation--did finally let him put her little hand to his lips, and whispered a sort of broken and blus.h.i.+ng ”Yes.”
What a fool he had been, he thought that evening, to suppose for half a second that Lady Surrey had ever meant to regard him in any other light than as her son's tutor. He hated himself for his own nonsensical vanity. Who was he that he should fancy all the women in England were in love with him?
Next morning's _Times_ contained that curious announcement about its being the intention of the Government to appoint an electrician to the Admiralty, and inviting applications from distinguished men of science.
Now Harry, young as he was, had just perfected his great system of the double-revolving commutator and back-action rheostat (Patent Office, No.