Part 38 (1/2)
”Thee is prejudiced and unjust. I hope thee'll be in a better mood to-morrow,” and she left my room looking hurt and grieved.
I sank back in my chair in wretched, reckless apathy, and from the depths of my heart wished I had died.
After a little time Mrs. Yocomb came hastily in, looking half ashamed of her weakness, and in her hands was a bowl of delicious broth.
”My heart relents toward thee,” she said, with moist eyes. ”I ought to have made more allowance for one whose mother left him much too early.
Take this, every drop, and remember thy pledge to get well and be a generous man. I'll trust thee to keep thy word,” and she departed before I could speak.
”Well, I should be a devil incarnate if I didn't become a man after her kindness,” I muttered, and I gulped down the broth and my evil mood at the same time.
At the end of an hour I could almost have shaken hands with Gilbert Hearn, who prospered in all that he touched.
As the sun declined I heard the rustle of a silk on the stairway. A moment later Miss Warren mounted the horseblock and stood waiting for Reuben, who soon appeared in the family rockaway.
I thought the maiden looked a trifle pale in contrast with her light silk, but perhaps it was the shadow of the tree she stood under; but I muttered, ”Even his critical taste can find no fault with that form and face; she'll grace his princely home, and none will recognize the truth more clearly than he.”
She hesitatingly lifted her eyes toward my window, and I started back, forgetting that I was hidden by the half-closed blind; but my face suffused with pleasure as I said to myself:
”Heaven bless her! she does not forget me wholly, even on the threshold of her happiness.”
At that moment Old Plod, pa.s.sing through the yard in his early Sat.u.r.day release from toil, gave a loud whinny of recognition. The young girl started visibly, sprang lightly down from the block and caressed her great heavy-footed pet, and then, without another glance at my window, entered the rockaway, and was driven rapidly toward the distant depot at which she would welcome the most fortunate man in the world.
I now felt sure that I had guessed her a.s.sociations with the old plow-horse, and, sore-hearted as I was, I laughed long and silently over the quaint fancy.
”Truly,” I muttered, ”the courtly and elegant banker would not feel flattered if he knew about it. How in the world did she ever come to unite the two in her mind?”
But as I thought it all over I was led to conclude that it was natural enough. The lonely girl had no doubt found that even in the best society of a Christian city she must ever be warily on her guard. She was beautiful, and yet poor and apparently friendless; and, as she had intimated, she had found many of the young and gay ready to flatter, and with anything but sincere motives. The banker, considerably her senior, had undoubtedly proved himself a quiet, steadfast friend. He was not the fool to neglect her as did those stupid horses, for any oats the world could offer, and she always found him, like Old Plod, ready to drop everything for her, and well he might. ”No matter how devoted he has been, he can never plume himself on any magnanimity,” I said to myself. ”She probably finds him a trifle formal and sedate, and rather lacking in ideality, just as Old Plod is very stolid till she appears; but then he is safe and strong, and very kind to a friendless girl, who might well shrink from the vicissitudes of her lot, and would naturally be attracted by the protection and position which he could offer. In spite of the disparity of years, a woman might easily love a man who could do so much for her, and the banker is still well preserved and handsome. Of course Emily Warren does love him: all the wealth of Wall Street could not buy her. Yes, in a world full of lightning flashes she has made a thrifty and excellent choice. I may as well own it, in spite of every motive to prejudice. Gilbert Hearn is not my ideal man by any means. Good things are essential to him. He would feel personally aggrieved if the weather was bad for two days in succession. He is very charitable and public-spirited, and he likes our paper to recognize the fact: I have proof of that too. Alms given in the dark are not exactly wasted--but I'm thinking scandal. He so likes to let his 'light so s.h.i.+ne.' He's respectability personified, and the toil-worn girl will be taken into an ark of safety.
”I suppose I ought to be magnanimous enough to think that it's all for the best, since he can do infinitely more for her than I ever could.
She will be the millionaire's wife, and I'll go back to my dingy little office and write paragraphs heavy enough to sink a cork s.h.i.+p. Thus will end my June idyll; but should I live a century I will always feel that Gilbert Hearn married my wife.”
CHAPTER VIII
AN IMPULSE
For nearly an hour I sat listlessly in my chair and watched the shadows lengthen across the valley. Suddenly an impulse seized me, and I resolved to obey it.
”If I can go downstairs to-morrow, I can go just as well to-night,” I said, ”and go I will. She shall not have a shadow on her first evening with her lover, and she's too good-hearted to enjoy it wholly if she thinks I'm moping and sighing in my room. Moreover, I shall not let my shadows make a background for the banker's general prosperity. Stately and patronizing he cannot help being, and Miss Warren may lead him to think that he is under some obligation to me--I wish he might never hear of it--but, by Vulcan and his sledge! he shall have no cause to pity me while he unctuously rubs his hands in self-felicitation.”
As far as my strength permitted, I made a careful toilet, and sat down to wait. As the sun sank below the horizon, the banker appeared. ”Very appropriate,” I muttered; ”but his presence would make it dark at midday.”
Miss Warren was talking with animation, and pointing out the surrounding objects of interest, and he was listening with a wonderfully complacent smile on his smooth, full face.
”How prosperous he looks!” I muttered. ”The idea of anything going contrary to his will or wishes!”
Then I saw that a little girl sat on the front seat with Reuben, and that he was letting her drive, but with his hand hovering near the reins.
Mr. and Mrs. Yocomb came out and greeted Mr. Hearn cordially, and he in return was very benign, for it was evident that, in their place and station, he found them agreeable people, and quite to his mind.