15 Sarah (2/2)
”I don't want to know it by a total stranger,” I insisted.
”Don't you want to know more about the ring you are wearing?”
”Robert's ring?”
”It has Siobhan's royal emblem, the dragon. Everyone worthy of still being a part of this powerful dynasty died that night. Everyone but one.”
”Jennifer?”
”People say she ran away from her sister cowardly, others believe she was saved because she was meant to be the next queen. I think she couldn't have helped her even if she wanted to,” he said.
”How did it happen?” I inquired.
”Your friend, like many others, believes he could have saved her, but nobody could have, not even her sister. Her death may have changed and clouded his mind, as it did with all of us in a way or another. The way they killed her was inhumane, and when a tragedy occurs, we all blame and point our fingers to the next person, until reminding us what if? It would mean we also were part of the blame, and the guilt hidden within us will silently eat us alive.”
”But why would he hate her? If she couldn't save her, why does he despise her so much?”
”Guilt and hate are intertwined, it is the easiest reaction to accept. If he hates her, then he can forget for one second it wasn't his fault after all, even if it truly wasn't,” he said.
”What did they do to her which was inhumane?” I asked.
”War changes people, it begins when people seize more power for themselves, it won't matter how many innocents will be killed in the meanwhile. They see a child as an obstacle for their insane dream of conquering their desires and if you don't move, if you don't fight back or if you're too weak, you're wiped out from this world. This is what happened, as it will continue in the future.”
”But you didn't answer me.”
”I can't answer you how she died, I'm in no position to tell you. If you want answers you need to ask your friends.”
”You come here to tell me all this and you can't even answer a simple question?”
”I didn't know we had a curious princess, I already told you what you needed to know. By the way, this is a celebration, is it not? Let's have a drink,” he said giving me a glass of what seemed to be champagne? I took a sip out of anger and began to drink it all. The taste was sweet, it gave me a weird sensation as I wanted to drink more of it. Around me the room began to spin like a top, as my head became extremely dizzy.
”Are you feeling okay love?” he asked.
”I need to sit down. I don't feel very well,” I said.
”I think you need to sleep,” he remarked as I felt my heartbeat slowing down and a loud noise kept thumping my eardrums, almost destroying them.
”I need Mitsuko or Robert. I don't think I feel-”
”Don't worry love, just go to sleep,” he whispered.
My eyes were weighed down, it would have been useless to try and keep them open. I understood what was happening to me, but I could not do anything to ensure I would not have fallen asleep even if I wanted to. It was a matter of seconds; my brain was already shutting down.