Part 14 (2/2)

Seeing my interest Jennet warmed to her subject. There was little she liked so much as gossip.

”Oh yes,” said Jennet, ”a poor timid thing, she were. Frightened of her own shadow. The master, they say, do want someone as can stand up to him as you do, Mistress. They say you be just the one for him and he knows it. This poor lady, frightened she were, frightened of the castle and ghosts and things and most of all of him.”

”Poor child,” I said.

”Oh yes, Mistress, and the master he did want a son and it seemed she could not give him one. There was lots of tries, as you might say. She'd be so and then she'd lose it, and then so again. Only once did she stay her full time ... and that was the last. Once she went seven months though. The others ... they were all quick, as you might say.”

”She must have had a very uncomfortable time.”

”She did. And the master he were mad, like. Shouted he did ... called her a useless stock. That's what he called her. They'd hear him shouting and his rage was terrible. Woe betide any who went near him when he was in these rages. They used to be frightened that he'd do away with her. And she was afraid too. She told her maid ... Mary Anne, it were. She's with one of the Seaward men now and works over there. She told Mary Anne that sometimes she feared he'd do away with her.”

I felt I had had enough and wanted to hear no more. Of course I liked to have confirmation that he was content with our marriage and that he found his second wife more attractive than his first, but I could not bear this talk about his cruelty to her.

”All right, Jennet,” I said. ”That's enough. Servants exaggerate.”

”Not this time, Mistress, for Mary Anne did say she was real terrified. And when she was so again she was so frantic she did not know what to do. You see she believed she'd never have the child and she was so sick and ill every time. She thought she would die, and she told Mary Anne that she ought never to try for children. The doctor was against it. She ought never to have married because she knew it would kill her sooner or later. She said she had pleaded with him and he had said that if she could not give him children what good was she to him ...”

”I don't want to hear any more servant's gossip, Jennet,” I said.

”No, Mistress, no more you do. But they did wonder why she didn't run away and go home to her family. 'Twas not all that far.”

”Oh?” I said.

”I could scarce believe it when I heard,” said Jennet, ”seeing that we'd been there, like, and was on terms with the family.”

”What do you mean?”

”Well, Mistress, the master's first wife was the sister of the young gentleman we all thought you'd take. Her name before her marriage was Melanie Landor.”

I felt dizzy suddenly. In my mind I was transported back to Trystan Priory. I was in a small room looking at a picture of a fair young girl.

I could hear a voice saying: She was murdered.

That girl had been Colum's first wife.

YSELLA'S TOWER

IT HAUNTED ME. I could not get her out of my mind. I could imagine her so clearly in this place, having seen her picture. It was strange how that had impressed itself on my mind. I could not forget the anguish in her mother's eyes; I could hear the underlying hatred in the voice as she had said: ”She was murdered.”

And Jennet: ”Sometimes she feared he'd do away with her.”

Why had he married her in the first place? Had he been in love with her? A fair innocent young girl. He liked innocence. He had liked it in me. He took some savage delight in destroying that innocence as he had on that first night I had spent in Castle Paling.

I was thinking about him, this man who was the father of my child. What if I had failed as Melanie Landor had? I had delighted him only because I had given him what he wanted.

I could not get her out of my mind. I looked for signs of her about the place. When I walked the ramparts and looked out at the sea I thought of her standing there and the fear that would have hung over her. It was as though she walked beside me, appearing at odd moments, a shadowy presence to haunt me, to cast a shadow over my happiness. Poor frail Melanie who had failed to please him and who had died because of it!

No, not because of it. She had died in childbed. Many women did. A husband could not be blamed for that.

I kept hearing her mother's fierce murmur: She was murdered. I must make allowances for a mother's grief. And how strange that she should have been Fennimore's sister. But was it? They were not distant neighbours. Marriages were arranged between people of their position.

What were the Landors thinking now? They would know that I, whom they had chosen to be Fennimore's wife, was now married to the man who had been their daughter's husband.

What had they thought? How strange that my mother who had seen them since my marriage had not mentioned this fact to me. It would have been so natural for her to do so.

I was betraying too much interest in my husband's first wife. Jennet, quick to realize this, garnered knowledge for me.

”It were in the Red Room she died, Mistress,” she told me. And I must go to the Red Room.

How dark it was. How full of shadows, and there was the big four-poster bed. I went to the window and looked out to the stark drop to the sea. I could almost feel her then. It was as though a voice whispered: Yes, I thought often of throwing myself down. It would have been quick ... anything better than my life with him.

Fancy, sheer fancy! What was the matter with me? It was the room with the dark red bed curtains-heavy, embroidered in red silk of a darker shade than the background. I pictured her shut in behind those curtains, waiting for him to come to her.

”Her room were the Red Room,” Jennet told me. ”He would go to her there. She didn't share a room with him, like. They did say he were with her only to get a son.”

I was ashamed of allowing Jennet to tell me so much; but I had to know; it was a burning curiosity and more. It was not so much that I wished to discover the truth about Colum's relations.h.i.+p with his first wife as to learn more of him.

I pictured his hatred of her. He despised weakness. He liked me best when I fought against him. She was too gentle, too meek, and she was terrified. His only interest in her would be that of procreation. Because of her position she was his wife and on the material side it would have been a suitable marriage; it was only those two who were unsuitable.

He would have his mistresses there in the room which I shared with him now doubtless, and in the dark Red Room she would be visited now and then.

There was terror in this room. It lingered. I could imagine her so well. When she was pregnant she would be afraid of death and when she was not she would be afraid of him.

And how was she equipped to fight against her fate? Poor child, brought up in the gentle Landor home where life went on smoothly and people were kind and polite to each other. I had seen something of life. I knew and had grown to love my father who was such another as Colum. I was prepared. I was the fortunate one, the loved wife who had not failed him and in less than a year had given him the son on whom he doted.

I wished that I could get her out of my mind. I could not. I could never go near the Red Room without looking in.

”Poor Melanie,” I would murmur. ”I hope you are at peace now.”

Edwina who was descended from a witch on her mother's side had certain powers. Once when Carlos was at sea and involved in a fight with a Spanish galleon she had had a vision of it and known that he was in danger; sometimes she foresaw events. It was a strange uncanny gift. I remember Edwina's telling me once that if people experienced violent emotions in a certain spot they left behind them some disturbance which was apparent to those with special insight.

I now wondered whether Melanie had left something of this behind. I lacked those special powers but perhaps because I was in her place, I could sense something here.

I half hoped and half feared that she would return in some form. Perhaps that was why I went to the Red Room so often.

I liked to go there at dusk, at that time of day when the daylight is fast fading and it is not quite time to light the candles. Then the room was at its most ghostly.

It was November, the anniversary of that day when Colum had brought me here. He remembered it and had said: ”You and I will sup alone together as we did on that day. It is a day I regard as one of the luckiest in my life.”

I had dressed myself in a russet velvet gown, and wore my hair loose about my shoulders-quite unfas.h.i.+onable but the style most becoming to me; and on that very day I could not resist going along to the Red Room at dusk.

I stood there. There were dark shadows in the room. Soon the light would be gone altogether.

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