Part 3 (2/2)

Coy took another quick glance toward the train tracks illuminated in the distance, and a look at the service station across the street, halfway between the door to this building and the terminal. A man was standing in front of the station, and he seemed to be looking up, although from the fifth floor that was difficult to determine. Something in his att.i.tude or his appearance, however, seemed familiar.

'Are you expecting anyone?” Coy asked.

She turned to him, surprised. She said nothing, but slowly walked toward him, focused on him, not the window. When she got there, she looked down. As she leaned forward her hair fanned across her chin, hiding her face. She raised a hand to brush it back, and Coy studied that profile hardened by the broken nose, lit by the glow from the street. She seemed preoccupied.

”That man's been there a while,” he said.

Tanger was holding her breath, then finally released it like a groan or a sob of irritation. Her expression had turned somber.

”You know him?” Coy asked.

Administrative silence. Sphinx, Venetian domino, Aztec mask. Mute as the ghosts of the Chergui Chergui and-the and-the Dei Gloria. Dei Gloria.

”Who was that man with the ponytail? Why were you arguing with him that night in Barcelona?”

Zas's eyes were s.h.i.+fting from one to the other, tail wagging with glee. Tanger stood there quietly a few seconds more, as if she hadn't heard the question, and placed her hand on the window-pane, leaving the mark of her fingerprints. She was very close, and Coy again breathed in the scent of warm, clean flesh. A gentle erection began to press against the left pocket of his jeans. He imagined her naked, leaning against that same window, the illumination from outside lighting her skin. He imagined tearing off her clothes and turning her toward him. He imagined picking her up in his arms and carrying her to the sofa, or to the bed in the next room, with Zas affectionately wagging his tail from the doorway. He imagined that he went mad and followed her through wind and storm to the lighthouse at the end of the world. He imagined that she wanted more from him than just to use his skills. He imagined all that and much more in a sequence of quick scenes, moving through them rapidly, ardently, desperately, until suddenly he realized that she was scrutinizing him, and that the expression in her eyes was exactly that of the woman on me yacht near Venice, the time he had spied her through the binoculars and believed that despite the distance he was penetrating her thoughts.

”I promised you one answer,” she said finally. ”There've been enough for tonight. The rest will have to wait.”

HE wanted to go to bed with that woman, he thought, as he ran down the stairs two at a time. He wanted to go to bed with her not once, but an infinite number of times. He wanted to count every golden freckle with his fingers and his tongue, and then lay her back, gently part her thighs, enter her, and kiss her mouth as he moved in her. Kiss her slowly, taking his time, tirelessly, until, as the sea molds a rock, he softened those hard lines that made her seem so distant. He wanted to put sparks of light and surprise in her navy-blue eyes, to change the rhythm of her breathing, and cause her flesh to throb and s.h.i.+ver. And then in the darkness, like a patient sniper, he would watch for that moment, that brief, fleeting moment of self-centered intensity, when a woman is absorbed in herself and her face contains the faces of all women ever born and yet to be born. wanted to go to bed with that woman, he thought, as he ran down the stairs two at a time. He wanted to go to bed with her not once, but an infinite number of times. He wanted to count every golden freckle with his fingers and his tongue, and then lay her back, gently part her thighs, enter her, and kiss her mouth as he moved in her. Kiss her slowly, taking his time, tirelessly, until, as the sea molds a rock, he softened those hard lines that made her seem so distant. He wanted to put sparks of light and surprise in her navy-blue eyes, to change the rhythm of her breathing, and cause her flesh to throb and s.h.i.+ver. And then in the darkness, like a patient sniper, he would watch for that moment, that brief, fleeting moment of self-centered intensity, when a woman is absorbed in herself and her face contains the faces of all women ever born and yet to be born.

That was Coy's state of mind as he stepped out into the street well past midnight, his erection retreating woefully to its cold bachelor's nest. That was why he found nothing strange in the fact that instead of following the sidewalk downhill to his right, he should look both ways at the Paseo Infanta Isabel, cross at a red stoplight, and walk straight in the direction of the man standing by a light in front of the service station. At heart, and in body, Coy did not like to fight. On the wildest of his sh.o.r.e leaves, during the happy time when he had s.h.i.+ps from which to go ash.o.r.e, he had played the part of involuntary actor, chorus, and comrade. He was one of those guys who goes along with friends and then, when the atmosphere heats up and things come to a boil, he is suddenly punching and taking punches without being responsible for any of it. That happened especially in the days of the Torpedero-the Tuc.u.man Torpedoman-and Crew Sanders, when Coy would often return to the s.h.i.+p with an eye black as a widow's weeds, the collar of his jacket turned up in the cold of dawn, walking along wet quays reflecting yellow light from the sheds and the derricks and the dark silhouettes of moored s.h.i.+ps. Three, four, ten staggering men, sometimes with the arms of a drunken buddy over their shoulders, feet dragging, and always some laggard on the edge of alcohol coma who followed farther behind, weaving dangerous ”s”s past the bollards at the edge of the water. Jan Sanders was the man who drew the humorous ill.u.s.trations for the Sigma naval calendars peopled with a crew of plastered, whoring, trouble-making sailors who despised their captain, a petty little tyrant with a huge mustache, and who shared catastrophes, sc.r.a.ps, and s.h.i.+pwrecks across all the seas and through all the wh.o.r.ehouses of the world. Independent of the calendars, Crew Sanders had been composed of Coy, Gallego Neira, and chief engineer Gorostiola, alias the Tuc.u.man Torpedoman, when the three sailed on Zoe s.h.i.+ps between Central America and northern Europe, and were just as likely to be broiling in anchorages and ports with tropical Caribbean rhythms as s.h.i.+vering with cold when an icy wind swept the deck and the bridge and the mercury dropped off the thermometers in New York, Hamburg, or Rotterdam. These three were the basic Crew, the standard models, although others were added depending on the port. Neira was six feet five and weighed two hundred and ten pounds, and the Torpedoman was a shade shorter and a few pounds heavier. That was useful, even rea.s.suring, in places like Panama, where they were advised to go no farther than the duty-free shop at the end of the pier, because any farther and there were always pistols and knives waiting for you. Between those two wild men, Coy looked like a dwarf. They had arms like twenty-inch hawsers, hands like propeller blades, and a marked inclination to break things-bottles, bars, faces-after the fifth whiskey. Where those two walked- with Coy in tow-the gra.s.s never grew again. In a bar in Copenhagen, for example, filled with blond men and blonde women who in the end turned out to be more blond men, the Torpedoman got riled because when he copped a feel he found a handful of something he hadn't expected. After a brief skirmish he and Neira grabbed Coy, one by each arm, and took off with his feet dangling between them, back to the port and the s.h.i.+p with a half-dozen police-also, inevitably, blond-hot on their heels. ”I swear to G.o.d I thought he was a bimbo,” the Torpedoman kept repeating. Neira was making fun of the Torpedoman's questionable eye for women, and even Coy was in st.i.tches-something his newly split lip could have used-while the Torpedoman was shooting glances at them out of the corner of his eye, highly offended. ”Now don't you tell anyone, you hear? Don't even think of it. a.s.sholes.”

The man at the service station was just standing there, watching Coy bearing down on him. Coy zeroed in, hands in his jacket pockets, feeling an intense inner energy, a vital exuberance that made him want to shout at the top of his lungs, or pick a fight- with or without Crew Sanders. He was a puppy dog in love. He was aware of it, and yet instead of feeling miserable, he felt stimulated. From his point of view, the sailors with Ulysses who had sealed their ears with wax in order not to hear the sirens' song would never know what they'd missed. Everyone knows the old saw: Any sailor who has nothing to do, looks for a s.h.i.+p, but a woman too. And that justification was as good as any. This adventure, or whatever the devil it turned out to be, included in the same package a s.h.i.+p- albeit a sunken one-and a woman. As for the consequences-the blows and fighting that the s.h.i.+p, the woman, and his own state of mind might generate-he didn't give a rat's a.s.s.

Once at the service station, Coy walked straight toward the stranger standing sentry duty by the light and the closer he got the stronger was the feeling of familiarity he'd had looking down from the window. When he was almost upon him, and his target was watching him with obvious suspicion, Coy began to coil his line, recognizing the short individual from the auction, the same one he thought he'd seen beneath the arcades on the Plaza Real, and who now, no question about it, was right there before him in his green country-estate car coat, looking as if he were dressed for a parody of a morning hunt in Suss.e.x. The parody bit accentuated his short stature, as well as the bulging eyes and melancholy expression Coy remembered so clearly. The English apparel was laughably at odds with his Mediterranean appearance-black eyes and mustache, gelled hair gleaming at the temples, and sallow, southern European skin.

”What the f.u.c.k are you doing here?”

Coy approached his quarry at an angle just in case, hands held a little away from his body, muscles tensed, because more than once he had seen pint-sized guys leap forward and sink their teeth into fellows the size of a refrigerator, or palm a knife and bury it in a man's thigh before you could say Hail Mary At any rate, the man was not about to show Coy his profile, maybe because in that getup he was a strange hybrid of formal and grotesque, a kind of cross between Danny DeVito and Peter Loire decked out for a rainy-day turn about the English countryside.

”Sorry?”

The man smiled, sadly. Coy thought he heard a vague South American accent. Argentine, maybe. Or Uruguayan.

”One meeting might be chance,” Coy said. ”Two, a coincidence. Three, my b.a.l.l.s tell me...”

The little man seemed to consider his comment. Coy noted the meticulously knotted bow tie, the impeccably s.h.i.+ned dark-brown shoes.

”I don't know what you're talking about,” he said finally.

His smile grew a little wider. A courteous, slightly pained smile. He had the face of a decent fellow, a pleasant man whose mustache made him look old. His bulging eyes were focused on Coy.

”I'm talking,” Coy replied, ”about being fed up with seeing you everywhere I go.”

'And I repeat, I don't know what you are referring to.” The composed expression did not alter. ”In any case, if I have offended you, believe me, I regret that.”

”You'll regret it even more if you don't tell me what you're doing here.”

The little man raised his eyebrows, as if surprised. He seemed sincerely wounded by the threat. This cannot be, his face said. It isn't seemly for a nice young man like you to be saying such things.

”Let us negotiate instead,” he said.

”What the h.e.l.l does that mean?”

”I mean, my good sir, let us be civilized.”

His accent again suggested Argentina. He's putting me on, thought Coy. This sonofab.i.t.c.h is laughing in my face. He debated for an instant whether to punch him in the nose, right where he stood, or push him into a corner and search his pockets to see who he was. Coy was about to make his move when he saw the service-station attendant stepping out of his booth, watching them. Am I headed for trouble? Coy asked himself. Do I raise a ruckus and then face trying to undo the damage? He looked up to the windows on the top floor. All the lights were out. She wanted nothing to do with it. Or was she there, with the lights turned out to keep from being seen? Coy was unsure. This was a fine kettle of fish. Then he saw that the melancholy dwarf had sidled a little toward the curb and was hailing a taxi. Smooth as a chess p.a.w.n sliding from one square to another.

COY stood a while in front of the service station, contemplating the dark windows of the fifth floor. Someone is pulling my strings, he thought. Has me on a stage complete with audience and stage crew. And I'm letting myself be shanghaied like a drunk Ukrainian. He supposed that Tanger was still upstairs, watching from the dark, but he couldn't perceive the least movement. Even so, he stayed a while, looking up, sure that she had seen everything, fighting the impulse to go back upstairs and ask for an explanation. Two smacks with the back of his hand, and she, fallen back against the sofa. I can explain everything, and besides, I love you. Then tears, and a good f.u.c.k. Forgive me for taking you for a fool, et cetera, et cetera. Blah, blah, blah. stood a while in front of the service station, contemplating the dark windows of the fifth floor. Someone is pulling my strings, he thought. Has me on a stage complete with audience and stage crew. And I'm letting myself be shanghaied like a drunk Ukrainian. He supposed that Tanger was still upstairs, watching from the dark, but he couldn't perceive the least movement. Even so, he stayed a while, looking up, sure that she had seen everything, fighting the impulse to go back upstairs and ask for an explanation. Two smacks with the back of his hand, and she, fallen back against the sofa. I can explain everything, and besides, I love you. Then tears, and a good f.u.c.k. Forgive me for taking you for a fool, et cetera, et cetera. Blah, blah, blah.

He came back to reality with a sigh that was close to a moan. There must be rules for all this. Rules I don't know and she does. Or maybe rules she makes up as she goes. And maybe the rules of the moment for going ahead or cutting out are as follows: Goodbye, great evening, and turn out the light as you go, but don't say we didn't warn you, sailor. Or maybe someone was even being truthful with him.

He was so puzzled that he headed toward the nearby traffic circle and then slowly walked up calle Atocha. In the first bar that was open-they didn't have Sapphire gin there either-he stood quietly at the counter, looking at his drink without touching it. The place was an old saloon with a zinc counter, Formica chairs, a television, and photos of the famous matador Rayo Vallecano on the wall. There was no one there but the waiter, a skinny man with a tattoo on the back of one hand. His grease-spotted s.h.i.+rt and contemptuous expression did not invite confidence as he swept the sawdust from a floor scattered with crumpled napkins and shrimp sh.e.l.ls. Coy was sitting facing a mirror with the printed logo of San Miguel beer, and his face was reflected over the list of snacks and food written in white script. His eyes were precisely at the level of 'loin of pork with tomato sauce” and ”squid a la vinaigrette,” which was not a thing to raise anyone's spirits. He studied his image with uncertainty, asking it what steps he should take in the next hours.

”I want to go to bed with her,” he told the waiter.

”We all want that,” was his philosophical reply, as he continued to sweep.

Coy nodded, then lifted the gla.s.s to his lips. He drank a little, looked at himself in the mirror, and made a face.

”The problem,” he said, ”is that she doesn't play fair.”

”They never do.”

”But she's beautiful. The b.i.t.c.h.”

”They all are.”

The waiter had deposited the broom in a corner, and once back behind the bar, served himself a beer. Coy watched him slowly drink half the gla.s.s without taking a breath; then he examined every photo of El Rayo, ending with a poster of a bullfight in Las Ventas seven years before. He unb.u.t.toned his jacket and dug into his pants pockets. He pulled out three coins, laid them on the counter, and began trying to slip one between the other two without moving or touching either.

”I'm headed for trouble.”

This time the waiter did not immediately reply. He stared at the foam on the rim of his gla.s.s.

”Well, she may be worth it,” he said after a moment.

”I don't know yet.” Coy shrugged. ”There's a sunken s.h.i.+p, just like a movie__ And I think there are even some bad guys.”

For the first time, the waiter looked at Coy. He seemed vaguely interested.

”Dangerous?”

”I don't even know.”

A long silence. Coy kept playing with the coins, and took a couple of sips while the waiter, leaning on the end of the bar, finished his beer, took a package of cigarettes from beneath the counter, and lit one. His tattooed hand included four blue dots between the knuckles of his thumb and index finger-a typical jailbird. He was young, so he couldn't have been there long. Two or three years, Coy calculated. Maybe four or five.

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