91 Too Selfish To Let Go (1/2)

Hui Yin felt that the atmosphere had turned heavy, so she turned her gaze on the view below them.

She didn't want to entertain this kind of topic anymore.

”Look, there's a hole in that mountain there. Wait, that's actually the 'Heaven's Gate'? Why does it look like someone's nostril from up here? Haha...”

Hui Yin coughed. Lu Shen's eyes had never left her, and she was beginning to feel uncomfortable. What was he looking at? Stare at the view instead! My lord, why must you scare people like this?

She pretended to ignore his gaze, going 'oooh' and 'aaaah' at the sights outside the glass. But after a brief pause, Lu Shen spoke again.

”Didn't I say that we'll talk about this? Then let's talk now.”

”Talk?” Hui Yin purposely made a blank face. ”What's there to talk about?”

”Xiao Yin.”

Her name on his lips sounded like a malediction.

Hui Yin smiled wryly to herself.

But hidden behind her mask, the smile she wore contained a tinge of sadness. This might be her last day to be together with him like this. Perhaps, she was only a fleeting fling for him.

But for her...Hui Yin stared at Lu Shen.

He was her lover, her fiancé, and her husband for many years. She loved him, and then she hated him. All of her emotions were invested on this man in front of her, and she was finally going to end it. She should have been feeling happy right now, but...why?

Why did it still feel so painful?

Hui Yin thought of the classical poem she read years ago, as the setting sun outside the window cast shadows across her face. Her eyelashes fluttered down, nearly brushing her cheekbones.

'It was hard to meet you and harder to bid farewell.

The east wind blew weak and all the flowers fell.'

The human heart was not a rational organ, after all. If feelings could be easily controlled, would she have even dared to marry him in her previous life? The constant disdain of his parents, the disparity in their statuses, his cold heart—would she have chosen to say 'I do' if it were not for love?