20 The Very Firs (1/2)

Under the river that's reflecting the gentle moonlight where it can be seen as peaceful, there's Rin who's wrath had reach to its limit.

He was very fatigue, fighting thugs isn't easy than it looks. On top of that, he is just pushing himself. There it is again, he lost the freedom to breath.

His body wanted to float out of their but a rope and a stone is restricting him to do so.

'Why is this always happening to me?', Rin asked. He really pitied himself.When he was going all fun and experiencing new things, gaining confidence. Misfortunes befall to him again and again.

'It goes back to me being weak again.'

'If I'm not weak, nothing of this should've happened.'

'I should be living a normal life right now.'

'I feel like this is nothing new to me.' He dazed off and looked up on the wavy moon.

'I've gone through torture every single day. My classmates doesn't see me as one of them. My teachers only ridicule me. They think that it is fine since I am weak and quiet, unable to fight back or even seek help.'

Rin's will is slowly collapsing.

'I got bullied by people I didn't know who. Even girls don't seem to differentiate from the boys who bully me. Well, except for one.'

His dead eyes were slowly closing.

'I am weak because I am fearful, a coward! I've endure the greatest pain, the greatest shame, sadness, despair! Agony! Terror! Because of this cowardice that I grew numb of it.'

Rin ridiculed himself.

'…'

His eyebrows frowned.

'If I've face faced the worst because of my cowardice then…”, His eyes abruptly widely opened, 'what is there to be feared of?'

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'There is nothing that I should fear if all the worst already happened?'

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'Why do I even need fear if I can't die?!'

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'Why do I have to be cautious if any pain is nothing to all that I went through? Is there a need to be embarrassed if I've already experience shame everyday?'

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