12 Clear Mind, Forgo (1/2)

I Am Undying Semi_Nigh2 21420K 2022-07-22

He stared blankly to the ceiling and whispered to himself as if mocking: ”I forgot that I wanted to die. Why am I even glad?”

His mind is so confused at the moment that he's not able to think straight. If he did not feel the pain from earlier then he would question it if it was even real.

The blood-soaked floor has an unbearable stench to it. Rin only began to noticed when he stopped thinking and become aware of his surroundings.

”It smells bad.” Rin's mind couldn't process or even take any information as it is. It is too tired and in a confused state even after he slept like a log. So he decided to go take a bath and clean. It wouldn't hurt to relax first before looking at the problem, right?

This is Rin at his natural habitat, where his most comfort zone is at and on top of that he is alone. He shows his real personality, worrying about nothing and having to be carefree. Maybe that's the reason why he is different when with people or when he's [Outside].

Rin is afraid to show his carefree personality to others because of rejection. In his mind, people are always diligent. Even when he is with his mother, he always thinks about almost everything to the point that he unable to notice or become aware in real-time, making him clumsy or even stupid.

A person couldn't always have conscious thoughts all the time. So in a practical way, he is the most diligent person but it's too much that he's not even aware of it.

However, right now, his mind is tired and couldn't even hold a thought. He took a bath for two hours that made him refreshed a little bit and cleaned the living room where he made a mess.

After cleaning, he decided to get another rest. It was past 3 o'clock, the night was very quiet, he slept again without any hinder. He was suffering for two weeks or more, he should be trembling in fear or having a hard time dealing with a trauma but there he is, sleeping peacefully like it was normal.

It was noon this time, the sun was up high and giving heat that people stayed indoors but there is man walking on top of a house's roof like the heat of the sun was nothing.

He was whistling an unknown relaxing tune as he walked raising his legs straight high. Surely the rooftop wasn't flat but he was walking on it like it was.

The man has a white messy hair and looked like he is at his 30's. His face was sharp; having narrow eyes, sharp nose and a pointy beard.

He whispered a sharp, ”What?!” he turned his head and stared faraway ”After just a few weeks and another one was chosen?? Must be Nathan, he's really active these days.” He smirked and chuckled. He looked at the distance like his prey was there ”Great…”