72 LIKE WHAT MINHO? (2/2)

”Tell me,” he interrupted me. ”Who do you love more, me or that Ethan?” He spat the name like it was some kind of poison.

I turned silent, contemplating. I was like a child scolded of a wrongdoing. But he was all right. He was all right on all points. I should have told him everything. I should have told him the truth. But we're on this situation now, so I should do my best to fix this.

But answering to his question, well I don't know what to say. I love both of them, but in a very different way.

”Answer me Cassidy!”

I jumped on my seat, for the third time today. I gulped. Okay Cassidy, just tell him the truth.

”Minho, I.... I love you. And I love Ethan too..” My voice trailed off, noticing the misunderstanding those phrases may lead.

”NO! You have to choose one!”

”Minho, I can't. I love you both, but in different ways. I love you as my boyfriend. Ethan, I love him as a friend, a best friend.”

”No Cassidy. It's either me or Ethan?”

I was stunned. How can I choose? Ethan was a part of me, and now he is a good friend. He started accepting our status, and he's doing a good job in executing it. And Minho is my present, my future maybe. He is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with.

Choosing between them is hard, but to hell with this, I'll give him my thoughts.

”Minho, I will always choose you. I choose you as the one I want to be with until I die. I choose you because I love you. But I can't unlove Ethan, as I can't unlove all my friends. To them, to Ethan, is a different kind of love. But to you, I'll give the greatest love I want to cherish.”

”No! I want you to cut all ties with him!”

I blinked a few times. ”Cut all ties?” I asked haltingly.

”Yes! I don't want you to talk to him ever again. Never ever.”

”But Minho-”

”No buts. Either that, or you'll never see me again.”

”Minho, that is a very hard thing to do. And even if I can, I won't do it. Because Ethan has been a part of my life. He helped me survive my college years, and now he needs someone to bring him back to the light. I can't just leave him in sadness and depression-”

”Must it be you? Doesn't he have other friends to do that? For God's sake, he's your ex!”

”And what if he is my ex? Why can't exes become friends? Huh? Tell me? We started off as friends, in the same circle. So, I guess we should naturally end up as friends. And for the record, we didn't end on a bad note. It was a mutual decision.”

”Whatever Cassidy. I just can't help getting jealous. He was the one who took your virginity for f*ck's sake! I will hate him for that, always. He is the reason I got you like that!”

”Like what Minho? You don't like it that you had me when I wasn't a virgin anymore?”